It’s Not You

But can you blame her?

Tormented and insecure

There’s no one to listen to her

But if I don’t the damage is more than skin deep

I’ve been told my problems aren’t unique

It’s easy to critique

When you think I’m the freak

But please let me speak

I’m in it too deep

Chapters: 3/? Fandom: 恋与深空 | Love and Deepspace (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Main Character/Xia Yizhou | Caleb, Li Shen | Zayne/Main Character Characters: Xia Yizhou | Caleb, Li Shen | Zayne, Tao Tao | Tara (Love and Deepspace) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Teacher-Student Relationship, Secret Relationship, Possessive Xia Yizhou | Caleb, Jealous Xia Yizhou | Caleb, Fluff and Angst, Professor Li Shen | Zayne Summary:

"Why is your face red?" Tara whispers to me as I sit beside her.

"I ran into into someone in the hallway and..." Movement by the door catches my eye, the man from the hallway walks into our classroom. Tara turns her head and looks at him, then she looks back at me with curiosity. "Oh god he's in our class." I mutter, putting my head into my hands.

I’d have a lot to say

It’s hard for you to listen, even in writing

I just want to survive the school day

I’m using all my energy while you sit in front of a screen

I shouldn’t have to ask for you to be empathetic

And I shouldn’t have to remind you about hygiene

The truth is, you’ve become pathetic

Why should I reward you because you were willing to clean

I needed you after the medic

But when you looked at me, I felt unseen

I don’t look forward to when you feel apologetic

You say things you never mean

to you, the version of me I no longer recognize

I don’t want the memory of you to decay

I just hope that you recognize

No matter how hard you pray

You’ll still feel broken inside

And you shouldn’t downplay

She turned to the halls of ivy

It’s the reason you keep bleeding

But you claim you don’t need first aid

And the wound is misleading

So I won’t try to persuade

With endless pleading

The sight helped me appreciate

What I couldn’t yet articulate

But then they cornered my heart rate

And confirmed that inside was desolate

Then I tried getting past the gate

With your eyes closed, it’s impossible to see

How selfish you can be

Please learn how to love me