Quoth the Raven "Nevermore"

Gihun always knew he was different. He knew that his name wasn’t Gayeong. He knew he wasn’t supposed to wear dresses or have braids or be…a girl.

Gihun was a boy. He’s always been a boy and the older he got the more his body betrayed him and the more he acted out until he HAD to tell his mother.

Because a man didn’t have curves. A man didn’t have…breasts and a vagina. A man had pecs and a cock and his body is so so wrong.

Malsoon…did not take it well. She told Gihun he was a woman, her precious daughter and that Gihun was obviously going through something.

But eventually…well…Gihun moved away and scraped by enough money to get hormones and top surgery.

Still, Malsoon didn’t forgive Gihun until he had his daughter, Gayeong.

She was the result of a one night stand and Gihun was VERY tempted to abort her. He felt like he couldn’t go through it. He spent so long fighting against his body and now he was pregnant and it made his skin crawl and his stomach knot and turn with nausea.

It got so bad that he told himself that as soon as the baby was born, he would throw himself out of the hospital window because he couldn’t bear living in his body anymore.

But then they placed his babygirl in his arms and he…he couldn’t do it. He still felt wrong. He still felt disgusted with his body and disconnected but how could he abandon his daughter?

He named his daughter Seong Gayeong, hoping that maybe the name that always felt wrong with him would feel right to her.

And when Gayeong was three months old, Gihun met Eunji who actually grew to love him and accept him as he was and she was such a great mother to Gayeong.

There were days when Gihun still felt wrong. Days when he looked in the mirror and cringed at his reflection. Days where he couldn’t bear anyone’s touch. Days where he didn’t sleep and felt as though getting out of bed was a waste of time.