Hello.

Lately I’ve been feeling very down. A couple weeks ago I had a really bad mental breakdown causing me to drive alone for over an hour to Malibu just to relax and calm myself down. Why Malibu you may ask? I use to go a lot when I was a freshman in high school and it has always relaxed me, I found it to be my safe and happy place. Nonetheless I’ve been overwhelmed with stress and not a lot of time to myself sort of build up to all of this. I believe I am overcoming it slowly since I’ve caught up on rest and took a week off from work. Yet somehow I can’t shake the feeling that I am doing nothing with my life and my years at a junior college are dragging on for what seems like centuries and I am nowhere near transferring to a four year. I feel like I am always broke even though I had work so much during summer, as well as the constant nagging that my mom tells me about how I need to get my crap together with school and taking care of my bills. I just fed up with it. I am sorry my mental health isn’t the best but I am working on things and that negativity is not helping me. I took 16 units last semester and worked two jobs at the same time. I was losing hair constantly, my GPA dropped and I was a walking zombie. Oh and I cried like every night. Is it wrong for me to try to take it easy for a semester? 

Anyways I don’t know how to end this I just needed to vent a bit.