je veux arreter d’exister

the lights have all gone out

no ones left here in this house

no more worries cares or doubts

it happened all so suddenly

but so expected it was

it was drawn out for so long

bad thoughts were all abuzz

then catastrophe

misery

melancholy and woe

they crept into my life and tossed my feelings to and fro

the storm was unforgiving

the aftermath was dreadful

i tried to be understanding

but the feeling was just too awful

i said it was fine and we called it off

i packed it all away

the rooms were already kind of empty

our lease was ending anyways

we’ll talk i’m sure

i doubt you’d let this be the end

we’re still friends after all

my eyes are dry but yearn to cry and flood like the kitchen sink

my mind is gone my feelings numb and i don’t know what to do

I really really do

I wish I could disintegrate

The moon would be my friend

She'd love me and take care of me

But I don't want to die

I want to fall out of reality

I wish I could not reappear, just sink down deep and low

I wish I could stop and go deaf and not think, I wish my life were that simple

I wish I didn't have to deal with time, I wish I could live in a dimple

I wish I could live among the stars in space, and travel throughout the void

I wish I could go to my own empty planet, to rot away on an asteroid

I wish I could have shorter hair, but longer all the same

she wandered through the forest and resided in a tree and she never looked as happy as when sipping on her tea.

she picked flowers in the garden in the early morning light and went to bed whenever she felt the moonlight was just right.

her home was simply perfect in the roots under the tree and she loved how it was decorated “of course! it was done by me”.

she had furniture from branches, moss carpets on the floor, her bed made of chrysanthemums, forget me nots galore! she tied them in her hair and used them everyday in simple things like tea and blush and nothing at all seemed gray.

she was happy living there with the flowers in her hair and nothing would ever change that, mother nature wouldn’t dare.

Your warm embrace surrounded me, as did all your charms

You held me tight and kissed me and I never felt so safe