i don't have sexuality ocd, i don't think i'll turn straight or something

but i'm literally a gold star lesbian, in a relationship with a girl i'm extremely sexually attracted to, only watch lesbian porn (very rarely though, i'm mostly anti porn), and i don't even dislike men but honestly even as a kid just didn't think of them deeply. yet i keep feeling like i'm duping people with my sexuality and often come to random conclusions like "so i really AM a lesbian" after thinking too sexually of my girlfriend. it's odd and i see 9/10 times the people who whine about imposter syndrome and not being "lesbian enough" really are fakebians who already had a history with men or clearly show male attraction/obsession but with me i'm not even interested in being seen as gay, so no clue why i even feel like i'm duping others in the first place

I don’t know you, so I can’t say why this is. Maybe the convos around lesbians online are getting into your head a bit.

I’m gonna confess something super cringy. But when I was younger I used to search up pictures of celebrity men and try to will myself into being attracted to them. I’d look at their faces and analyse their features and tried to feel something towards them. But I never could. But when I see women whether that is irl or a celeb crush I feel this surge of attraction and want to be around them or be romantic with them etc. The difference to me is night and day. But I felt the need to test myself and try to make myself like them but never could. This is textbook sexuality ocd, i’ve seen website say that part of the ocd is constantly checking whether you could be attracted to the sex you aren’t.