I AM NO LONGER MENTALLY ILL

she said it herself in ep100. you were never there after ava died. throughout my mourning, you were the only one who wasn't there. jayson ferin lost his eldest daughter, his shining star, and all that was left in her place was, in his mind, a shadow. to jayson, jay ferin was a secondary character. a shell of what ava could've been, had she been given another chance at life. we never really get any details, but we know that something died in jayson's heart when ava passed.

so does jay think about it? does she wonder, late at night, if he ever gave her that same emotion? that same grief?

after leaving him behind at the BLOCK. after yelling in his face, bloodied and crying, that he was one of the strongest men she knew, but a fucking pathetic father. after severing him from her soul like a rotting limb. after she heard him call after her - when i catch you, you will no longer be a daughter to me. just another pirate. do you think she wondered if their separation killed him just as much?

maybe the concept brought her comfort. he'd brought her through so much pain that the idea of putting him in a small semblance of it was relieving.

but in the back of her mind, there's reality. a reality where jayson ferin probably never speaks of her. where he now considers himself childless. when others ask, he speaks so highly of his late daughter, ava ferin, how she had the world at her hands, how she would've gone so far if she lived longer.

late waning crescent happy valentine ;D

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