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What we have been witnessing since november 5th is the loss of compassion and remembrance of what this nation is supposed to represent. And what happened yesterday july 3rd quite frankly was the nail on the coffin for many people across the nation and across the world. the core values of america have been lost in the pool of greed, corruption, hate, and individualism. our government is declaring war on the people who make this country.

while it is okay to be in deep despair, angry and saddened by what we are witnessing we also cannot stay down for too long. that’s what these very evil people want. it’s easier to have means of control when folks are depressed and become numb to the world around them. that’s how abusers get away with abusing people for so long. you get broken done to the point of no return. that’s why slave masters hated when slaves would sing in the fields. that’s why during jim crow they hated to see black folk find joy in community. that’s why predators prey on the weak. our joy and happiness is what keeps us fighting. it’s what allows us to try and see the brighter side of tomorrow. our joy is what keeps us alive. our fire and passion within is what helps push our drive for change. when kamala was running for president that joy, the bliss, the laughter is what pushed us to fight even harder.

hate has won too many times in this nation. but we have also seen what it’s like when joy,love, and compassion wins. maybe not in our lifetime but we’ve seen it in our history books.

but recently with the drama about her album cover i do take issues with the lane she’s going down. i not long ago watched juno and sabrina’s reference to juno is just weird. like it’s a movie about teen pregnancy so referring to that because you want to get knocked up is weird. also mark is a creep who was attracted to a literal child but i digress. then i learned about lolita and her photoshoot referencing lolita. and her new album cover that has her on all 4’s with a man holding/ pulling her hair and i question why she has a black man doing that.

all this to say that there needs to be lines drawn about what is actually feminism and sexual liberation and autonomy and what is just pure hyper sexual male centered “feminism”. now i don’t consider myself a feminist (im a womanist) but feminism has gotten to the point where its male centered with the illusion that what is currently being pushout as feminist liberation and autonomy.

as an american i do not no too much about governments in other parts of the world but as a kid who was born in Germany with a german birth certificate who is both a citizen in german and america (my parents are american and i spent damn near all my life in america) i had learned about the world wars and the role germany played in it and had to argue with ignorant people who thought bc i was born in german that made me a nazi i do not like the fact that these nazi adjacent people are getting away with this. the nazi party NEVER went away. there’s has always been nazi’s around the world. i did not forgot about what happened in charlottesville. i did not forgot that just last month elon musk did the nazi salute. i did not and will not get forget recognizing as a 4th/5th grader during trumps first campaign that he himself is a nazi that idolizes hitler. it’s not lost on me that just the other day a man did the nazi salute on live american television at a government conference/ rally. nazi will never go away just like racism and groups like the KKK will NEVER GO AWAY. they evolve with time and learn how to blind, and mask true thoughts and feelings until they are given a big enough platform to do what they want. they lie and gaslight and twist the truth. rewrite history.

this is not lost on me and i HOPE this is not lost on anybody who comes across this and gives a fuck about social and the betterment of humanity. the times that we are in are not fucking normal. never have been and never will be. this is a major problem and to think it doesn’t matter or has nothing to do with you is very very foolish.

i don’t have all the answers and quite frankly i feel very small, overwhelmed, and borderline hopeless. i have no solutions to these problems but i do know that i want to help. i want to be an advocate. i wants to educate myself and others as best i can. but it’s hard when these platforms that i use to try and reach people with are ran by the ones that i want to go against. i want to be more than an internet activist/ warrior but idk how to get beyond this step. especially when j have zero desire to be in a government position or be any sort of politician. i want to be a sports psychologist. not a fucking mayor of sb in the senate. but the question ig is how do i get these points across without compromising who i am and who i aspire to be.

with that being said i tired to list to $ome $exy $ongs 4 u and i couldnt get past the 6th song. I had no high expectations going into this and honestly already had an idea of what it was going to sound like and i was right. imo they could of kept this album becuase its things that we've already heard from the both of them many many times before.

I find it weird that flint michigan caught strays in the song "moth balls" i think the title "moth balls" is bazzar as a whole lol.

drake is still whining, talking about girls who live with their mom and still paying for pussy and girls thinking that equates to love. this for shit sho wants what was meant by ' drake with the melodies.' this still isn't the drake that people liked and in honesty, his last listenable album was ' views' and if we really wanna get technical he hasn't had a good album since ' if you're reading this it's too late'.

I came to this realization during the beef. drake doesnt have a personality or his own sound, he's strayed so far away from what we know him for that nothing he does is authentic, and then you add in the fact that he likes young girls that it makes some of his songs so uncomfortable to listen to and then you add in the fact that he likes to pick on and bully women because he thinks it makes him seem mainly and intimidating when in reality he makes him a misogynist weirdo. because he never has the same smoke for men who talk shit about him. he only goes after the women in those peoples lives thinking hes "hard".

and once you realize that he leaches on to whatever sound is popular and genre jumps in the worst way possible. hes literaly like the taylor swift of hip-hop and r&b the easier it is to leave him behind and find people in those genres that does it correctly and sounds way better then the blood sucking vampre nonesens drake puts out.

as for pnd he still has some songs i'll bump because i do think he did a good job but now i think he needs to hang it up. I feel like if he was able to distance himself from Drake like the Weeknd did, then his sound would evolve like its supposed to when you an artist, the craft is about evolution, and when you cant evolve and grow your sound, then it starts to feel like whats the point.

i think what i like the most was his intro “the revolution bout to be televised. you picked the right time but the wrong guy.”

i thought about Gil Scott- Haron’s song “the revolution will not be televised” from 1971. and obviously the play on words because we live in a time where everything is of easy access so obviously the revolution will be televised. but what had me double thinking was the “wrong guy” part. yes, i think he’s talking about trump because america picked the wrong man for presidency. but also kendrick could be calling himself the wrong guy, in the sense that he’s gonna flip this shit on its head. the boogie man has woken up both in a cultural and political sense.

another thing that stood out to me wan uncle sam (Samuel L Jackson) told kendrick after he did Man at the garden “ ahh you bought your homeboys with you. the old culture cheat code. score keeper deduct a life”. i interpreted this as when black people stick together, maintain the culture of community (which is intertwined deeply in black culture) and are united and strong white american “deducts a life” i.e. kills a black person in cold blood to disrupt the culture and community. i also feel this way because man at the garden is a song full of affirmations. literally a black man saying “i deserve it all” you break down confidence by causing tragedy.

there’s so much more that can be said about how this halftime show was a major political statement but also one more “fuck you” to drake in moment.

but i’d like to end with kendrick finishing with tv off. like he’s literally saying turn the tv off. and to me he’s also saying go get active and talk about what’s happening go advocate for change in every way possible.

this was a major fuck you to america on national television and using the propaganda that was used on those who came before us against the oppressors and i’m genuinely pleased with what kendrick did. he doesn’t have a pulitzer prize for no reason.

i think it’s admirable honestly. kendrick has found the sweet spot between being a hater while maintaining peace and showing that good things happen to those who pour into community rather than always taking.

but i think we can also mention the hypocrisy in all this. yes drake started it and came with the harmful allegations first. but kendrick is a hypocrite for calling out drake on his weird predatory behavior when he had kodak black on mr moral and the big steppers and working with dr dre.

and like i said yes drake started it but also use your platform to call out everybody with predatory behaviors not just the man you beefin with and his entourage. because mr moral himself his those type of people in his circle.

i am a big kendrick fan myself and do plan to go see him on tour because i admire him as a hater, his artistry and him as a person. but i would be going against my own beliefs and distain for hypocrisy if i didn’t recognize these things that i said above. 

if i wanted to take the easy way in this conversation i’d say it’s obviously rooted in racism and very anti black but like i said it’s too easy.

i listened to both albums and love them both dearly however, cowboy carter is the better album. it’s more nuanced to me and the messages hit much harder.

i’m also seeing a lot of people who are upset say they didn’t even listen to cowboy carter, which in my opinion automatically makes their argument invalid. you can’t argue why one thing is better than the other when you did not listen to both. that’s called making an ass of yourself and to me say you like arguing for the sake of hearing yourself talk and not to prove a point. i also seen some people complain that billie should of won because beyonce has too many grammys and atp is being “greedy”. which makes no sense because that lady has no control over winning. if that was the case she would it would of took 25 years for her to win aoty.

as well as i don’t remember ever hearing this much up rawr and think pieces or “she has enough awards” when it comes to taylor swift.

all this to say that i’d like to hear a VALID well thought out reason as to WHY “hit me hard and soft” is aoty over “cowboy carter”.

trump has NEVER had a successful business. and he himself and all those nutcases he’s been appointing are direct beneficiaries of DEI. and that’s why the ppl who voted for him some how believed he was good for the economy like WHAT???

it’s already overly difficult to get black people to go to the doctor and dentist for simple routine checkups let alone getting a black person to get vaccinated and seek medical help when they need hit. and when black people do seek medical help they are treated without the same level of care because it’s been rooted in medicine for so long that black people can tolerate more than the average white person.

i think it’s very interesting that in today’s society things are moving a lot quicker than what they used to. especially the development of people from child to adult. in adolescence psychology we’re talking about puberty, and while yes this is a different experience for all. down to when the age you start puberty,how much you develop and how long puberty lasts. but two things that stuck out to me is the puberty in children is starting a lot younger than what it decades ago. as well as the fact that specifically black girls mature faster than latina girls who mature faster than white girls. (in the united states)

with that being said i think this information in a very broad sense speaks to american culture as a whole (in the context of environment for children). i was not surprised to find out that black girls mature the fastest when considering the history of how black girls have been treated in american culture. expected to take on greater roles then what little black girls are ready for because they are not seen a children. they are seen as adults even going back to slavery. and latina girls following suit, while little white girls are allowed to be children. not saying they do not face adversity historically that would call for white girls to grow up and “mature” faster but i don’t believe it be to the same extent as black and latina girls. (obviously considering the information i shared)