l'amant aveugle

Love is like poison. You don’t see it coming but you know right away when it hits you. Your throat burns and you feel it pulsing through your veins… then you just have to accept it and slowly let it kill you.

I love you head over handles like my first bicycle incident— before the mouthful of gravel and blood, I swore we were flying.

I thought I kissed the loneliness out from your delicate body. I thought I did, but later you sat up, all bones and restless hands, shaking, and told me there is a knot in your body that I cannot undo. I never know what to say to these things. “It’s okay.” “Come back to bed.” “Please don’t go away again.” Sometimes you are gone for days.. Weeks.. Months at a time and it is all I can do not to call the police, file a missing person’s report, even though you are right there, still sleeping next to me in bed. But your eyes are like an empty house in winter: lights left on to scare away intruders. Except in this case I am the intruder and you are already locked up so tight that no one could possibly squeeze their way in. I thought I gave you a reason not to be so sad when I held your body like a high note and we both trembled from the effort.
Some people, though, are sad against all reason, all sensibility, all love. I know better now. I know what to say to the things you admit to me in the dark, all bones and restless hands. “It’s okay.” “You can stay in bed.” “Please come back to me again.”

One day you’re going to see her holding hands with someone who took your chance. She won’t even notice you because she’s too busy laughing with the stupid jokes he makes. And it will burn your heart seeing that beautiful smile on her face and realizing that you’re not the reason anymore. And then it will finally hit you: it was her, it was always her.

I hope
that if alternate universes exist, 
it will still be you 
and me 
in the end. I hope that 
there will always be an us. 
In every world, 
in every story

Only know you love her when you let her go

They told me if I love you to let you go so I keep my head high, and pretend to despise you.

"I have died every day waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you For a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more."

We hurt people that love us and love people that hurt us. If people let their guard down completely and allowed their mind, body and soul to be vulnerable to love and trust... We would all be happy.

If it's still in your mind, it's still in your heart.