Destroy it all
Chapter 3
Tw: near death experience, the joker, allusions to s*icide, sh, collapsing building, trapped under rubble, violence, somewhat emotional co-dependence, we are emotionally adopted ?, babies adopting babies?, narrators projects a bit
Synopsis: The love of a Bat Or Clocktower part 2
Og Idea (it has the link to Chapter 1 too btw)
CHAPTER 2 / you are here / CHAPTER 4
a Neglectful Batfamily x Maki Zenin!Reader
I remember the warmth I felt when I first met her, she was the first that ever gave me time even if it wasn't much, I love her, I still do, she is my sister she said, she is my protector, she is my family, she is my Barbara
and I'm her baby sister
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Blood there is blood, and my vision is blurry, why did this have to happen, this wasn't how it was supposed to go, you weren't supposed to be under debris, She, Barbara wasn't supposed to be under debris, why? Just why, you can just stare, she is there part of her under debris, her head is bleeding and she is unresponsive, you know she is alive by the faint movement of her chest
God you are so sorry, so sorry
You are under debris too, you could get out and yet you don’t you push your hand as far as it can stretch to try and hold Barbara's hand, her hand is unmoving, limp, her breath shallow, and you can't help but just tear up, big fat tears threatening to fall down…
"please don’t cry"
You look up fast, there is a pretty ginger hair lady in front of you, she helps you up as you sniffle
"awh you got a boo boo, don’t worry [Name], That’s your name right? I remember Dickie telling me" the pretty lady said as she brushed your tears away, she held your hand so softly, she cared, you knew she cared
All those nights holding a smaller version of yourself, even with all her work, even when helping the others, at least she made a tiny space for you, and you knew that if you really needed her she would be there, that she would found you, that you would matter.
And you did, you always mattered, you knew you would miss her if you let yourself down from that chair, she indirectly saved you from demise, she pulled you out from the hole Jason left when he died, from Tim's cold shoulder, from Bruce's and Dick's absence, from Alfred's professionalism….
She is the reason you stopped wanting to be hurt, she made it stop hurting, indirectly she made you reject all the impulses to be bad, to be hurt.
"Bar-Barbara" you coughed out as you keep trying to pull yourself out, you tap her head with your other hand "please Barbara- sissy- Babs please" you half cry as the frustration bottles up
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Your eyes freeze up at the visibly red clock with a count down
"we need to get out" you heard Yuta said with understandable concern "I'll call rika over so she takes us out without exposing us to whatever is the gas outside" he said through a worried voice, and you understood the worry, the concern, the obvious gas leaking through from under the door, the ticking clock going down…
Down, its going down.
The clock is going down.
"Barbara" you said
[00:55]
I'm coming wait for me (wait)
Please god not her.
[00:53]
"[Name]?" You couldn't hear yuta anymore, you could only see his lips moving, and before you realized it you were slamming the door open and running, running through gas, coughing up, you didn't care, running through the basement then the mansion halls, Tim's laugh, that horrible laugh of a clown, you are little running up through the stairs
I hear the walls repeating (wait)
[00:46]
The falling of my feet and
You are out of breath, you feel how your body locks up and yet you keep moving, even when Gojo Bruce tries to pull you back with so much force, you keep going up, your eyes feel like burning, your heart beating so loudly, you hear those voices again, how useless and how undeserving you are, and maybe they are right, maybe you should stop trying so hard, you don’t belong anywhere, you don’t stop running
It sounds like drumming (wait)
[00:30]
And I am not alone (wait)
You always knew, you always knew why you were the odd one out, they thought you didn't understand, that you never knew, that you are not skilled enough, and maybe its truth, you hear steps behind you, you aren't backing down, you run faster, you aren't going to fail her too, not like you did Mai, not like you did your mother, you are not going to fail Barbara, you aren't letting that fucking clow, never again
[00:17]
"リᔑᒲᒷ ᓵ𝙹me ʖacꖌ! !¡ꖎeaᓭe" you cant hear anything, your focused, you really arent letting this happen, in this moment you don’t care about anything else or anyone else
You open the door slamming it open
"Barbara!" you call out loudly and breathless "BABS PLEASE" you half screech
"[Name] what are you doing here?! HOW did you get here?!" You see her shocked face, how why are you here, how did you know, why why why
"We need to get out!" you start pulling her with her chair away from the computers, even with all this darkness you travel yourself pretty well I hear the rocks and stones (wait)
[00:10]
"[name] I can't"
[00:09]
"yes you can!"
[00:08]
"No! I got to help the- the others"
[00:07]
Echoing my song
"Think about yourself! We don’t have much time! Theres a fucking bomb on the building!"
[00:06]
"Why arent you out ?!" she screams
[00:05]
I'm coming (coming, coming)
"You were still here!" you snap back at her
Tick
"How did you even know i was here! " she asks worried very worried about your safety
Tick
"it doesn't even matter! we need to get out!" you said more exasperated
Tick
"I- yes okay, but i need to secure-"
Tick
"I can just carry you!"
[00:59]
for once in a long time Gotham is frozen in shock, all the bats and the birds are too, they thought they had more time, from sector B to the Docks, everyone for once is rushing to the same place, the clock tower
No one thinks twice before running to Oracle, to the original Batgirl to Barbara.
"You bastard!" Red Hood Jason screams at the Joker as Tim pushes him towards the Batmovil and Bruce gets on the driver's seat, from first to seventh gear in a blink of an eye
"R-red robin to everyone-"
"already on the way!" Dick answers with absolute seriousness, the air breaking a bit can be heard must be swinging to fast
"WE KNOW DRAKE" an exasperated Damian snaps
"halfway there" says Kate with such a deathly quietness, she must be driving like crazy, in the back can be heard an stressed Steph trying to keep calm
[00:37]
"7 blocks away!" Jason says loudly so the coms can pick his modulated voice, even so his tone its shaky, how could this happen, why why why again, they aren't gonna make it in time, this time Bruce didn't even bat an eye when Jason shot the joker thrice with rubber bullets, he saw the restrain Jason had in his eyes when he wanted to killed the clown so badly
[00:20]
'why can't the car go faster!, why can't it go fucking faster!, why can't i be faster, why am i not able to save anyone, any of my kids, Jason, Barbara, Tim, Duke, Dick
why can't i just be a better father why why why' Bruce can't help but over think the fact that all of his children have resulted either death or with such a trauma that they will probably have long life sequels, just like Joker Junior, owh Tim his precious son with an scarred smile and a missing spleen, his baby Jason, his death, crawling himself out of the coffin out from the dirt and the soil, Dukes family situation, jokerized forever, Barbara in a wheelchair, Dick not being able to handle the grief of killing this horrible being, it makes him disconsolate, he cannot stop this grief that has taken root deep inside his heart, this agony with a missing piece he doesn't know where it is or where he placed it, this agony of something missing and not being able to be filled, his heart dying with the agonizing truth that he can never protect his children in this war against the crime, against evil, that he is a bad mentor, a bad vigilante, a bad person but the crippling fear of being a bad father. Ironic isn't it?
[00:17] "Ba- rbara!" the comms of the clock tower sound so broken and cut out, everyone went silent they lost some seconds onto that, who was in the clocktower
"[Na-'gibbersih']" it was clrearly Barbaras voice but what was she saying?
"we //d$% OUT" the unknown voice said
[00:10]
The next seconds only static is heard, Bruce goes even faster gas to the max
[00:07]
"Think about yourself! We- $#&*^%^$ Time!" and in that very moment Damian realizes the voice, he knows he knows he knows
'think about yourself Damian not everything is legacy and what people think'
No no no, it can't be why- how? How does she know? Has she always knew?! She is only a civilian no, not his sister
Why can't the words just start forming, why can't he talk, how can he be so useless and fail like this!
[00:03]
"%^$^&$%&$%&"
Tick
"*^^&^$%$%%"
Tick
"We are here!"/"I can just ca-%%&&"
"NO!" Bruce hits the break so hard to make the car turn so the explosion doesnt hit them as hard the break stays put, the car rattles hard, and he instincively jumps to the back seat pulling Tim and Jason as far from the side that takes the explosion, and in the desperation pushing them both under his cape that its resistant to almost anything, he's holding them tight.
Kate does something similar pulling Stehp and Cass both under her cape and behind a wall, also shielding them from most of the hit, even as some of the glass and the rubble hits her, she won't yield, not for this, she will protect this girls with her life if needed.
fortunately Duke felt itand took cover faster than the others, rubble slammed into him , he's taken worse, he needs to step up, Barbara needs them, he needs to get UP! He needs to survive!
Dick doesnt even think twice before pulling himself and Damian onto the floor of the building they were on, shielding Damian from most of the wave, the crystals cracking breaking and rattling, shielding his baby brother from the explosion, holding him down with all his might so he doesn't do anything as stupid as jumping into the explosion, so much smoke its too much too much.
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"Bar-Barbara" you coughed out as you keep trying to pull yourself out, you tap her head with your other hand "please Barbara- sissy- Babs please" you half cry as the frustration bottles up
"AGH- ah-" choking out a wince you try to stand up, you are under rubble, have an steel bar through your right side of your abdomen, your eyes water up from the pain, your breath is shallow and stressed out, you can't get up, your try pulling out your phone but the broken pieces of the glass pierce your sking as you hold it, you let out a small grunt of pain.
cough cough
"Barbara!" you exclaim with such relief in your voice, Barbara just mutters something "im getting you out of here Babs i swear" you start to ramble through happy tears "dont. [Name]- we gotta wa-" she gets cut off by your voice "wait for Batman? for Bruce really?" you ask her with stress "Barbara more than half of you is under rubble!" you snap at her a bit, she raises her head to try and look at you but her glasses are broken and can't really see you
"i swear on my life im getting us out" you vow so silently and yet for the desiny for fate never, the sudden determination in your body is there you hold onto the metal bar and harden your back which has rubble and debris on top and start to stand up.
crack
you break the base of the metal bar and stand, with a swift motion you pull it out and press over the wound, you crouch infront of Barbara
"let me help"
"you can't its too heavy, [name].... how did-"
"dont waste energy"
you said as you sniffled "Its gonna be okay, i promise" you walked to the begining of the big piece of ceiling thats over Barbara and crouch and effortlessly tossing it aside.
im not the girl i used to be
with just one arm you held the rubble annd with the other you pull barbara out "Does it hurt?" you ask concerned because Barbara seems so pale "nothing hurts..... can't feel my body" she said, and your blood runs cold, she looks so pale, so tired, she looks cold.
She feels cold oh so cold, perfect for sleep, why is she suddenly so tired why ? why?, something is wrong, so wrong, the explosion the joker the rubble the cold.
"Barbara will you still love me when i grow up?" you asked her one nigh when no one was on the cave only you and her alone
"always and forever" she says with an smile going through the GCTV's
the gas started to peer down the rubble, down with you and Barbara, and you are not going to stand that, not now and not ever, you pick Barbara up and jump over the rubble and run colling with the glass window to the next building.... where Damian and Dick are... on the same roof
you realize first "shit" you murmur, but its too late mostly too late, on the floor there is Damian and Dick, their heads wipped towards where you landed with Barabara on your arms, they are freezed up, the shadow of the burned down building covering your features.
Dick is quick too push Damian behind him and raised his esgrima sticks, a fighting stance, you just stared at him, at damian how dare he believe you would hurt your baby brother
"Save her" you begg, half cracked voice, Damian is the only one that feels his body tense up so fast, that voice.... he was right..... the voice on the comms, its you its you, his sister, why are you here, why cant he talk why why why, how are you here
you lower Barbara onto the floor before dissapearing onto the shadows... you can see Damians eyes and for a second you believe that you can see awarness, that you are noticed but no. you know better than that, you will never have a place here...
"Save Barbara"
dang the angst im preparing for the next chapter, sorry if the chapter feels a bit tiny rushed, but im working on the next chapters ANGST
if you have suggestions or tips on writting or any idea i would be glad to listen to it
[i'll probably re-writte this chapter]
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