this life is AWFUL

still not sober, its all up and down..

it has been over a year since James died.. People tell me "get over it" or "move on", i cant move on from this grief and i cant get over how i feel empty without him here. people talk about "the signs"... i dont see any or get any. i know hes around because i constantly talk out loud like if he is physically there and i know he listens but i dont dream with him. i miss his smile and his smell and all those hours in the studio talking about how we were gonna blow up and go on tour. so much pureness, love, and talent in one human body, it didnt make sense. you werent meant for this world James, u are and frvr will be an angel. I miss you poops & I love you frvr in this life and the next one and the next one.