* GODLESS / DAUGHTER !

she wasn't used to someone caring for her or protecting her . no one ever had . the entire reason that she was even here and that she was still alive was because she took her fate into her own hands . she waited for someone to help her and no one ever did . she had to protect herself , she was the only one who cared about her .

when she turned around and saw jax standing there with his gaze on the floor something in her chest softened . she was being cruel . the anger in her face dimmed and she let out a breath . jackson sat on a chair he pulled out and jesúsa moved towards him . her fingers brushed against his jaw and tipped his chin up , dark eyes moving over the red swelling on his cheekbone . she sat herself on his lap as though she belonged there and tipped his chin a touch to the side to get a better view of the rest of his handsome face for injuries .

' love is always harder. '

' time to armor up. '

' maybe god would be more generous if you swore less. '

' i suppose you killed him. '

' forgiveness, then, is possible even for the worst. '

' if it goes badly for us, run like a young man. '

' i don't ride with him. '

' she was tempted by something stronger than her. '

' many of them died. '

' well, i do what i say. which is why i don’t say much. '

' i killed her for talking. '

' not without love. not without forgiveness. '

' it's just a dream. '

' i thought souls were invisible. '

' you bleeding all over my things doesn't help you, me, or anybody. understand? '

' don't kill him. don't kill anyone else again. '

' are we really going to the river? '

' your joking is pleasant, but it doesn't hide the hole in you. '

' what have we done to make god so mad at us? '

' it seemed the darkness had no end. '

' no tears, and no talk of devils. '

' making you happy is not my job. '

' you only half believe there's a monster at the river. '

' how did heaven come into all of this? '

' he shouldn't have made things so hard on us. '

' you just have to say yes or no. '

' you're not supposed to do that. '

' let us do what we will, and take what we may. '

' some righteous people still hold faith. '

' they want you. '

' i find it very pretty. '

' i'm not going to let you die for having a kind heart. '

' if you were not deaf to your own heart, you would know. '

' there's something weak in this man. '

' this is the one thing i can do as well as anyone else. '

' hell, like prison, is worse when you don't feel you've earned it. '

' we’re all dead men, and women. '

' what are you looking for? '

' are there souls at all? '

' do not leave me alone. '

' they'll kill the good ones first, and when all the good men are dead, they'll come for men like you. '

' what was it that happened? '

' i counter what you don't know with what i do know. '

' he wants chaos and death? '

' all we can do is try to have a little fun before the mower comes for us, eh? '

' you'll get your castle back. '

' you're just saying these things to make yourself feel better. '

' we are in a grave already, all of us. '

' they'll take good and bad alike to hell. '

' love is the loss of self, the loss of other, and faith in the death of loss. '

' this is exceptional stew. '

' all is lost. '

' i'm glad you two are so godsdamned happy. '

' what have we done that our fathers and their fathers have not done? '

' his sleep is deep. '

' it is important to know the names of things. '

' death, where are your teeth? '

i thought i told you to stay back.

i love you too much to let you get hurt like this.

this affects me, too, you know.

every time you leave, i sit up all night waiting, praying you'll come back alive.

you keep pulling stunts like this and something bad will happen.

do you have a death wish or something?

this isn't fair to me.

i deserve better than this.

i didn't get any sleep last night because i was so worried about you.

you promised me you'd stop going out at night.

i don't like hearing this.

you've been risking your life, and for what? so you can feel like a goddamn hero?

i said i would handle it.

what the fuck are you doing here?

you told me you'd stay put.

so much for laying low.

you remember how bad it was last time.

seems like you haven't learned anything.

i believe you promised me you'd lay low.

i can't keep doing this.

don't give me that look.

we'll discuss this later.

this stops now.

i'm tired of picking up the pieces once you've left.

you keep throwing yourself into danger.

you don't give a shit about yourself, do you?

i'm sitting here, worried out of my mind, while you're out doing god knows what.

that was really stupid of you, and you know it.

i thought you knew better than this.

what's your excuse this time?

you do realize what this does to me, right? seeing you get hurt like this? you know it hurts me, too?

you really don't give a shit how this affects me, huh.

that was the dumbest possible thing you could have done.

i need you to stop throwing yourself into harm's way.

that was completely unnecessary.

they had it handled.

you didn't need to step in like that.

why do you think you're invincible?

the last time you pulled a stunt like this, it nearly got you killed.

i can't just sit here and watch you get hurt.

what are you trying to prove?

you just like fucking with my heart, don't you.

this shit hurts me, too, you know.

you're not the only one affected by this shit.

you've got a lot of people counting on you to come home every night.

what happens if you don't come back?

you think we can just carry on without you?

you think i can handle things if you end up dead?

i'm not sticking around to watch you get hurt.

you're not even slick.

you think you're invincible, don't you.

quit pretending you've got everything under control.

let someone else do it for a change.

you can't keep putting yourself through shit like this and expect me to just sit back and watch.

i'm done with this.

next time you do this, i'm not coming back.

promise me this is the end.

look me in the eyes and tell me you'll stop doing this.

let the authorities deal with it.

you're making a big mistake.

is it worth dying for?

Yes, that damn O'Driscoll boy. The thorn in his side. The reminder of what Colm did to him in his dark past. What he took from him. It made him hate them all and want them all dead and would that satisfy Dutch? No, not till he saw Colm hang or his brain matter all over the ground. Either way, that man was going to pay for his betrayal.

❛ i'd ride with arthur , or javier . ❜ she answered without a moment of thought . trust didn't come easy to jesúsa , but she trusted them enough to ride beside her . she leaned onto the table with her hip to take some weight off of her leg . ❛ . . . but my leg can't take much running . ❜ it wasn't like her to admit to a weakness , but she was in enough pain that she couldn't rightly ignore it . she wouldn't be dead weight .

❛ what about lenny ? ❜ she asked . she pointed to an overlook near the tracks on the map . ❛ bill blows it up here , ❜ she tapped a spot along the tracks , ❛ it stops around here , ❜ her finger traced the track to the overlook , ❛ some of us stay up here and pick off any guards or the law while the others get on the train . ❜ jesúsa paused to think for a moment . he couldn't send micah to the train , he'd massacre everyone most likely , but she bit the comment back . arthur was the best shot of any of them . . . she bit her lower lip .

❛ you , me , and micah stay up here until the the guards and law are taken care of . ❜ she tapped the overlook . ❛ we can pick them off . arthur leads the group on the ground , ❜ folk listened to arthur , after all . ❛ javier , bill , lenny , and arthur can start going through the cars . it'll be quicker , once the dust has settled we can join them . ❜ then , jesúsa's eyes turned back to dutch . it was far warmer in the cabin than it was in almost every other building in colter . she blew some warm air onto her fingers .

“y’know,  you  can  just  say  thanks,  jax  and  we’ll  both  be  happy?”   he  teases,  pulling  the  stained  t-shirt  over  his  head  and  swapping  it  for  a  navy-colored  hoodie,   SAMCRO  written  across  his  chest  in  faded  ink.   there’s  a  cut  on  his  cheekbone,  a  bruise  swelling  on  the  side  of  his  jaw,  and  not  a  hint  of  regret  in  his  blue  eyes.   he  doesn’t  like  violence  but  sometimes,  when  everything  else  fails,  it’s  the  only  way  to  get  a  point  across.   “with  all  due  respect,  jes,  your  left  hook  got  nothin’  on  mine.”

𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐓  𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐔𝐑  𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐀𝐍  𝐇𝐀𝐒  𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐃  //  from  rdr2   .  (  request  )  an  assortment  of  dialogue  prompts  from  lines  said  in  silly  fashion  by  arthur  morgan  (  the  silliest  outlaw  in  the  states  )  in  rockstar's  red  dead  redemption  2   .  a  mixture  dialogues  ,  missions  and  cutscenes   . 

 "   that's  some  strong  stuff …  doesn't  seem  to  be  doing  you  any  harm  though  .   "   

"  you're  my  favorite  parasite  ...  no,  wait,  ringworm's  my  favorite  parasite,  you're  my  second-favorite  parasite  ...  i  lied  .  ringworm,  then,  rats  with  the  plague,  then  you  .  "

"  you  want  rescuing  again ,  do  you  ?   "

"  we'll  survive …  always  have …  if  needs  be;  we  can  eat  you  .  "

"  eighteen  percent  ?   i  thought  we  was  doing  the  robbing  here  .  "

"  maybe  we  should  cut  you  open  and  count  the  rings  of  whiskey  .  "

"  we  each  made  15  dollars ,  oh,  and  a  quarter  !  don't  forget  the  quarter  !  "

"  should  i  just  ...  sneak  on  now  ?   "

"  just  keep  running  into  prized  idiots  like  you  .  "

"  i've  had  better  days ,  that's  for  sure  .  but  i  look  at  you  and  i  know  things  can  always  be  worse  .  "

"  … whatever  you  say …  boss  .  "

"  can  i  turn  myself  in  ?   "

"  look ,  i'm  sorry ,  friend  .  i  can  barely  speak  english  .  "

"  i  do  my  utmost  to  avoid  you  .  "

"  i'll  turn  you  into  a  goddamn  cauliflower …  "

"  forgive  me  if  i  slip  and  stab  you  in  the  face  .  "

"  next  time ,  let  the  wolves  eat  all  your  brain  ...  then  you'll  be  a  genius  .  "

"   you  really  need  to  think  about  taking  a  bath  .  "

"   you ,  sir ,  are  a  fish  .  "

"   i  got  a  gift  right  here  !   "

"   …  and  you  unfortunately  survived  ?   "

"   you  call  this  land  ?   feels  like  water  to  me  .  "

"  as  long  as  we  get  paid,  or  you  get  shot,  i'm  happy  .  "

"  well …  at  least  it  isn't  your  job  .  "

"  you  are  a  compulsive  liar  .  "

"  jesus …  what  is  that  ?   "

"  careful  not  to  work  yourself  to  death  there …  "

"  you  know  …  i  thought  about  getting  into  hosiery  .  but  i  just  look  better  in  a  suit  .  "

"  remind  me  to  rob  your  trains,  mister  .  "

"  …  me  and  my  big  mouth  .  "

"  that's  an  idea  …  maybe  the  first  time  you've  ever  had  one  of  them  !   "

"  fight  this  mob …  they'd  eat  me  alive  .  "

"  no  one  would  have  me …  "

"  that  attempt  to  seem  all  enigmatic  and  interesting …  just  makes  you  look  stupid  .  "

"  must  be  tough  being  rich,  huh  .  "

"  …  i  was  being  serious  .  "

"  i'm  glad  i'm  not  your  brother …  "

"  gah …  i  broke  the  goddamn  wheel  !   "

"  oh  i'm  sorry …  was  their  insufficient  feathers  in  your  pillow  ?   "

"  … are  you  secretly  normal  ?   "

"  that'll  be  on  my  gravestone  !   "

"  is  that  perfume  you're  wearing …  or  did  a  cat  piss  on  some  kerosene  ?   "

"  you're  as  lazy  as  a  toad  and  twice  as  ugly …  " 

Hands on either side of the map. Eyes trailing down the path that would lead to warmer weather and a promising new start. That train would help them along their way. Get the food they need, the comfort. He's starting his plans, he's finding a way to continue this god awful reason to take revenge even if it's hidden behind other means. The door swinging open to push at the flames dancing within the fireplace, but not enough to snuff them. He doesn't turn, ain't no need. Everyone knew their place and everyone gave him the highest respect. Unless it was important, ain't no reason to bother him.

❛ always , dutch . ❜ she answered . jesúsa bit back the pain and forced herself to move closer to the map and the table with as little of a limp as she could manage . she rose one of her hands to tug down the scarf now that she was closer to the warmth of the fire . she wasn't built for this cold . . . and she was more than thankful that she had been able to scrounge up an extra coat and scarf amidst what had been hastily packed in their exodus from blackwater .

❛ peppi's been itching for a job , she doesn't like being cooped up . ❜ the mare was wild and free , and like all of them desperate to do something . ❛ especially sharing a stall with the o'driscoll . ❜ really , perpetua hadn't seemed to mind kieran duffy too much , though she'd pin back her ears and stomp when he tried to talk to jesúsa or charles .