. ݁⋆ ۶ৎ ݁˖ . ݁ gojo’s been distant
you didn’t know when it started, when he stopped kissing you goodbye, when you only get a chance to hear his dumb jokes once every few weeks, when an ‘I love you’ was a rare thing—and fuck, when he started sleeping with his back towards you.
what did you do? you thought. is he busy? is he just giving up on everything the two of you have been through together? why is he pulling away? the thought made your chest ache.
“y/n?” you hear an all to familiar voice—gojo. you were currently curled up on the couch a random tv show on, you didn’t care—you were gonna nap anyway, but the way he said your name, not even ‘babe’ ‘sweetheart’ ‘’my love’ just..y/n.
“hm?” you perk up, he’s grabbing the keys, leaving—again. “I’ll be home late, don’t wait up.” he said coldly. you can’t take it anymore, the distance, it’s too much. you stand up, the blanket that was draped over you, falling to the floor.
“gojo wait—“ and he does, turning to you, his blue eyes looked—exhausted. “what is it?” you walk over to him, “no you’re not leaving.” he looks taken aback, but also a smug look, he’s not taking this seriously.
“I’m serious gojo—you know there is something going on with us, you can feel it.” you say, the words rolling off your tongue almost angry. “I’m not about to do this with you y/n—I have places to go.” you sulk—immediately.
“gojo—please.” you plead, and you can see his jaw clench, as he drops the keys. “I have to be there in an hour, make it quick.” you scoff, “no call off you’ve been working for so long.”
“okay well—“ he starts, “have you ever thought that maybe I didn’t want to be at this house—with you. you sulk all the damn time.” your eyes sadden, what the hell is his problem? “I sulk? gojo your entire persona now is sulking!”
he looks away, biting the inside of his cheek, “I can’t do this anymore.” he mutters under his breath, “don’t you understand what this is about?” he scoffs, throwing the keys on the counter finding his way to the couch—you following him. “what—you’re breaking up with me? wow—that’s rich.”
“fuck y/n.” he runs his hands down his face before burying his face in his palms. “you don’t get it.” you bend down, your hand coming to his knee. “what—what don’t I get?”
“that one day—“ he stifles a sob. “when you got hurt badly, I stayed—stayed with you the entire week.” you nod, taking your palm cupping his face. “I remember.”
“and I blamed myself from then on y/n.” he leans into your touch. “ever since you met me you’ve become a leverage—people know you’re my weak spot, and it scares me.”
you were at loss for words, this is why he’s been distancing himself? because you got hurt so badly, and he wasn’t there to protect you.
“gojo i—“ but he doesn’t let you speak. “so I want you to hate me, i want you to pack your things—“ he lifts his head up, his face tear stricken. “and go—I’ll get you that train ticket.” you stand up now, shaking your head. “no—gojo no! I’m not doing that.” you speak. words wobbling.
“and when people ask about me—tell them how I was so shitty to you, worse damn ex you’ve ever had.” he kisses your forehead. “no you don’t get to do this.” you say backing up, “I’m staying.” he shakes his head, “always the stubborn.”
“what are we doing?” you ask, as he hands you your bags, you were about to board the train in front of you. “I’m doing what’s best for you, and—‘I love you’ just thought you should hear it before you go.”
“you’re an asshole for this.” you say through tears, biting your bottom lip. the wind blows against you, as you shiver he removes his jacket putting it over you. “you sure know how to make a girl feel special.” you mumur, and he laughs.
atleast you got to see his dumb, stupid smile for the last time.
he walks towards you, pressing a peck to your lips, “get on that damn train and forget about me.”
a/n: feeling evil 😈, anyways I wrote this while listening to the marías submarine album! ugh also guys don’t be afraid to be active on here and communicate with me!! i luv you guysss sincerely, bambi