Holden my Heart

I feel it in my bones

Feel it right down to my toes

The worst mistake I ever made

Let me tell you all my woes

I feel it deep inside

These feelings I can’t hide

You thieved so much of my time

Then all I did was cry

I thought this wound was closed

The memories got old

I suffered and I pined

But there was nothing to find

I thought that I could help

But I can’t fix someone else

I could not change your mind

And you ruined my life

So I shut off my heart

I kept it in a box/jar

But now I think it’s time

To bring it back, restart

See loving is an art

And you didn’t play your part

You’re not meant to love alone

Mine

....I don't mind

TGE G MAN?!

@leaderofthechildrenofthecreature

so it's me or my girlfriend. got it

I’m the luckiest person in the world hehehe >:) my hubby

I'm lucky as well heh I love my husband

marrying myself get out of the way boothill heh

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FLYNN RIDER OMG

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The art of mindless embroidery.

Making Kinosaki act and dress up as a woman for the whole story can appeal to prejudiced people and gradually make them warm up to the dynamic between the main characters and provide an opportunity for them to see queer people in a better light. However, at the same time Kinosaki not having to conform to the stereotypical image of men for him to identify as a guy is also a breath of fresh air in its own, especially for a deuteragonist in a shonen. I think (or at least I hope) it is a stepping stone in paving the way for more open queer representation in shonen in the future.

This is one of the reasons why I think Gerosaki ending up together is important to the themes and story itself, and making Kinosaki a biological woman who just pretends to be a guy for the plot, as some theories suggest, takes away from the story and how it handles queerness cause in that case we would go two steps back instead of a step forward when it comes to queer representation.

It would be nice to have a shounen that breaks away from the usual expectations and MarriageToxin does not shy away from writing queer people openly, Gero's sister is openly a lesbian and in a relationship with a woman for example, and this is so important to me because I need people to stop associating the idea of queer people existing solely in works categorized exclusively as bls or gls. It is only when it comes to queer-coded ships or queer-coded characters that people have a negative stance towards and tell you to pick up ''gls '' or ''bls' instead, but they won't tell you to pick up a romance if there is a straight pair in a story despite the main genre not being romance.

And that's not even getting into the fact that you can't try to slap USAmerican queer culture on a Japanese queer character. Japanese gender identity is its own thing. They've got their own culture going on there. There are certainly points of intersection, but a Japanese person isn't going to express their gender in the same way as a USAmerican, trans or otherwise.

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I'M BACK FROM CON PREPPING HELL! AND IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! WOO!

I'd like to make this a draw this in your style challenge! So if you end up wanting to do it, please tag it with #idotdonut1kDTIYS

I'll be drawing for 3 of whoever's pieces I like the most!

1st Place: Full body Colored and Shaded

2nd Place: Half body Colored and Shaded

3rd Place: A Headshot Colored and shaded

Winners and all pieces will be showcased in a final big post on June 13th! The deadline is June 10th ❀

I look forward to seeing yalls pieces!

I’ve recently finished the manga up to the beginning of volume 11 and adore it! One of the aspects of the writing that has consistently impressed me is that despite us being presented with each member of F/ACE A-side (idol persona) and B-side (true personalities) we’re shown that the “fake” personas aren’t necessarily fake. In fact, I’d say the idol’s cultivated personas give them a sort of freedom to express qualities of their “real” personalities that they either don’t consciously show in their private lives or feel uncomfortable expressing in private (or just when they’re not purposefully acting the roles they’ve assigned themselves in F/ACE).

For starters, we know Ouri plays the part of a refined, princely gentleman when his real personality is aggressive, proud, and arrogant AF. But as the story goes on, we also see other qualities: Ouri knows he’s a nepo baby and instead of coasting off that or feeling entitled to being famous and respected, he wants to earn it. He has to prove he’s the best, to the world and himself. He doesn’t look down on Tamon for not being from a line of entertainers, he knows Tamon is talented and is insulted when he perceives Tamon as not working as hard for his success and popularity as an idol. Ouri respects Tamon when he steps up to the plate and challenges himself. He doesn’t expect Utage to fall for him just because he’s the Ouri Sakaguchi, but because he has put effort into being the type of guy women would fall for. When she doesn’t buy the prince act, and he realizes he’s genuinely developing feelings for her, Ouri makes genuine gestures to not only show his interest but he cheers her up and encourages her, even at the risk of Utage growing closer to Tamon as a result. In his own rough and tumble way, Ouri shows the qualities of a noble, respectable prince.

Then there’s Keito: his A-side is nurturing, chill, domestically skilled, and gentle. B-Side is Scrooge McDuck with an extra helping of pragmatic self interest. (also, his design and idol persona low-key seems like a shout out to the character makoto tachibana from free!) He judges Utage harshly upfront, in part because he sees her as a potential threat to his bag. Keito’s strict, high strung, and nagging, he notices things about the other members moods and habits consistently, and then we find out a big motivator for him is securing the financial stability of his brothers and parents. He can be reasoned with and apologizes when he realizes Utage isn’t who he assumed. He really does care about the well being and reputations of the other F/ACE members and looks after them, albeit in a much more “do as I say” way than his A-side. But in reality, Keito actually is a nurturing, thoughtful, and responsible person.

Then there’s the resident cutie pie, Natsuki. He’s fashionable, bright, cheerful, and gives off fun loving little bro energy, despite being the second oldest member of F/ACE. We’re shown he’s actually a chainsmoking, boozing, gambling bum with a rough past and is all but stated to have depression. We learn about how Natsuki’s past came back to haunt him when his first love, Asuka, was injured defending him from his dirtbag father (who was trying to steal the money Natsuki had saved up for and intended to use to buy Asuka a birthday present) and Natsuki feels responsible for her being unable to practice Judo, despite her doing so much to help him achieve his. Natsuki carries that guilt with him and still holds a torch for her even after they reconcile. He’s sentimental and needs to be inspired emotionally and in the right headspace to write music. Despite having dealt with some horrible shit from his childhood, he doesn’t discount Rintaro’s family troubles and wants to help when it looks like Rintaro might have to quit F/ACE. He’s encouraging to Asuka, being genuinely optimistic in their last conversation, still wanting to cheer her on and giving a heartfelt thanks for the love and care she’s shown him. Natuski’s real self is romantic, earnest, and sentimental, and he cares deeply, to the point of feeling like he’s responsible for the harm someone else did, just because he was involved. 

Now, there’s Rintaro: stoic, mature, mysterious, and hardly says a word. Yeah, he’s just nervous. He’s also an Utage level fanboy for his hyperfixation and a chatterbox otaku rich kid who sort of just stumbled on becoming an idol and is mostly doing it because he thinks it’s fun to quote “evoke emotions and stories that wouldn’t happen in normal life”. But as previously stated, Rintaro almost ends up quitting F/ACE altogether because his father is sick, his sister is (attempting) to be a delinquent, and his family needs him at home. He majored in political science, and outside of being a nerdy otaku for his favorite character from Sushi Musume, is shown to be fairly intelligent and knowledgeable. He’s a responsible, dutiful son who’s willing to give up something that he genuinely enjoys if it means supporting his family. Rintaro’s “real” personality checks a lot of boxes for a mature, manly sort of guy. 

And last but not least, there’s Tamon: it goes without saying the wild, confident, charming, seductive A-side is a complete contrast to the Gloomyhara, insecure, anxiety ridden mess of a guy he actually is. But even then, we see Gloomyhara can be bold. Tamon can be charming, strong willed, and actually kind of sneaky. He uses Hottiehara mode to his advantage. He gets possessive of Utage and has moments of being overwhelmed by how cute and attractive he finds her, even if he doesn’t completely understand what he’s feeling and why. And as she points out, Tamon’s feelings are genuine: he loves his fans and wants to make them smile. He loves being an idol and the passion began from being inspired by his older brother, and he’s determined to succeed.