layken

you know it’s a bad day when none of your sad or angry songs make you feel any better

the worst feeling in the world is when you feel like you have to apologize for letting out your emotions and ranting..

when your mental health keeps plummeting but you have no other choice than to keep going and act like it’s not real because you have to maintain your “good” grades and have to be present at a full time job with a boss that you can’t stand and still try to make time to see your girlfriend but then every time you make the plans her mom decides to yet again express her hatred towards you and not let you two see each other which only makes things worse because the only way that you get a refresh in your mental health and enough to make it another week is by hugging your girlfriend and just feelings her undistracted presence and her gentle touch and her warm and loving embrace but that can’t happen bc of her mom so you just fall into an even deeper bit of poor mental health than you were two hours ago and now you’re not eating and you can’t stop crying and it’s taking every ounce of strength to not destroy everything in your room, your own skin, and to not just completely lose it all at the same time in an attempt to regain the slightest bit of control over your mind and your life that you have left but when you really thing about it that little bit of control isn’t enough to make it all better so the cycle continues until one day.. it doesn’t anymore

when you type something to send to soemone because you think they might relate but you end up deleting it because you know that won’t respond or it’s going to be a dead conversation and you don’t want to waste peoples time.

message me if you wanna be friends!

if only i had someone to talk to when everything is falling apart at the same time

it’s never what it seems