my zodiac is lasagna

hurting again

life is so gay, I’m broke and have a debilitating crush

Made a new tinder profile with new photos because I’m hot and deserve love

Is anyone here anymore. I quit smoking weed and I am also being friend zoned hard and can’t end the friendship out of respect for him, myself, and our friends. Everything hurts but it hurts so much more because I’m sober. How do I force myself to cry. I feel like my heart is going to explode. I spent so many years trying to not open myself up to anyone, and now that I’ve finally found someone I care about, it’s a total failure. I realize so much why I started smoking weed everyday to be high all the time. High so I couldn’t feel. Now I just feel everything and I hate it. I can’t even focus on anything important because I’m so hurt, and I’m tired of feeling like I’m forcing everyone close to me to help me deal with my emotions. I feel like a burden. I don’t know what to do anymore, I’m so tired.

I wish I had friends or a social life in general haha