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greernotdear:

“Just precautions,“ Greer said though she was smiling as she rolled her eyes. It was nice of Alecto to reassure her that she would never let anything happen to either of her animals or even her. It was a side of her that she saw more and more lately, and she couldn’t help but love it.

She rolled her eyes again, this time at Amycus and she reached over Alecto to push the guy a little, but didn’t say anything. Alecto was right, it was late, all three of them were tired as hell, or at least Greer knew she was. Avoiding one particular person on a party that is thrown by that one person and her family is more draining than she ever realized and she wanted nothing more than to sleep and forget the night ever happened.

“Alright, alright, good night,“ she said and then spent the next thirty minutes or so trying to find the most comfortable position she could sleep in. The clothes bothered her greatly, though she doubted either of the twins would have liked the idea of her sleeping naked right next to them. It would have been strange as fuck. So, in the end, she settled on her side with her back against the wall as she slowly dozed off to sleep.

Amycus rested his head against Alecto’s back, trying to let the familiar pattern of his sister’s breathing lull him into sleep. It had been a long fucking day. Seeing Rodolphus, the fight with Evan, the regrettably enjoyable sex with Cattermole of all people, finding Greer, sobbing on Greer, ending his night in her bed… just a long fucking day, and he ought to have no problem passing out. Still everything churned over and over in his head. Rodolphus’s careful disinterest, Al’s interest in Greer, Rodolphus walking away, Rodolphus walking away, Rodolphus walking away. 

It was a long, long time before his brain let him sleep, but eventually he did. Curled up against his sister in a different house and with dogs snoring peacefully nearby, he didn’t dream.

Alecto didn’t open her eyes again- she felt Greer stir around and Amycus breath heavily against her neck like he was thinking of somethinghard to process- but, she tried not to open her eyes and to ignore them, to sleep it off as she’d usually want to do. It took her a while to do so though, she couldn’t fall asleep until Greer stopped moving and until Amycus’ breath evened, but she felll asleep right after that.

Alecto did say she had nothing to apologize for, though Greer didn’t exactly agree with that, but still, she was grateful that her friend said that and that she was still here and supporting her. She could have easily just walked away and left here there to broke down all to herself. It probably would have gone so much worse that way and she would still be on the floor, sobbing her eyes out, and that wouldn’t be pretty. At least thanks to Lecto, she could get herself together now.

She also knew that the Slytherin girl let her have the finishing because she wanted her to feel better and because Lecto felt like she needed it more and probably felt sorry for her too after seeing the way she broke down, but she didn’t disagree. She actually needed it. “Thanks,” she said looking into Alecto’s eyes and holding the other girl’s gaze to make sure that the other girl knew that this wasn’t just a simple thanks. It was for everything she’s done for her so far that day, that she’s been there for her. Greer only hoped it actually came through and Alecto understood what she was trying to say.

She stepped closer and touched the necklace for a second and raised her eyebrow at it before she said, “it’s not even close to how pretty you are, Lecto. Don’t lower your standards for a fucking mudblood.” She looked up at her friend and smiled at her. “You deserve so much better jewelry than some worthless, ugly mudblood necklace.”

And then she stepped away and turned her focus on the blondie. She really was pretty and it was a shame she had to be a fucking mudblood. But she was, there no turning it around or forgetting it, and Greer raised her wand at the girl and without any hesitation or guilt or second thought, she sent an Avada Kedavra at the girl. She should feel honored by how she could go out and die. At least her death had some kind of meaning, even if the rest of her life didn’t.

“At least this felt good,“ she said as she turned back to Lecto.

Despite the dry tears still resting on Greer’s cheek, the older girl found her so breathtaking and beautiful- no matter how sad and angry she was, she was so beautiful in Alecto’s eyes- so strong because crying in front of someone was something she find being a strong suit of someone; she could never cry in front of anyone. Not even Amycus. She wasn’t strong, she was just a coward at showing feelings.

And then the smile- the smile was so breathtaking as well because even through the fears and tears she had threw Alecto a smile, she had made sure she saw the smile, looking right into her eyes. And Alecto felt her heart painly shutter right then because she saw that look- Greer only saw her as a friend and she should be thinking as a friend of the other as well. ‘ I wasn’t going to keep it.’  she pointed out casually as she threw the necklace somewhere far- she had just wanted to mess up with it a bit, if she couldn’t touch the victim, she could at least do something.

Alecto watched the show go- the way the blonde’s last scream shattered her bones and it made her smile a little- just a little as she turned around to face Greer, nodding her head because she felt numb again- but, she wasn’t going to ruin the moment again. She is going to stick around Greer this time because she needed it, she knew the other needed it. ‘ Perfect then.’ she approached and wrapped an arm around the other’s shoulders.

‘ Let’s go, we can keep posted with the muggle news about this sudden death. Wonder what they’ll come up with now.’

greernotdear:

”Oh hell no, they’re not eating Chips!” Greer replied immediately. She called her hamster a dick, she sulked about the hamster not loving her, she might have put him at the bottom of the list when it came to her loving her pets, but she did love Chips and just like with every other pet of hers, she would kill for that idiot hamster. „I still think they’re cute, but they’re not coming anywhere near him. Or any of my babies, for that matter.”

Greer’s eyebrows rose in the dark, even though neither of the twins could possibly see that. She turned to her side and propped herself up onto her forearm and look where she kind of saw two silhouettes lying in the bed next two her (her eyes still needed time to get used to the dark so she barely saw anything.

”Aww, come on, Lecto, don’t tell me you don’t like the compliment,” she nudged the girl with the hand that she didn’t hold herself up with. „And Am, you’re right, she does have an amazing ass, but also please for my sanity, never say anything like this about her ever again. Or at least not in front of me. It would be like me saying that Theo has nice abs or Cass has sparkling eyes and that is just ewww…” She made a face and visibly shuddered (or as much visibility as it was possible in the dark). „Just wrong. So please, don’t kill me with them.”

Amycus smirked at Greer over the crest of his sister’s shoulder. He could only just barely see her. Normally he hated sleeping in the absolute darkness. Even in his dorm he had a small nightlight that hovered over his own bed so nothing ever got completely dark. Here at least he had Alecto to curl up against. She always helped to keep his nightmares at bay. So yes, in a way her body was his lullaby. 

“Aww, but if I can’t drive you insane how am I supposed to ever have any fun?” He teased, ruining the effect by yawning into Alecto’s shoulder. “I value my fun, Greerie.” She had literally offered up her bed when Amycus had broken down on her, and he’d owe her his life for that.

Alecto almost snickered at Greer’s sudent protective self over her pets- she huffed amused though, her head shaking at the other’s words. ‘ Calm your tails, Greer- you think I’d ever let them eat any of your animals? Or them to bite you? Nah. Everything’s under control.’ She spoke solemenly because this was true: she would never let anything or anyone Greer loved get hurt if she could help it.

She then groaned in annoyance as the two kept on talking about her arse, finding it annoying that Greer had agreed with Amycus- it wasn’t weird to her that Amycus complimented her arse, it was more weird that Greer did so. ‘ Now, let’s be honest, who could ever hold himself from complimenting me? I’m gorgeous.’ she turned her head to look at Greer and then over her shoulder at Amycus.

She then closed her eyes and wrapped held an arm in front of her body, not moving an inch. ‘ You had your lullaby, can we go to sleep now?’ she mumbled under her bereath- wanting nothing more than to shut off the awkwardness.

greernotdear:

“I guess that is a method I would be willing to try, thanks,“ Greer nodded at Alecto’s offer with a small chuckle. To some people’s surprise, she didn’t have even one deadly animal among her pets, and all of her other pets were delightful and cute and kind and so Chips never had to deal with anyone frightening him (unless you count her family, who didn’t really appreciate any of her pets), so a snake might help a bit, especially if Greer came in just at the right time to save the dick hamster. “Plus, your snakes are cool.“

She was sitting at the end of the bed as she watched both Amycus and Alecto climb into her bed and once again she wondered how were they even going to sleep in the same bed just the three of them and then she realized that there was such an easy solution to it and felt dumb that she didn’t think about it before. She quickly jumped up from the bed and grabbed her wand from the nightstand where she usually kept it and pointed the thing at the bed. She muttered a charm and the bed widened beneath the twins.  “That’s better.” It wasn’t the biggest bed still, but at least they wouldn’t have to spend the entire night elbowing each other.

“Alright, I am coming in,“ she said before quickly turning the light off and going back to the bed. She stumbled onto the bed and fell onto both of their legs. She giggled and tapped what she assumed would be Alecto’s legs with a “Nice legs comment,“ and then pushed herself into her place between Alecto and the wall and shifted around until she got comfortable.

Amycus grumbled as the bed shifted and grew underneath him. They should’ve just fucking thought of that in the first place honestly. All the booze (and in his case, emotions) had obviously gone straight to his head. He buried his face in Alecto’s shoulder until the bed settled and Greer finally joined them.

He’d hardly paid attention to the two girls’ bantering as his mind whirred away trying to concoct some sort of plan to get Al confessing everything. Likely she’d cave if he asked but that was too easy and he desperately needed distraction. Thinking about ways to tease his sister beat the hell out of thinking of the vacant guarded look on his best friend’s face. Rodolphus hadn’t even let Am touch him. No. No, think of anything but that. Greer had already seen him cry once today.

“Y’know Greer, the only thing nicer than her legs is her ass.” He mumbled as he braced himself for an elbow to the cut and possibly a kick to the groin from his twin.

‘ One and Two would appreciate it- the compliment. Even if they’d eat Chips if he’d get really close to them, so I say watch out for that.’ Alecto didn’t bother to name her snakes more than this due different reasons: she thought that they looked like numbers when she first saw them so it was enough for her. ‘ They even tried to eat my pillow once, it’s fun.’

She wasn’t surprised when Greer came up with yet another ingenious idea and it made Alecto remember just how much she didn’t think about magic through the day and for her actions:for someone born with magic she truly had barely initiative. When Greer first commented about her legs, she found it amusing and just rolled her eyes. But, then her brother commented.

And Alecto stiffened into his arms at his words: he bloody knew it. Of course he did, it wasn’t like she could ever hide something from him- the only thing was that it alarmed her, him knowing, almost like it made the whole situation real. And it scared the hell out of her. ‘ Is my body the good night lullaby now?’ She mumbled, sounding amused as she sligthly shifted closer towards Amy though not to touch Greer as she made herself comfortable.

greernotdear:

Greer let out a laugh. “Don’t say something like that. I am pretty sure I turn up home with another hamster, and Chip will strangle me in my sleep.” Plus, she really unsure about hamsters after Chips. Technically he was just one hamster, but then again, who knew. Maybe hamsters just generally hated her. She really didn’t want more pets who hated her. “I mean, either Chips or Theo. I am pretty sure he can’t stand my babies.” That was a little bit of an understatement.

Greer looked up and caught Alecto looking at her and she sent her friend a soft, genuine smile - something she only reserved for very few people. Alecto must be looking for all the signs of when Greer’s next break down was going to happen, or at least how she was doing, but thankfully it wasn’t going to happen. She was still angry and pissed and she still hurt, but she was pretty sure she cried out all the tears from her eyes, and that actually helped. A lot. Alecto, in general, helped a lot. More than the girl probably realized.

It was just a couple of moments, and then she rolled her eyes and poked Am real hard in the side. “It’s real cute how much you love my dogs, but get over it and get in bed, Am, you’re not sleeping with them.” She let out a chuckle and shook her head. “I really never thought I’d ever say this to a man in my life, feel honored. And then get in here because I am tired as hell.”

Amycus looked up from muttering sweet nothings into Pepper’s ear to catch the way Alecto stared at Greer like the other girl had hung the moon. Interesting. Unexpected, but unwelcome. Alecto could certainly do a lot worse. And Greer couldn’t possibly do any better. No one could. It’d get Greer over Cissa, at least, and on to someone that could actually like her back. 

The wheels of his mind began churning, eager for any sort of distraction from Rodolphus or his father. No wonder Al had called dibs on the middle. Oh, he was going to tease her endlessly the minute they got back home. He swallowed down a smirk and gave each of the dogs a final kiss on the head.

“So glad I can claim the title of being the only man in your bed,” he teased Greer as he moved to flop down on the other side of Alecto and wrap his arms around her waist. “Suppose it even makes me forgive you for not letting me sleep with the puppies.”

Alecto froze when Greer turned around and locked her eyes with her- it wasn’t better when  the other threw her  a smile and it made her once again curse herself. Why was she like this? She huffed under her breath as she nodded absently and looked absently at the bunny not far away from her. She liked seeing it hopping around, wiggling it tail in happiness almost like  it was a dog as well. It almost made the numbess in Alecto fade away as she watched the puffiness rolling around the room.

‘ Alright, then no  new hamsters.’ she shrugged her shoulders. ‘ I’ll borrow you one of my snakes to make Chips feel a little scared, heard that anxiety makes animals develop as well. ‘ Because everybody already knew dark times made a human develop, made them more powerful or more shattered. Mostly the latter.  She let her head drop onto one of the pillows and bit the inside her of cheek as she did so. It was harder than she thought.

Greer wasn’t exactly sure how long she was crying holding onto Alecto, burying her face in her friend’s clothes, but for the longest time she felt like she just couldn’t stop crying and that if Alecto wasn’t there, she would have broken down worse, that she didn’t even realise it until now how much she actually needed the other girl to be there.

And then suddenly a moment came when she was more calmed her tears didn’t come as a sob but they were only slowly streaking down her face, when it hit her that they were standing in the middle of a dark alley, the girl was still groaning and crying from the torture and she was holding onto Alecto like she was holding onto dear life itself and this was not what she had in mind when she wrote to Alecto and asked if she wanted to join her and she was sure that this was definitely not what Alecto had in mind when she agreed to come along. The Slytherin girl probably just wanted to have some little fun and Greer went ahead and ruined it all and she really needed to stop. 

She just needed to stop.

So Greer counted until five in her head and slowly untangled herself from Alecto and took a step back, wiping her face. She must have had the biggest puffy eyes ever, not that she actually cared about how she looked, but she had to make sure she wasn’t going to show up like this back home. She would be mortified if anyone in her family saw her in this state, though surprisingly, she didn’t mind Lecto seeing her like this.

“Sorry, sorry, I didn’t mean to break down on you like this,“ she muttered, looking down to the ground, up to the sky, to the wall, to the girl, everywhere but Alecto, because even though she didn’t mind the girl seeing her like this, she also didn’t want to see the pity in her eyes. She would die if she actually saw that. So instead, when she heard the girl whine again, she shook her head, let out a big sigh and moved over to the girl, forcing her brain to focus on the mudblood and not on why she was crying for fuck knows how long. She kicked the girl in the stomach, and then in the boobs for good measures before she turned back to Alecto, only looking at her for the first time now.

“Should we finish this?“

It had been a while since the other started crying and Alecto hold onto her; it was like she could actually feel the other’s pain: something it only happened when she saw Amycus cry, even if in most of the causes Amycus was the one to fuck up, compared to Greer’s situation that only happened without her doing something for it. Alecto felt shattered and she didn’t do anything.So why the hell she felt shattered holding the other into her arms and feeling her cry into her arms?

She let out a breath she didn’t knew she was holding when the other stepped away, shaking her head at the other. ‘ You have nothing to apologize about.’ the older girl quickly pointed out and turned her head, looking at the girl who was still there, shaking from the previous hexes the two had given her; she had even forgot about her. Usuallly, Alecto would love to fuck someone’s lif,e but right now? She felt nothing. There was no pleasure.

The other kicked the girl and she had to bit her cheek instead of commenting, she nodded ligthly. ‘ If you think  it’s for any use, I’ll let you finish her.’ she gestured at the blonde, even if she didn’t even touch her more than just once; Greer seemed like she needed it. Within Alecto’s eyes it couldn’t be seen pity- it was understanding; it wasn’t something unclear into the way her eyes gleamed. ‘ I think you’ve earned it.’

However she didn’t say she’d touch her, she leaned and took the necklace off the other brutally, looking at it with a slight turn of her head. ‘Ah, this is pretty at least.’

greernotdear:

“Because you looooooooooooove us,“ Greer said in a funny tone at the same time when Alecto replies to Amycus as well, making a face at his dumb dumb question and nudge kicking him from the bed. Am could deny it all he wanted, Greer knew that he had the biggest soft spot for his sister and that even though sometimes he tried to deny it, he had one for her too. Maybe not as big as he had for his sister, nobody could possibly live up to Lecto in Am’s eyes, but still a soft spot was a soft spot.

“Puh-lease, I love hamsters,“ she replied to Lecto, who still held Chips in her hands. How did that hamster never liked her? She was never going to understand. “It’s just that this particular hamster doesn’t like me for whatever reason. I don’t understand, I am delightful.” Alright, maybe not to Chips at this point, but she delightful and nice and kind at the beginning, but then he was a dick to her from the start and if he was a dick to her, why can’t she be a dick right back, right?

“Pepper is amazing at cuddles, nobody comes close to him,“ she agreed with Alecto with a chuckle. “But it’s not that I will be able to compare, though, since Alecto called dibs on being in the middle, so you’ll only cuddle her.“ She lied on the bed on her stomach, facing the end of the bed where Am and the pups were too. She scratched behind the ear of Richie, muttering to her sweet little things.

“I’d love you both more if you let me take the middle. Then I could show our hostess everything she’s missing out on, cuddle-wise.” Amycus wheedled, even though he knew damn well it was a lost cause. Alecto had called it and Amycus could never really find it in himself to deny his sister anything. He was a pushover and they both fucking knew it. If Alecto wanted to cuddle both him and Greer than that’s how she’s spend the night. 

He yawned and buried his face in Pepper’s fur while he listened to Greer and Alecto banter about the hamster. The sound of their voices soothed him after the fucking fiasco of the gala, and if he focused on them he didn’t have to remember the sight of Rodolphus’s carefully blank face and the sound of bland, controlled voice. Just focus on the girls. They mattered now.

“Are you sure I can’t just sleep with the dogs?” He asked, growing more attached to Pepper’s warm comforting presence by the second. “You can kick me in my sleep and I won’t even care.”

Alecto felt a little stupid for choosing the middle because even if Greer was into girls and the only girls her brother will ever consider will be her and his fiancee- she felt like they shouldn’t sleep one besides the other. Even if she knew perfectly well that sleeping so tight besides Greer will be a nigthmare, it was a better option that the other. ‘  Keep dreaming, bro’, didn’t you just say you loved us?’ she narrowed an amused eyebrow towards him as if challening to deny it.

She couldn’t help but smile at Greer’s comment and nod. ‘ Yeah, you’re pretty deligthful indeed.’ she looked at Chips and shook her head. ‘ It’s its problem that it doesn’t like you, maybe get another hamster, make it jealous and maybe it will love you? Or hate you even more, it’s worth a try.’

Before Amycus spoke about the bed, Greer was whispering into the dog’s ear and she coudn’t help but stare, it was amazing how the other could be so fierce and a power and in the end of the day whisper to her animals- she seemed to be doing better. She blinked several times to get out of the trence and look at her brother, again with a deadly glance. 

Greer wasn’t the type of person who needed comforting - she didn’t get sad, she didn’t cry (except when a pet of her died, but that was a completely different situation, and even that she always handled alone, behind closed doors, where nobody could see or hear her), she didn’t show weakness or vulnerability. Not really, never when it was genuinely. Only those who were weak cried. Only dumb people couldn’t handle their emotions like this. She was passionate and hot-headed, sure, but that was a completely different story.

So when Alecto wrapped her hands around the girl, it was weird and strange for two things. One, because she didn’t think Lecto ever did this, the comforting thing. And two, because she thought she didn’t need it, that she did do it either. So for a second she was just standing there, utterly confused about what she should do, if she should accept the offer of the comfort, way too terrified that the couple of tears she already shred were never going to actually stop if she let Alecto do this, if she truly let herself fall apart over Narcissa.

But it wasn’t a choice, it was never a choice, really. You can’t control when and where and how you break down and break apart, it just happens to you.

So after a couple of seconds of awkward silence and just Lecto moving her hand up and down on her back, she raised her hands, wrapped her hands around the other girl’s shoulders, and the next thing Greer knew, she was hanging onto Alecto like she was hanging onto dear life and crying like there was no stopping to all of her tears, like she was never going to be able to get better, like this was going to be her life from now on.

And that is kind of how she felt in that moment - that she fell and she felt hard and she was never going to feel like this again. What was the point of it, really? Why would she ever want to get her heart broken all over again when she could just do fun, no strings attached stuff, get the sex and the good part and when it came to love and affection, she could always just go to her pets or those few close friends she had.

Not that it helped her now, and she just tightened her grip on Lecto and buried her head in the crook of her shoulder and just cried, hoping it would end at one point. That at the end of it all, she wouldn’t feel so bad about everything.

Alecto wasn’t one to comfort. Alecto only knew how to comfort Amycus and that consisted in making sure she’d do anything for him to be okay and healthy and snugguling him so close to her that their breath interwined. She couldn’t promise Greer that everything was okay and that’d she do something about it because there was nothing she could do to change that girl’s mind without using the Imperius curse on her or something.

She couldn’t do that, obviously.

So, she ended up just staying with her arms tigthened around the other. ‘ I know that falling for a friend sucks-’ she mumbled, unsure why she was still babbling when she should probably just keep her mouth shut. ‘-but, it gets better. You’ll get over her.’ Greer didn’t say that girl was a friend or not, but she was pretty sure she was, knowing her she was friends with everyone she liked, either way or another.

She had to wince at the word, but quickly shook it off. She hated that word, hated it because some of her best friends were muggleborn. Benjy, Mary. She hated it, hated that people treated them they way they did for something as stupid as their heritage. A sigh left her and she quickly downed the rest of her drink to keep herself from making any kind of comment. 

“My father is– in talks with Belby’s father. Nothing is official.” Nothing ever would be if she could help it. But as far as Belby seemed to be concerned, it was a done deal. “But surely something will come up for you. You’re a beautiful girl and your name holds a lot more weight than mine does. That’s how it works here, isn’t it? It’s all in a name.”

The moment the other spoke, Alecto froze. She had hoped someone would be in the same boat as her- someone who was a pureblood and was supposed to be married with someone else by graduation; she really hoped that would have been the case. But, Dorcas turned up to be a dissapointment.

‘ It’s supposed to be all in the name, but nobody has came to talk with my father and I think you can imagine how proud he is of that.’sarcasm could be simply heard through her sentence, a hand moving through her hair. ‘  Whatever, congratulations on your not-so-official bethroal then...’

 It was so hard for me to leave, ugh. You are really beautiful when you snore, you know that?

 I have tried to make you breakfast, it’s on the counter..it might be burned a bit. I have to meet up with Am, see you in the afternoon. Take care, okay?

Lecto .

  Your couch was way more comfortable than I’ve thought.

Next time we meet for drinks, remind me to get a hungover potion.

 You saved my arse yesterday. I’ll buy you a thank-you lunch or whatever.

Al x