jackie

note to self: i am not behind in life. i am doing different things than other people, which is fine, because i have different dreams than them too.

you’re more than a body, more than a brain. you’re a whole person who can choose which thoughts to listen to.

Once I lose my emotional attachment to you, that bond is gone forever

I said it was okay. I never said it didn’t hurt.

i want a soft connection. i want to be asked how my day went and if i need anything. i want forehead kisses. i want the back of my hand kissed at red lights. i want to be asked how i’m mentally feeling. i want to hold hands everywhere we go. i want romantic gestures. i want my hair played in at the most unexpected moments. i want silent eye connections that lead to smiles. i want to take random walks.

‘relationships are work’ means ‘you have to put effort into loving each other intentionally & learning how to love each other and communicating properly’ not ‘your relationship makes you feel stressed and sad most of the time & the other person disrespects you and treats you bad but you stay anyway’

this is so embarrassing. i want to love & be loved & drink really nice tea & eat really nice pasta & not feel like the loneliness is a part of me anymore. i want a herb garden

Do you ever go “ wow ok” and shut down entirely

I will forever love simple, domestic things let’s bake together, go grocery shopping, drive around, just spend time together

You deserve someone who isn’t embarrassed to love you and tells all their friends about you and saves your selfies, whether they’re good or bad to look at when they miss you  and loses sleep to talk to you  and tells you how much they love and how beautiful you are all the time and i really hope you find that one day  because you deserve to be loved

I know it will pass, but it's heavy

i wanna talk about it but i really dont wanna talk about it

what do you mean “use your words”?? what about “🥺🥺” did you not understand

You deserve someone who isn’t embarrassed to love you and tells all their friends about you and saves your selfies, whether they’re good or bad to look at when they miss you  and loses sleep to talk to you  and tells you how much they love and how beautiful you are all the time and i really hope you find that one day  because you deserve to be loved

I know it will pass, but it's heavy

I overthink because i notice everything.