Shuhei Hisagi

Pushing him away

Childhood promises

Strangers

Byakuya Kuchiki

Serving Royalty

Not enough

Hidden emotions

Kensei Muguruma

Hanahaki My Love

Different views

Second chance

Crimson

Ulquiorra Schiffer

Healing (AU)

Home is you

Ichigo Kurosaki

A new beginning

Forgotten memories

Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez

Domestic Life

Apart

Insecure Love

Ukitake Jushiro

Hesitant

Every moment with you

Her troubles

Izuru Kira

Reminiscing 

Bad Dream

Kyoraku Shunsui

Looking from afar

Weak

Aizen Sosuke

Trapped

Betrayal

My sweet girl

Gin Ichimaru

Comfort and lost

New Years

Hirako Shinji

Jazz lies

Jazz out the bar

Renji Abarai

Something there

A Helping Hand In Need

Kaien Shiba

Our little Secret

Zaraki Kenpachi

Someone like me

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𝐵𝓁𝒶𝒸𝓀 𝒞𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓇

Captains harem ft. Julius

Nozel Silva

Jealousy

Our paths unwind

I can’t let go

Fuegoleon Vermillion

Recovering

My own fae

William Vangeance 

Helpless

Dependent

A Women’s Determination

Patri

Happy ever after

Unhealthy love

Yami Sukehiro

Best friend and Lover

Admit it

Luck Voltia

Genuine Smile

Julius Novachrono

A promise in heaven

Leopold Vermillion

Your knight

Nacht Faust

I just wanted you to be happy

Zenon Zogratis

Kuchiki Byakuya, all the girls fawned over him. She thought he was good looking, apparently he was a widow. Although she never met the lady Hisana rumors said she was beautiful but always sick.

Byakuya always seemed cold to her, he would acknowledge their work with a few words but that was it.

"You have to serve dinner tonight!" One of the girls yelled to (Your Name) as they giggled and ran away.

She rolled her eyes, they hated this job mostly because it was rather awkward when dinner came.

Byakuya sister and him would sit and eat while being served. She liked Rukia, she was nice and humbled.

"Fine, but you guys have to prepare the food tonight!"

"Deal!" The other girls agreed.

Her mother always told her to wear appropriate clothes when serving the royal family, (Your Name) owned a few nice kimono but not nearly as fancy. Taking a deep breathe she took the trays of food from the other girls and softly called out from the other side of the door.

"Come." Byakuya says in a tired voice, the room was so silent (Your Name) seriously couldn't understand how Rukia could eat dinner like that most nights.

She gently opened the door and made sure to look anywhere but their eyes. With a tall posture and soft footsteps she placed Byakuya first and then went over to Rukias.

"No need to be so polite with me." Rukia smiles to (Your Name) as she silently blushes and shakes her head.

"I'm sorry Kuchiki San but that would be rude of me and against the rules." Rukia could only give her a friendly smile after and excused her.

"Kuchiki sama, I will be over to the next room if anything is needed." (Your Name) gesture to Byakuya as he nodded his head in approval.

Their dinner went smoothly and she only had to return twice to bring hot water for their tea, as far as she can tell the only conversation were held was that of the gotei 13 and about Rukia leaving to the human world for her friend Ichigo.

Byakuya was an observant man, he noticed that (Your Name) was the only servant to serve them of recent as the other girls would leave the job to her alone. She was quiet but he felt like there was a facade she let on, her hair flowing from her face as she bowed to them or when she slightly bent over to refill the tea pot.

He knew she had been living here for a few years and that her family had long passed away. Either way he acknowledged her hard work when all the other servants didn't want to do it or they were rather lazy. Byakuya saw the pattern of kimono that she wore, she had a selection of three and would alternate them when serving the family.

It made him realize the difference of their social status, when he could afford hundreds, she only owned three nice ones.

"You may be dismissed for the night." He tells (Your Name) as she came in for the last time to refill their tea.

(Your Name) seemed confused because they hadn't finished dinner and the room wasn't cleared. As she was about to open her mouth to protest that her job wasn't finished he silence her "You may retire for the rest of the night."

She took a look around not knowing how to go with the situation and she saw Rukia give her a smile "don't worry, we've notice your hard work, please take the rest of the night off."

A blush came to her face as she bowed deeply to Byakuya and to Rukia before leaving.

"Ehhh! You finished dinner already?" Some of the girls asked as she joined them in the common dining room.

"Yes Kuchiki sama insist I take the rest of the night off."

"What?! He's never told us that!" Some of them exclaimed a bit surprised as (Your Name) shrugged with a smug smile. "Haha, my hardwork has paid off!"

The rest of the night became peaceful as she sat outside to look at the sky, she could recall only being in Byakuya private corders a few times. He was sick, apparently really sick and had came down with a terrible fever. The medicine that was given to him was not working. Some of his advisors had spoke to Byakuya about a lady who use to work at the manor and how her medicine worked magic but she long passed leaving a daughter behind and that's how (Your Name) was brought to his corders

"You are requested to treat Kuchiki Sama fever." One of the advisor told her one night as she was already fast asleep but a concern grew on her as she quickly changed and followed to his room.

Byakuya was laying on the futon covered in sweat, his mouth slightly open and brows furrowed in pain.

"I need these herbs quickly." She told them as they went off to fetch the other servants to get them for her.

"Kuchiki sama is burning really bad, can we prepare him an ice bath?"

There was movement made from the captain as he covered his face from the light of the candle and he groaned "no ice bath." He weakly demanded as (Your Name) politely but sternly said that it would help a good amount until the herbs came in.

"Kuchiki sama, leaving lots of cold towels on your body would be ridiculous. Please listen to me."

Byakuya advisors made the choice for him as he grumbled out in pain not fully understanding the situation.

While that was happening she made the effort of crushing the herbs and brewing it into a tea.

"This will help Kuchiki sama."

After she placed him down gently and dried his body covered in water. And (Your Name) clearly tried not looking at the towel covering his special parts.

"drink this, it will make you feel better."

During that night she was told to stay there and tend to him all night. She wanted sleep, but was afraid of getting in trouble if she refused to stay.

Byakuya felt like he was floating but after falling asleep he awoke the next morning feeling tremendously better. The towel on his forehead fell onto his lap as he looked around the room.

(Your Name) was curled a few feet away from him in a ball next to the water bowel and herbal tea.

A sense of guilt came over him as he saw she was painting a picture of something but the lines gradually became messy as if she was trying to fight sleep.

That was when he first noticed her.

"I thought I ordered you to rest." His chilling voice says from behind her as she quickly sat up to face Byakuya who had no emotion on his face. At least she couldn't read his thoughts.

She couldn't read if he was angry at her but she bowed her head down and apologized.

"I'm sorry Kuchiki sama, the outside air isn't as suffocating. It's nice for some fresh air once in a while." (Your Name) explains giving them a bit of space between them as Byakuya says nothing and motions for her to sit back down next to him.

She hesitated before looking at him in the face and then away, he was waiting for her to make a move. Clearing her throat she sat down next to him and relaxed a bit.

Many questions were going through her head as Byakuya was silent watching the cherry blossoms fall.

"You've been working really hard, thank you." He tells her after a while as she looks down in embarrassment. (Your Name) didn't think he ever noticed her.

"Thank you, I try my best."

"Although, your painting needs some work." Byakuya slightly teased at her with a half smirk as she gasped and tried hard not to look at him in the face. She wanted to look so bad but didn't want to come off rude.

"It's okay to acknowledge me." Byakuya then tells her as she looked back to him as he stared down to (Your Name). He was right, the moonlight shining down made her look even more pretty.

"I feel like this is the most I've ever heard you speak before." She laughs a little hiding her mouth as his eyes widen from shock. "I'm no artist, I merely was trying to past time when you were ill."

He smirks again, Byakuya knew she wasn't at all reserved.

"Allow me to teach you." He then offered as a way to get to know her better without actually selling himself out. There was a silence for a while before she spoke.

"I would love to, but I don't think it would be appropriate." Her words struck with a bit of sadness as the Captain looks at her, she seemed deep in thought.

"As your provider you must." He orders her as she smiles a little and nods in agreement.

A few months had passed "Wow I'm getting so much better look Kuchiki sama!" (Your Name) excitingly says rushing to Byakuya with her painting. There was a big smile plastered on her face as he looks up from his spot.

It was a tiger stalking it's prey and he couldn't help but think about something different with that reference.

"What's wrong? Does it look bad?" She asks with confusion not understanding how close she was next to him. There was a certain innocence in her that Byakuya found pure and wanted to protect.

"It's nice. Just let me help you define some of the lines." He offered as he took her hand in his and swiftly corrected the messy lines.

She was blushing finding it hard to breathe, if all the other servants saw they probably would have fainted. (Your Name) could feel the heat on her back and his warmth that made her feel comfortable.

There was silence as she observed the strokes he was making.

"Better?" Byakuya asks her as she nodded and hid her face from him.

"What did you draw Kuchiki sama?" She then asks trying to calm herself as he shows his painting of a traditional lady holding a flower on her finger tip.

"It's very beautiful." (Your Name) says staring at the painting immerse by the detail of it.

"Very." Byakuya agrees staring at her face before sitting back up.

Although most of the time it was silent when they painted, she eventually started to talk more and act more casual, even Byakuya was surprised how much she was willing to share with him. He was thankful, he didn't want her to be closed off such as he was.

A part of him wanted to move forward and settle down again but he didn't know what (Your Name) was feeling.

"It's getting late, I don't want the girls to talk." She then says cleaning up the ink and papers.

"I see, allow me to walk you back."

"It's okay Kuchiki sama, I'm sure you need your rest. I have to be up early to start deep cleaning the mansion. The family is coming for a special dinner so I have to prepare."

Byakuya knits his brows, he knew that making her stay longer would cause a rumor to go around but he didn't care, he wanted to spend more time with her. Although he didn't want to reveal how he felt about her just yet.

"Alright, I assume you will be serving dinner?"

"Yes!" She says with a tired smile as he followed to her direction.

"Very well, you've been working hard. Allow me to gift this to you." Byakuya walks into one of the closets where the box was wrapped very nicely as he picked it up gently and places it in her hands. "Take care of it, it's one of kind made for you."

She was flushed and bowed deeply but before she could Byakuya stopped her and touched her hair, acknowledging how soft it was.

"Good night (Your Name)." He says before taking his leave.

(Your Name) rushed back to her room to see what was in the box, her excitement got the best of her as she had to calm herself and stop smiling so much.

She softly unwrap the ribbon and opened the box to see the Kimono stitched and made perfectly. The fabric felt delicate and soft but heavy and enduring.

A bit embarrassed of her only three selection, this was crafted by an expert. Holding the kimono up she smelled it and wrapped it around her.

Byakuya could only hope she liked the gift, as he headed to bed before tomorrows family dinner.

The day started early before the sun rise, (Your Name) and the other servants were busy cleaning and preparing food for tonight. The atmosphere was chaotic at the most but it was rather fun for her. She couldn't wait to show Byakuya how it looked but that would have to wait.

"You've been smiling a lot (Your Name)." One of the servants says with a smirk as she was lost in thought and apologize before going back to wrapping the dumplings. "Still thinking about leaving?"

"Leaving. Right I wanted to but now..."

"The days have been treating me well." She says back not wanting to share that she was spending private time with their "master" most days.

"Oh I see. Be careful."

(Your Name) seemed confused by that statement but before she could say anything she was called to finish the rest of the room decoration.

The day pasted by fast as she got ready in her own room. She wanted to know what the other girl meant by being careful, (Your Name) couldn't tell if it was a warning or the girl was genuinely looking out for her.

It is a big mansion and there are eyes everywhere, she was sure some of the servants knew but didn't say anything.

Dinner was starting and it was rowdy in the room luckily for (Your Name) she had a few other girls help serve dinner.

When the door open, it was filled with the royal family and people of higher status she couldn't help but feel let down. They were usually polite but sometimes they had some rude ones.

Byakuya took a moment to acknowledge her presence in the room as she gave a small smile and looked back down. Of course it did not go unnoticed by Rukia and the servants.

(Your Name) knew the other girls wanted to be near Byakuya so she stayed back and went immediately to put down Rukias tray.

"You look beautiful." She tells Rukia as the shorter shinigami blushes and thanks her.

It did not go unnoticed by Byakuya of the space (Your Name) was making through the night but he knew the words that were going around. The servants gossip to much. He knew she didn't want to create anymore rumors.

"Kuchiki Taicho have you thought about remarrying? I have a daughter still in her prime that is a suited match and can bring great aspects if we join family's." One of the royals says as Byakuya sips on his tea.

(Your Name) heard the conversation a few feet away as she gather the rest of the tray to put down. She was waiting for Byakuyas answer, she didn't know why she was acting this way. She never liked him before but spending some time and seeing his subtle acts of kindness changed her mind about Byakuya completely.

"I have, but that is a conversation I will not get into. I wish to find my own wife." Byakuya states clearly as Rukia ears perked up also from her brother. She didn't know he was thinking about remarrying. She couldn't help but feel a bit sad but also happy, he was finally finding happiness. Of course Rukia knew she would always be his little sister no matter what.

(Your Name) sighed in relief, but at the same time sad. Once he married she won't be able to paint along side him no more, it would definitely be inappropriate.

Some of the servants gave her a look which confused (Your Name) as they left the room quietly.

"Why are you all staring at me?" (Your Name) asks a bit fed up with the looks she had been getting all day.

"We saw you leave Kuchiki Sama private corders last night. Tell us! Is he good in bed?!" They exclaimed as (Your Name) almost choked on her spit.

"What?! You guys have the wrong idea! Kuchiki sama just offered to help me with my painting skills, there's nothing going on. I'm just glad you guys aren't mad at me." She says in relief as they giggle at her.

"No, we all know but didn't know how to ask!"

(Your Name) groaned and walked away from the nagging girls about their time together.

"Nii sama, it was a good dinner." Rukia says to her brother as he nodded his head walking slightly ahead of her. "Will you retire tonight?" She continue to asks as he answers back. "In a few hours, I wish to have more tea." He tells her as Rukia smiles and takes her leave back to the 13th division.

(Your Name) was busy cleaning the rest of the room as she sighed, the day drained her. She was glad no one hated her though especially the other servants, they were all basically sisters. A sense of sadness came over her as it fell silent in the room leaving her deep in thoughts.

She accepted she would never be anything more than a servant for the rest of her life. It was the cruel reality having to be born from nothing. Although she loved her parents deeply she didn't regret anything from her childhood to womanhood.

There was a letter on her bed as she got ready for bed. Byakuya was waiting for her.

It was late when he felt her presence outside his room. She was nervous, they always met up outside or in his study room.

"Kuchiki sama." She softly calls out as he opens the door to let her in.

Her night outfit was rather thin as he gave her his cloak. "It's cold." He tells her as she thanked him and took a seat next to him.

"Shall I pour the tea?"

Byakuya nodded as she covered her chest with one hand to not expose the loose covering.

"I wanted to speak to you about something."

Her ears perked up as she let him continue.

"You want to leave the manor?" Byakuya asks as she swallowed the hot tea and stay silent for a while, she didn't know how to answer him.

"For a while I did, I wasn't very happy but things change. I don't really know, I know there is more to life than this. I also want to explore and start a family one day.....Are you upset about that?"

Byakuya turns to her and reaches out to her cheek to hold it. The candle light shown in her face and her tired lids made her look dreamy as she fell into his touch. Usually she would shy away but maybe it's the lack of sleep that was making her act so bold or because she knew deep down he was into her.

His thump touches her lip as she opened her eyes, he was staring at her for approval as she nodded her head and moved closer into him as he kissed her lips.

It was light as he paused to look at her once more and caved back to her lips for more. There was a buried passion that he thought was long lost coming back as his hand ran through her hair and her arms were around his neck.

She was intoxicating as his tongue met hers with the same power for dominance.

There was heavy panting when they pulled apart, she didn't expect him to kiss her.

"Would that be enough to convince you to stay, stay by my side." He confessed as (Your Name) touched her lips, he was addicting, his voice, his face, his touch.

"Maybe." She smirks as he slightly smiled back to her. "But I am not royal."

Byakuya had his share of thoughts and hardship already in his last marriage to not care anymore.

"Does not matter to me." He tells her gently taking her hand with his holding it up to kiss it.

She was worried but his words alone is enough for her.

"Kuchiki sama-"

"Byakuya sama is fine." He insisted as she held onto his hand tighter.

"Byakuya sama, not trying to ruin the mood but I am quite tired." She laughs as he kissed her hand once more and helped her up. He guided her down to his bed as she seemed completely shocked.

"Stay with me tonight." He asks as she accepted his invitation.

They shared the bed as she comfortably fell into the covers of smelling his scent. She could stay here forever now.

"Good night Byakuya sama." She says as he wrapped his strong arms around her drifting to sleep as well.

Within the following months (Your Name) and Byakuya relationship had bloomed. "Rukia sama, are you going to the festival?" (Your Name) asks as they were sitting outside enjoying the sun.

"Yes! I will see you there?"

"I was suppose to go with your brother but he said he might be busy..." she says a little sadly as Rukia looked concern for her.

"Want to come with me?"

Her eyes widen as she smiled and agreed.

The night came as she wore the kimono Byakuya had gifted her, to bad he wouldn't be able to see her in it. She frowned but stopped, going with Rukia would be enough.

"You look amazing! Did my brother get this for you?" Rukia asks as she met her outside the manor.

"Yes! To bad he can't see me wear it but there is always next time!" (Your Name) says with excitement as they walked side by side talking about all the good food they were going to eat there.

From the entrance of the festival Byakuya could see his dearly beloved with his sister as they chatted and giggled with each other. It soften his heart as a smile placed on him.

From a distance (Your Name) saw a familiar figure standing, as she looked up and her smile grew even more as she ran towards Byakuya.

"Byakuya sama, I'm glad you came." She hugged him as his eyes widen, she was beautiful in the kimono and everyday since the first day they met.

"Of course my love." He says as he pushed some hair away from her face.

"Let's go!" She happily says extending her hand out to Rukia and then Byakuya who followed.

Grimmjow ears perks up from the small conversion outside his cage as he opened his sleepy eyes to take a glimpse. "Must be the those pest coming to kill me" he thinks as he slowly processes his surroundings before his ears fully perk up.

"But I want him, I've had experience with aggressive hybrids in the past. You said some of them needed another chance and I want to be the one to give it to him." Grimmjow hears the female voice say with aggression towards the sales man who he's come to dislike. Any person who has came to buy him the sales man has told them no because he was too much to handle.

Irritation overcame Grimmjow as he lunged towards the sales man and hissed baring his teeth. "See I think Grimmy agrees with me!" (Your Name) proudly says with her hands on her hips beaming with pride.

"Tch the hell is this women talking about?"

The sales man sighs and looks at her crazy before giving up and nodding. "Alright but we have some paperwork to fill and also I'm giving you a number to call if he decides to attack you. Don't say I didn't warn you."

The process was fairly easy, Grimmjow had all his shots and was in a healthy state. They had to sedate him a few times because he had injured a few staff but after spending weeks here the aggression had settled down.

"He's not too bad honestly, give him time to adjust and he won't give you a hard time. He keeps to himself." A hybrid name Nel says from behind the desk as she typed in all the information needed for (Your Name) and her new hybrid Grimmjow.

"Thanks I'll keep that in mind."

When Grimmjows cage opened he didn't move, he thought maybe the sales man worked his magic and convinced the women he wasn't worth saving but he opened his eyes again to see her waiting for him to leave his cage. The feeling was foreign usually they had chains put onto him so he wouldn't escape but she was letting him walk free. Grimmjow wasn't gonna complain she bought him so he was gonna use all her stuff for free and finally get some rest from all these other hybrids giving him a headache. Well he did feel a little sorry for some to never see the light of day again.

Grimmjow in his animal form slowly checked his surroundings before making his way out the cage. "Well you're gonna live with me now. Let's go home." (Your Name) softly says allowing him to walk freely without chains or a leash.

Grimmjow stalks her from behind before ultimately getting bored she wasn't frightened of him. He was asleep most the car ride home. The cage was too noisy of other hybrids talking, yelling or crying. It was nice listening to white noise for once. As the car came to an abrupt stop Grimmjow growled at her for disturbing his sleep.

She paid no mind to him opening the door and letting Grimmjow out. "Come on, the car's comfortable but not as comfortable as a house." She tells him.

A house, he doesn't remember a time he's been in one. Stalking after her once again he was fast to check his surroundings before making his way in.

"Home sweet home!" She calls to him running to the couch to lay down. "By the way, I know hybrids can be in their animal and human form but don't feel pressured to change if you don't want to. I also know you can talk." (Your Name) tells Grimmjow as he walks around the house giving it a good sniff, checking if it's safe.

With nothing much to do he ignores her and hops onto the other couch closing his eyes. Grimmjow checks off that she was no danger to him and he could easily kill her if she tried something.

"Kay well I'll start dinner and show you to your room." (Your Name) says before leaning towards the kitchen and opening the fridge.

He didn't care, he was gonna freeload off her and make this home his whether she liked him or not.

Grimmjow dozed off to sleep again before he smelt something delicious catch his nose. They say curiosity killed the cat and he couldn't help but leap off the couch to investigate the delicious smell. His walks were silent as he stalked towards the kitchen.

(Your Name) was searing chunks of meat for him as he watched from afar. She was listening to music from her speakers while reading a recipe off her phone. While turning to plate everything up she felt startled from Grimmjow watching her. He was so quiet she didn't hear his footsteps.

"Oh jeez don't scare me like that, I could have dropped our dinner." She scowls a bit before pouting and placing it on the table.

Grimmjow smirks at her reaction before inching his way towards the food.

She set it on the floor and he gives her a demanding look. "What? You don't want to change out of that form and you're too big to sit on a chair so you have to eat from the floor."

He rolls his eyes mentally at her before taking the pieces of meat and ripping them to sheds. The food was good, he couldn't get enough of it. Before Grimmjow knew it the food was already gone and he was looking up at her with angry eyes. (Your Name) was lost in thoughts answering emails that a paw swiped her leg.

She looked down to see the food gone and she softly chuckled before getting up and getting some chicken she had stored. "Here, eat up." She tells him before finishing her dinner as well.

Grimmjow room was nice, the bed was big there was a drawl and desk as well as clothes. What most excited him the most was the pillows and blankets but he would never let her know that part. His tail was happily twitching but if (Your Name) saw she didn't comment on it.

"Kay well this is where the problem lays. You reek and need a shower." She tells him as Grimmjow turns to growl at her but she throws up a water sprayer to his face.

"Don't threaten me now or I'll spray you with water." She says as Grimmjow hissed and the water she sprayed hits his tongue and he retaliates from it.

Without much of a fight Grimmjow eventually gets into a tub of water and lets her wash him. Although he isn't so happy and his ears are down.

(Your Name) was calm as she scrubbed him lightly and made sure not to touch his sensitive parts. "There, isn't so bad is it? Promise you'll be safe here." She tells him as Grimmjow looks at her with eyes that are unreadable.

With the night getting late she leaves him to his room and leaves him alone for the rest of it.

"Good night." She tells him before going into her room for the rest of the night.

After a few months their routine was pretty standard and much didn't change. (Your Name) would feed him a big breakfast before leaving to work and returning during her breaks to feed him again before leaving again. Grimmjow was feeling a little lonely without her yapping at him. She yapped about the most random things he didn't understand. He still appreciated having her as company sometimes. Grimmjow never spoke to her though, he was frustrated that (Your Name) was getting under his skin. Pride settled into him most days and when he wanted something he would put a paw on her or nudge his head across her legs.

One evening she came home very late and Grimmjow was not happy at all. He was expecting to give her a hissy fit by destroying one of her pillows but she came home in tears sobbing about her job and some coworkers being mean. Grimmjow guessed she had a bad day as he watched her lay in bed ignoring his presence.

"Not now Grimmjow, I've had a rough day. You probably don't even care." She says with eyes closed and tears falling into her pillow.

"Stupid women." He thinks before jumping into her bed and laying his head on her tummy offering comfort. Grimmjow feels warm, he likes her enough not to throw a fit anymore. A hand reaches out behind his ears as she scratches them and he purrs a little.

"This is the first time I've heard you purr Grimmjow." She says surprisingly as he stops and flicks his tail with annoyance. "Hey don't stop! I don't mind." Grimmjow closes his eyes and drifts to sleep after.

Unbeknownst to Grimmjow he was so comfortable laying with (Your Name) he changed to his human form, tail and ears still visible. Although instead of his head laying on her tummy he was big spooning her.

(Your Name) felt a wave of heat overcome her body as she groaned in her sleep. She's pretty sure her eyes are puffy as they felt heavy to open. "Grimmjow move a little, it's getting hot." She complains trying to turn on her side but his big body has her caged between his arms.

With annoyance she shoots out of bed to push him but instead she screams and grabs her spray bottle. "Is that you Grimmjow?!"

Spraying his face wakes Grimmjow up as he yells "dammit women I'm trying to sleep!" His ears pulled back and tail flapping aggressively.

(Your Name) laughs and she laughs so hard she can hardly breathe. "I can't believe I'm seeing you like this for the first time." She says and after realizing her big panther was finally showing his true form she smiles a bit to herself forgetting why she cried in the first place.

Grimmjow was not so happy as he was fuming with annoyance and he was hangry. He throws all her pillows at her before stomping off.

"I was wondering how you used the bathroom this whole time you know." She teases Grimmjow following him into the kitchen as he plopped his ass in a chair for the first time in years.

"Shut it women before I go back to not speaking to you ever again."

"Whatever, bet you were getting lonely not using that pissy mouth of yours." (Your Name) throws back at him getting ready to start dinner.

Grimmjow keeps his silence watching as she moves around the kitchen once more. Everything was still foreign to him especially being back in this form after so long.

"So how are you liking it here?" She strikes up a conversation although her back is to him. He can feel a shakiness to her voice like she was scared to ask him.

"It's fine." He states and Grimmjow swore he saw her shoulder slump a little.

"Ahh well it won't get any better than this."

Grimmjow knows she's right but his pride won't let him admit it. She dishes up dinner and places it on the table for the both of them. "Thought you would want to try something different for dinner." She exclaims as he stares at a triangular shape of food. "It's called pizza, sorry I was too tired to cook much tonight."

"Tch getting lazy now." Grimmjow complains as she brings the spray bottle close to his face before returning to dinner.

Grimmjow hated to admit but whatever this pizza thing was, was actually good. He ate everything with no complaints and she snickered at him.

Although she hasn't fully looked his way Grimmjow knows he is an ugly wild beast so he understood if she was a little on edge. "tch women can't even look at me."

"You can still sleep with me at night if you want. I mean... since you aren't in your panther form nothing has changed. You can still do whatever you want." (Your Name) explains again before clearing the dishes quickly. Grimmjow watches as her heart rate had fasten and her cheeks began to change color.

"Why's your face pink?" Grimmjow asks nonchalantly as he knits his brow and she throws a kitchen towel at him. "It's not pink jerk and it's called blushing! Anyways good night I'm tired now!" She shouts making her way quickly to her room.

Grimmjow was rather confused of her behavior but didn't say a word as he made sure all the doors were locked. At least he was doing what she did every night before heading to his room. He could only smirk. Maybe being in this form wasn't so bad.

It took (Your Name) a few weeks to adjust to Grimmjow and his new form. She's grown to understand how he likes things, his body language and the way he talks. It was nice having someone to communicate with again. Although she still had a hard time looking at him because well.... He was very much good looking, handsome, sexy. She could go down the list.

She did miss his paws on her or his light head nudges. Now that Grimmjow was talking he just demands what he wants now.

"Hey I don't mean to pry but the scars on your body." She asks one night as they sat in her garage, Grimmjow drinking water as he stops punching the punching bag she got him.

"Oh these? They're nothing just from the hybrid fights." He nonchalantly says before turning his attention back to the punching bag.

(Your Name) didn't pry but from what others have told her hybrids lived in cages in the most filthy conditions.

"Well let's go shopping tomorrow! I'm off and you get to spend the whole day with little ole me!" She beams at him but Grimmjow couldn't understand the concept of shopping.

"What, gonna get yourself another hybrid to keep you company now that you're bored of me? I'll scare the piece of shit away." He threatens while punching the bag keeping his focus on her.

"What are you talking about stupid? Shopping as in clothes? Food? Also I need to get you a phone." She says in disbelief of his attitude now.

"Tch, could have said so women." He says as (Your Name) remembers the sales man saying that panthers and other hybrids can get very possessive of their owners. She didn't think Grimmjow was but she never tested the theory out.

"Whatever stay cooped up in here then." She huffs going back inside the house to entertain herself with some reality tv. Grimmjow only stares at her figure walking away as he grits his teeth. She was driving him crazy, there was a warm fuzzy feeling he felt in his stomach that he did not like.

After another hour Grimmjow cleans up and heads to find her in her room on her phone. "So what's a phone?" He asks curiously watching her play with the little rectangle thing.

She pats the empty space on her bed and explains it's a device to communicate with people as well as a form of entertainment. "I need to get you one now. So I can update you or you can text me when I'm busy." She tells him.

Grimmjow hums in responds and hesitantly reaches for her body but pulls back. Her eyebrows are raised as she turns to look at him. He was contemplating on whether to touch her or not.

"We've cuddle when you were a cat what's so different now?" She asks as he only gives her a frown.

"You can't even look at me for a long time without averting your eyes." He bites back as she gaps her mouth and pouts. "That's not true."

After a moment of silence she puts her phone down and turns off the lamp. Grimmjow only stares back at her confused of her actions. (Your Name) hesitantly grabs his hand and places it on the top of her hips before closing her eyes to sleep.

Grimmjow didn't protest, a little part of him wanted to be near her. After all he sought to find her. He closes his eyes and sleeps as well.

Getting Grimmjow in the car and the drive was fine but, she could tell that he was very anxious about being in the public eye especially since he didn't have much interaction before. As (Your Name) got out of the car he followed behind trailing. She only sighed at his actions but understood that big crowds were something he didn't like.

Grimmjows eyes scanned every face and even saw some hybrids on their own. Good for them he thought bitterly. Of course he was kept as a pet, that's how the humans thought of them. He couldn't help but feel a little sour looking towards (Your Name).

"Doing okay?" Her voice reaches his ears as she settled with the same pace as him. Grimmjow only grunted while some people stared at his 'wild' features. They were dirt to his foot and he could have easily beat the shit out of them.

Making their way to the store he stood only inches away from (Your Name). "Which one do you like?"

He looks at the blue one and she only smirks before making the purchase.

"So hybrids can live a normal life too?" He asks curiously while taking a glance at a few that were walking around the stores.

"It's not uncommon but they are still treated like second class citizens."

He could only roll his eyes, the humans have never changed.

As time passed (Your Name) was walking around different stores purchasing clothes as she took a pause in her step and told Grimmjow he could pick anything out he wanted. He stopped in his steps and gave her an annoyed look.

"I don't care for these things." He explained before walking ahead leaving her to chase his long strides.

"I'm trying to help you Grimmjow!" She tells him as it irk a nerve and he twisted his body to meet hers.

"I don't give a shit, I'm a pet after all!" He yelled causing some pedestrians to stare and whisper amongst each other.

An officer from the store came out and warned (Your Name) to keep her 'pet' in check or they would be kicked out. Embarrassment came over her features as she continued to apologize to people who watched or sneered as she took Grimmjows hand and directed them out.

The drive back was awkward. Grimmjow was angry and (Your Name) was silent. She had an unreadable expression on her face. Once they got home she went straight to her room and Grimmjow only scoffed and slammed his door in an attempt to piss her off.

Since Grimmjow was a hybrid his hearing was more sensitive than humans and he could hear her shuffling around her room. Talking to someone on the phone. He suspected it was 'animal control' as he cursed and slammed her door open before she could kick him out.

"What the fuck you prick?" She screams as he snatched her phone and hung the phone call up.

"Tryna get rid of me already?" He sneered cornering her to wall as she held her hands onto his chest. There was hurt behind her eyes as she pushed him off.

"Leave me alone, it wasn't 'animal control' if you were that concerned. I'm going out tonight. I showed you how to use a phone, the kitchen, so keep yourself company or watch tv. I'm leaving." The bitterness in her voice explains as she opened her closet to throw on her dress and Grimmjow averted his eyes towards her ass.

"The fuck you going?" He asks as she threw on some heels and fixed her hair.

"Away from you, fyi I never adopted you. I just bought you from them so you wouldn't get killed. You're free to leave if you hate it here so much. Try surviving on your own then!"

She slams her front door getting into her car driving off as Grimmjow cursed and threw himself onto the couch. "She's being sensitive for no reason." He voices closing his eyes, irritation on his face. He was bored now that she was gone. Grimmjow had never seen (Your Name) so angry before as he huffed knowing he was in the wrong for snapping at her.

(Your Name) decided to go to the bar with some friends as she drank and danced to cool off some steam. "Hey how's your hybrid?" Ichigo asks as he pays for their drinks and she could only pout while taking the liquor.

"He's been an asshole, we got into a fight."

"Sorry I know our type is hard to get along with." Ichigo sheepishly says, his lion ears twitching from all the music.

"It's fine. I'm here to enjoy the night."

(Your Name) frowned a little thinking about Grimmjow, what he did when she was gone or if he's eaten dinner. She wished he would enjoy life more instead of cooping up in her house everyday. She understood coming from his violent past Grimmjow wasn't comfortable going out in public but she looked at all the other hybrids that have overcame their challenges. Grimmjow just needed a little nudge.

"Bastards probably enjoying all his alone time."

Her and Ichigo dance a little more that night after meeting up with more of their friends to bar hop.

"Don't drink to much (Your Name) you have to drive home!" Rukia warned as they walked into another bar and she could only laugh at the tiny girl before clinging onto Ichigo for assistance to the bar.

"You have to drive her home." Rukia tells Ichigo as he silently acknowledged and helped (Your Name). Tailing her moves to keep a watchful eyes of perverts and weirdos. Ichigo understood hybrids can be difficult to handle. He also had a rough patch with humans so he understood (Your Name) needed this time to enjoy herself. Her phone rang in her purse as Ichigo cursed seeing as (Your Name) was striking up a conversation with Rukia again. Ichigo answers the phone instead.

"The fuck you at? It's late." Grimmjow voice comes out as Ichigo gave a puzzled look and sighed. "This must be the hybrid she saved."

"Hey I'm (Your Name) friend, she's dancing right now but I can let her know you called." Ichigo says as he heard a loud noise emit from the phone and a few curses before the call ended. Ichigo knew he might have to fight another hybrid on the way to (Your Name) house.

Ichigo drove (Your Name) home as she tried to sober up on the drive back. "Ugh I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get this drunk. There's been a lot going on." She apologizes again as Ichigo gives her a small smile and held her hand for reassurance. "Hey it's fine, we all get those days. I don't mind helping a friend out but also be careful at home. Your hybrid Grimmjow seemed very angry on the phone."

(Your Name) giggles a little knowing that Grimmjow was positively jealous.

"How will you get home?" She asks Ichigo as he reassured her that Rukia was following them home so he had a ride back.

Grimmjow can hear her car pull up as he sees another hybrid carrying (Your Name) towards the door. He's pissed and angry another hybrid was marking their scent on her as he swung the door open and snatched (Your Name) from Ichigo.

"Hey I'm not here to fight." Ichigo threatens watching how Grimmjow was holding her possessively and keeping a keen eye on him.

Grimmjow lets out a growl as Ichigo growled back.

"Stop! Ichigo is my friend, you won't treat him like a stranger or fight each other." (Your Name) demands at Grimmjow hugging his upper body to separate the two.

"Fool come out here." Rukia voice calls out to Ichigo as he growled one last time to Grimmjow before taking a step out the door.

Rukia and (Your Name) give each other a knowing look before taking each hybrid away from each other. "Thanks you guys. I'll see you soon." She tells them before closing the door and turning to a pissed off Grimmjow.

He immediately tears her dress apart as she gasps from such strength he possessed. His growls were prominent as he tried to get Ichigo scent off her. Grimmjow couldn't understand why he was acting like she was his mate but something about another hybrid scent on her drove him insane.

"Stop!" She screamed at him as he threw the garments across the room and stormed off.

(Your Name) was hazy at this point, she picked up her dress and went straight to her room.

Grimmjow would never hurt her, she knew he had said mean things but he would never lay a hand, no matter how angry he got.

Lost in thought of Grimmjows tantrum she hurled towards the toilet, her mascara running down and hair pulled back.

Grimmjow could hear her throwing up from in the garage as he used the punching bag. He was blowing off steam as well. It wasn't until the sound of her gagging had his ears perking up. "Stupid annoying women" he cursed making his way to her room.

Grimmjow sees her figure over the toilet looking sorry for herself.

He walks behind her to hold her hair before drawing a bath for her.

"It's fine. I can take care of myself!" She explains shooing his body away but Grimmjow doesn't let her. He lifts her naked body into the tub and starts using all the soaps she had.

"You know each soap is different right?" (Your Name) states with attitude as Grimmjow tail flicks with annoyance.

"Shut up you stink." He says before washing her body and hair. (Your Name) only pouts and lets Grimmjow continue his routine of a bath.

While washing her Grimmjow could see there was still some sadness behind her eyes as he cleared his throat. "Did I scare you?" He asks.

"No, I was just startled. It's my fault anyways. I brought a potential threat to you." (Your Name) softly says while looking down at the water. She felt ashamed for bringing a competition to the house. She could see why Grimmjow was upset.

"He's not competition. You're mine and scent is a big thing with hybrids." He explains lifting her body out the water and wrapping a towel around her.

"I'm sorry." (Your Name) continues as Grimmjow couldn't even remember why they were fighting in the first place.

"Es fine, I guess I'm sorry too." He says nonchalantly but (Your Name) could only giggle at his expression of trying to be straight face while apologizing.

"Stop laughing women and change." Grimmjow says turning the other way as she followed his steps.

"But I wanna cuddle tonight please!" She begs still a little tipsy walking into his room, or what Grimmjow would say: his territory.

A dangerous line was being crossed but Grimmjow would never let her know that his rut was going to come soon.

"No."

"Yes."

"Piss off."

"You piss off pussy!" She throws back as he glares at her and throws her onto the bed.

"Don't say I didn't warn you." Grimmjow grins. Her towel threatening to peel off. "Give me a shirt." She demands as he knits his brow in confusion.

"Why?"

"So I can smell like you stupid."

Heat rushed over his groin. Grimmjow still had animal instinct and the fact that (Your Name) wanted his scent all to herself left him hard.

After putting on his shirt she waited for Grimmjow to join her in bed but he was standing by the door. "Come sleep with me." She pouts opening up his blankets as he hisses under his breath.

Grimmjow would not give into temptation. He knew his painfully hard dick would be hard all night but (Your Name) was even harder to pry off. Without much of a choice he slips under the covers as she curled her body in his.

"Let's just forget about all the fighting today. I like when we are happy." She explains half asleep.

Grimmjow stayed silent as he took her hand into his and drifted to sleep, hoping his hard dick would soften by morning.

The sheets never felt more comfortable to Grimmjow as he purred in his sleep, a hand stroking his hair unknowingly to him as he slept like a baby. A sigh escapes his lips as he nudged more into her hands that were caressing his hair and face.

"cute kitty" (Your Name) scowls before a genuine smile plasters her face. Grimmjow was leaning more into her touch, his fine lines of irritation gone.

She had awoken a few hours after the disasters of yesterday. Leaving his bedroom she heads downstairs to make a big breakfast.

Once Grimmjow feels the comforting warmth was gone he frowns in his sleep and flips to his side to find it cold. He growls out of annoyance because (Your Name) was providing so much comforts to his sleeps now.

Heading out of bed he pulls on a hoodie and stalks to (Your Name). He was silent walking into the kitchen as he puts a hand on her head as a gesture to let her know he was there.

"Oh good morning!" She beams as he looks down to see she was still wearing his shirt. He glances the other way and grunts as a response.

"Hey." Grimmjow calls out as he sheepishly reminds her that his rut was coming soon. "My rut is coming."

A blush appears on her face as she shrieks and turns back to the food that was cooking on the stove. Grimmjow just takes a seat on the counter waiting for her response.

"Um... I can't take you to the store so we can find something to satisfy you during that period."

He could only smirk as he felt generous today so he set the table up for breakfast.

"Sounds good to me." He says as curiously got the better of her.

"I don't know why that never crossed my mind... how did you deal with it in the past?" (Your Name) nervously asks filling his plate with eggs, sausages and bacon.

"My hands, or fucking other hybrids when we got the chance too or ride the pain out." He nonchalantly says eating his breakfast. Grimmjow could see that (Your Name) was genuinely curious, humans don't have heats or ruts.

"Ah I'm sorry, you could have told me before." There was silence between them as they ate but the silence was comforting. Grimmjow was comfortable enough to let (Your Name) know his most vulnerable state was coming and she was genuine not to judge how hybrid body's work.

"I won't be a bother... I've dealt with it in the past. I'll just stay in my room during that period." Grimmjow tries to sooth her seeing she was lost in thoughts about the whole conversation.

"Oh don't worry, I'll be working throughout the day anyways so... I'll order some toys for you."

Grimmjow was thankful she was helping his little problem that was going to arise but his other problem was her scent now. He was getting attached to (Your Name) and it annoyed him that a women like her could catch his heart. He would never let her know that.

After (Your Name) did her research on hybrids about their heat/rut, reading the articles made her blush. It wasn't uncommon for hybrids and humans to sleep together although society thought of it to be a sin.

"Um what toys would you like?" She bashfully shows her laptop to Grimmjow as he leans over her head to examine them.

"I don't know any of those things, my hands are good." He tells her before smirking, teasing (Your Name).

"Those rubber looking dicks are for women, bet you got one of those seeing as I've never seen a man in here before."

She slammed her laptop and grabbed the water spray so fast Grimmjow didn't have a chance to dodge. "Shut your trap pussy cat, I get off when I need too!" Embarrassment washes over her feature before she stomps off.

Grimmjow only laughs as he prayed his rutting period wouldn't make him crazy.

(Your Name) and Grimmjow went back to their normal schedule of routine. It had been a few days since their last conversation about his rut. She couldn't help but be curious if he had slept with a lot of women in the past.

The thought of him with another women irked her nerves as she frown.

"It's not like we are even dating or I'm his mate!" (Your Name) pouts as she applied her skincare onto her face before making her way into bed. Dinner tonight was fine, Grimmjow was more quiet than normal though.

(Your Name) had some ideas to leave the house for a few days during that period but knowing Grimmjow he would destroy it if she was not home.

"Hey." Grimmjow says while knocking on her door.

"When did the kitty cat have manners?" she calls out to Grimmjow as her door slams open and he looks irritated. "oh there's the Grimmjow I know."

"Tch, shut it women. I'm sleeping with you tonight."

Her face blushed as she turned the other way to grab her tv remote. They've only slept together a handful of time but it still gave her a warm fuzzy feeling whenever he was touched up next to her.

"Come join me then." she offers climbing into bed making herself comfortable to enjoy the night. Grimmjow goes quiet again as he lays down and faces her way. Tv bored him, some shows were interesting but he rather just tease her the whole night.

"Why're you staring." (Your Name) then asks as she turns on a movie, her eyes glued to the screen.

"Nothing much to stare at." Grimmjow explains as she grabbed her pillow to suffocate him but he grabbed her arms before she could react and howls out of laughter. "Why do you think everything is about you?" he proceeded to ask.

"Usually when people say that it means we aren't pleasant to look at."

Grimmjow only scoffs "I meant there's nothing in your room to look at, course I'm gonna look at you."

(Your Name) hearts start to race as she only scowls at him before scooting closer to his heat. The rest of the night was silent as he drifted sleep. (Your Name) finally calms down as she brushed a few pieces of hair out of his face before kissing him on the forehead. Grimmjow would never know.

The next morning her bed was empty as she looked around the house to find Grimmjow.

"I'm leaving to work." (Your Name) tells Grimmjow as he was punching the bags, back facing her. He didn't reply so she rolled her eyes and left.

Grimmjow that morning woke up feeling hot and sweaty, he knew his rut was here once his dick was squished between her ass while they cuddled. Not wanting to make a scene a Grimmjow thought blowing off some punches would distract his wants and needs but it didn't help as he cursed and went straight to his room.

He had laid in bed, his body flushed as he used his hands for relief. "Maybe I should have gotten them damn toys." he thinks as he grits his teeth to look at his leaking dick. Grimmjow whimpers because the feeling was not enough, living in a home had made him soft. He was losing his self restraint.

Grimmjow chases the thoughts of (Your Name) running her tongue from his shaft to his tip, eyes meeting his as she giggles and gives it a few kitten licks before hollowing her checks to suck him fully.

He thinks about eating her went cunt and ass from behind as she moans into the sheets gripping her cheeks to spread apart for him.

Grimmjow imagines her riding his dick, her eyes rolling as her tits gave him a show.

He curses as he chased his first release and growls because he was still painfully hard. Grimmjow needed to feel her wet cunt sucking him whole, needed to hear their skin slapping together and needed to bite her beautiful precious neck. Grimmjow needed to make her his.

He gets up to splash water on his face, those were horny thoughts. "I don't actually like her." Grimmjow tells himself but he cannot deny that (Your Name) has him wrapped around her little fingers. Grimmjow decides to lock his door all day before curling into bed to ride out the rut.

"I'm home!" (Your Name) yells a few hours after work as she carries in take out for dinner. "Grimmjow come eat dinner!"

The house was dark, nothing seemed out of place and there was no noise from any of the rooms. (Your Name) carries herself up the stairs to open Grimmjows door but its locked and she frowns. "Hey come eat." her voice gentle and soft.

(Your Name) didn't get any response for a few minutes before she heard rustling and whimpering. Her face redden as she remember that his rut was happening now. Without protesting she walks back downstairs to eat.

She was sadden Grimmjow was ignoring her but then she remembered he probably wasn't attracted to her and did not want her help. Her eyes downcast as she ate dinner alone, it was unusually quiet. The night was lonely without him.

She settled into bed leaving soft music playing hoping music may give him a sense of comfort.

Grimmjow hears (Your Name) when she gets home, when she calls out to him. He can hear her eat dinner alone as well as her sad sighs. He can hear the soft music coming from her room and her light snores.

(Your Name) was a nice caring women, cared to much about what other people thought. He did not want her help all the time, she was always caring his weight and slack. He could ride his rut out. At least that's what Grimmjow thought as he smelt her arousal.

"Baby really wants me bad." he grits as he made his way to her room. The door opened easily as he finds her asleep. (Your Name) arousal filled his nose as he moaned and made his way to her.

He finds one of her toys on the side of her bed as he ferally grinned, she was a naughty little thing pleasuring herself while he was on his rut.

Grimmjow dips onto the bed and licks her cheeks, licks her neck, licks her ears as (Your Name) groaned before slipping her hands into his hair.

"Grimmjow." She whispers as he hums in response to her voice as shivers went down his spine. "What are you doing?"

"Making you mine, I want you." He breathlessly confesses as his eyes dilated from the expression on her face.

"You want me?" she asks with excitement in her voice.

"If it wasn't obvious."

(Your Name) gives Grimmjow a bear huge as he groans from her body squished against his, the heat rushing down to his dick.

"Sorry.. let me help you."

Grimmjow is silent but can't help look at (Your Name) with genuine eyes, she was selflessly allowing him to destroy her. Not in the way of sleeping together but emotionally and physically. He was a hybrid and after bonding herself to him she would have to deal with him for the rest of their lives.

"No, I need to be sure you want this, you want me, you want the dirty stares, you want the second class treatment. You want my kittens. You want a world where I am even though the world won't treat us fairly."

(Your Name) gasps as she cups Grimmjows face, a smile is plastered on her face. "I want everything about you Grimmjow. I can't imagine my life alone again. Even if it means going against society."

Grimmjow was satisfied with her answer as he pressed his lips to hers. Her taste was so addicting as he groaned sucking her bottom lip cupping her breast.

"Please be gentle." she asks then as he gives her a dumbfounded look.

"No I'll let my dick rip you apart." he sarcastically replies throwing (Your Name) onto her back and she rolls her eyes. "There you are, was about to say you were breaking character for a moment."

"tch, I want to make sure you know that I'm staying her forever."

(Your Name) doesn't reply but gives him a kiss again.

Grimmjow discards their clothes as he settles between her legs lifting them slightly giving access to her dripping pussy. He presses his nose against it and sighs before giving her clits a long lick. Lapping up her juices Grimmjow grinds into the bed as she moaned grabbing his hair.

"Fuck this pussy doing me good." he says sucking on her clit lips before going back to devour her again. "is it that good?" she asks flushed from his compliment.

He hums and flips her to all fours spreading her cheeks. Her little puckering hole welcoming him as he moans before spitting on her ass. "Baby let me eat your ass." he asks and she whimpers a yes please. He grins as his tongue rimmed her ass and she gasps the feeling was foreign but felt good. Grimmjow uses one hand to massage her clit and the other to stick a finger into her puckering hole.

"Feel good baby."

"yes so good." she breathlessly says as he alternated between licking her clit and ass again.

Grimmjow slaps her ass before lifting her body up to his. "I need you now I can't wait." he pleads as she nods fisting his dick. As he entered her she squirmed because of his huge size.

"To big, hurts." she cries as grimmjow flips her onto her back giving her kitten kisses while pushing in more. "Grimmjow!" she whines as he shushes her again biting her shoulder. (Your Name) whimpers the whole time Grimmjow eases himself into her pussy.

"es okay baby, pussy sucking me good." he says as she nods with a whine. Grimmjow massages her clit as she groans in relief. His hands distracting her from his dick ripping her apart. Grimmjow bottoms out as he praises to her "doing good baby, taking me well."

Within a few minutes of (Your Name) adjusting to his size she moaning into his mouth as he pushes into her, rutting his hips into hers. He keeps a steady pace as Grimmjow watches her fucked out expression. "fuck." he groans taking one of her tits into her mouth as she gasps under him. He swirls his tongue around her nubs loving the thought she would produce milk one day.

He bites down as she cries out. "More." She demanded as Grimmjow smirked and pushed her into a mating position. His balls slapping her ass in a rhythm.

"I want to cum Grimmjow please, please." she begs as he bit into her neck giving them bruised marks.

"Kay baby let me help you."

They go into doggy style as he massages her clit and (Your Name) is squirming under his touch.

"I'm close." she whispers as Grimmjow slams into her pussy slowly but thoroughly letting his dick hit her g spot each time. "yes right there." she praises as her body starts to shake and his dick was sucked into her pussy even more.

She was a moaning mess under him as she hit her orgasm. Grimmjow kisses her back all the way to her ass before slamming into her roughly again to chase his.

He grits his teeth taking one finger into her ass as she cries into the sheets.

"Almost baby." he coos as she whimpers in response. After a few more thrust he spills into her and he bites down onto her shoulder.

Grimmjow pulls out and watched both their cum spill out of dripping cunt.

"I can go a few more rounds." He warns her as she agreed to help him more.

(Your Name) didn't go into work for a few days after, her body was sore and Grimmjow was surprising sweet to her the whole time his rut was happening.

After his rut was over he was different although still rough, easy to irritate but his snaps were just warnings and he doted onto her every chance he got.

"I wish we did this sooner." (Your Name) pouts as Grimmjow purrs into her neck while she watched the outside rain. The coziness of her home drawing them to a lazy comfort. There were candles lit as well as soft jazz music playing in the background.

"mmm." he responds giving her neck a few licks before cuddling back into her. "You're my women."

She chuckles lightly and gives Grimmjow a big hug.

"So it seems, I wouldn't want it any other way."

"Why didn't you tell me you were sick?" She read his message out loud. And then she scoffed and threw her phone on the other side of the bed to fall back asleep. Unbeknown to her Kensei would be knocking rage on her door early that morning.

"Get your ass up now (Your Name), I'm not playing." She heard his gruff voice coming south of her body as her feet were nudged lightly to get her attention. There was a whine that escaped her mouth as she rolled into the bed, her bare back and ass in full display as Kensei brow knitted in confusion as if he should look away or throw the covers on her. He choose to throw the covers on her.

"What do you want so early in the morning, meathead!" (Your Name) jerked forward from her sheets, exposing her breast and harden nipples from the cool air. Kensei looks away and she was hurt but decided to leave the bed and throw on a robe. "You never responded to my message." He replies giving her a proper look watching as she ignored his stares, not that they held any longing that she wanted from him anyways.

(Your name) walked through her bedroom down to the kitchen to start coffee as she ignored his statement. There was no way in hell she was gonna tell him about her illness, disease, problems.

The frustration grew on Kensei forehead as a vein popped out, he followed her to the kitchen as he slammed a fist onto her counter causing (Your Name) to flinch before turning his way again.  "It was a mild fever that's all." She lied and offered him the black coffee before taking a seat across his very angry face.

"You lie." He says but continued "don't hide things from me, I know it's serious if you haven't been to work for a week now." (Your Name) mentally rolled her eyes but at the same time those coughs were threatening to show itself to him as she held her breath to stop it from coming out.

"Why does it matter to you? I'm on medication. There are you happy?" The shaking in her voice threatening to show signs of weakness as she looked down in guilt.

Kensei was in disbelief, his life long friend was holding secrets from him and one that was very serious to her health. He wanted to be there for her, help her and make sure she was gonna be alright. The (Your Name) he was conversing with looked like a ghost in a shell, her body had become thin, and her reflection pale. Eyes were sulking as well as her attitude towards him was that of a child.

"Well I'm sorry if I wanted to worry about you. You're my friend." Kensei says to her, she did catch the hint of sadness and disappointment but pettiness took over her lips. "Stop worrying about me and worry about your fiancé Kensei, no good will happen if you worry about another women."

There was an awkward silence between them as (Your Name) looked towards the window and Kensei was looking down at his fist now. They both thought this was it, there was a certain boundary in their friendship and of course he was the one pushing it. To Kensei it seemed as (Your Name) never tried.

"I'll see you around." He says roughly and leaves. She looked at his back leaving and then threw her coffee mug against the wall. Tears were threaten to spill as she started to have a coughing fit. Without having any control of her body she fell to the floor in a hurling position covering her mouth that was dripping red of blood and of little peddles.

"When will this illness go away?" She asked Unohana as she went for a check up for her health and of course medicine to heal the pain in her throat. The older lady gave (Your Name) a sympathetic look, there was hesitation in the captains face before she chose her words wisely.

"Unfortunately the other few cases with this disease had left the patient to pass away, there is no time limit for the disease and it can consume you whole.... though I advise you if there is something or someone causing you to feel this immense pain... to let it go. Maybe then you will return back to normal." Unohana voice was gentle and soft, she look a bit sad to have to tell (Your Name) the tragedy of it all. The doctor knew best though, in all her lifetime no one has ever survived or at least none that Unohana knew of.

"I see, thank you." (Your Name) says in a ghostly manner as she left squad 4 feeling even more depressed than she was this past month. Life threw a curve ball and wanted her to suffer for it. On her walk back she bumped into someone causing a bag of groceries to fall onto the ground.

"Oh my (Your Name) I'm so sorry!"

It really was her unlucky day as she met eyes with Kensei finance, she was gorgeous, had a beautiful face and amazing figure. Her voice was the sound of silk and flowers. (Your Name) winced at the thought before squatting down to pick up the food that had fallen. "Please join us for dinner tonight, me and Kensei are grilling up some A5 wagyu!" She wanted to kill herself at that moment, Kensei fiancé bare no bad intentions towards her but (Your Name) couldn't help but hate everything about this women. "Im fine, thank you for the invite. Maybe next time."

Kensei fiancé insisted grabbing (Your Name) arm dragging her towards the 9th squad. "Please! Kensei has been worried sick for you and he misses you-"

Those words burned (Your Name) heart, she felt a red hot fury past into her as she snatch her arm back and yelled "Don't say those thi-" she stopped herself before correcting her tone of voice, her breath evening out. "I mean, don't say that! I can't ruin yours guys dinner date!" She says jokingly... right jokingly. Before Kensei fiancé could protest again (Your Name) bid a fast farewell and walked back to her squad quickly to avoid anymore attention they may had drawn. The house was cold again and she like the house feeling cold. Why bother turning on the heater. It was the beginning of winter but she felt as if it didn't matter. Nothing was going to cure her disease anyways. The buzzing of her phone caught her attention. Mashiro and Shuhei wanted her to join them for dinner.

(Your Name) didn't mind, they were a good distraction and good company. The trio met around 8 at a local bar that sold food and drinks. There was a few people playing instruments on the stage allowing for a upbeat atmosphere. "Beautiful as always." Shuhei compliments her as he held the door open for the two ladies. Mashiro snickered at the compliment before picking the seats for them. "Thank you sweet boy, you're still to young for me." (Your Name) says to Shuhei before winking.

They decided on getting ramen and pork sticks before picking up a few sake bottles and beers. It was one of those nights she guessed. Mashiro didn't seem like the one to drink and she knew how Shuhei was with alcohol. Maybe Kensei was in a bad mood causing the lieutenant's wanting a fun night out. "So when will you return to work?" Shuhei asks as he build them a sake bomb for the first round. "Probably soon, in a few more days. I'm enjoying vacation still."

"Vacation my ass, we rarely get work days off." Mashiro butts in as Shuhei elbowed her on the side. (Your Name) eyes widen at the statement before laughing, she didn't take any offense to the comment. Well she knew they probably guessed her and Kensei weren't on the best terms right now. "Awe is big ole daddy stressing you guys out?" she coes to Mashiro jokingly as the seat next to her gets occupid.

"Who are you calling big ole daddy?"

(Your Name) faced whipped to her left to find Kensei staring at her with amusement. She cleared her throat before throwing Shuhei and Mashiro a accusing look. The pair decided to help each other make the drinks avoiding her eyes. She couldn't be upset with them even if she wanted to. In her heart she knew they meant well.

"OH! So you guys are fighting." Mashiro continues to say, the girl had no filter with her mouth. The adults, Kensei and (Your Name) ignored her comment. It was going to be a rodeo tonight. It was either (Your Name) lashing out on Kensei or they would all enjoy the night. She preferred to enjoy the night. Shuhei passed all the drinks out as they all drank on the count of three. The atmosphere was nice mostly except Mashiro and Kensei bickering but that was usual between them. "Shuhei why don't you go up the stage and play the guitar!" (Your Name) says pointing towards the emptiness of other shinigami leaving it.

The younger man couldn't refuse, he wanted to show off his guitar skills to his captain and longest friend. As Shuhei went on stage to play some songs Mashiro danced along with (Your Name) as they laughed and held each other. Kensei couldn't help but have a soft smile on his face. She looked at ease, she looked happy and even a little more healthy. He thought she was getting better. A hand on her head stopped her from dancing as she looked up to Kensei and he used his head to show the direction of his request. The small bar across the room. Agreeing to his request they left Shuhei and Mashiro together.

"What's wrong?" (Your Name) asks with worry in her eyes. Kensei opens a stool for her to take a seat as he followed after. "I wanted alone time, those two knew we were fighting and set this whole dinner bar thing. I told them no but..."

(Your Name) gives him a sympathetic look and holds his hand lightly giving it a small squeeze of encouragement. "I could never stay mad at you for long Ken. We've been each other rocks for many years. A small petty fight won't change anything."

Kensei sighed in relief, maybe he didn't need his lieutenant's help but at the same time there were periods of time when he couldn't recognize the person (Your Name) had become. She would lash out on him or simply ignore him. He couldn't figure her out anymore and that frustrated him. Kensei didn't know how to tell her and he wasn't going to ruin her night. "Will you let me walk you home tonight, I don't want creeps lurking after you."

There was hesitation on her face when Kensei asked that request. She didn't want to be alone with him, no she couldn't be alone with him. "I'm okay, I can manage. Plus it's not like I'm all that attracting that someone would follow me." He knitted his brows in annoyance and held her hand tighter. "I insist a beautiful women shouldn't walk alone at night. Especially you." Kensei points out and he couldn't read what her thought were, but she silently agreed before making her way back to the stage to watch Shuhei.

The night came to an end with a very drunk Mashiro since she was with the drinks most the night and a tipsy (Your Name). Of course Shuhei knew it was his job to get the annoying girl home safe. He sighs as Mashiro complained on the way out. Shuhei gave Kensei a nod before the two left. The night was chilly as Kensei and (Your Name) left right after. He was bundled under a sweater and scarf, she was wearing a long dress. On the beginning of the walk he put his scarf on her. She blushed lightly but didn't show. Because of all the alcohol she coughed wanting to throw it all up, her body refused to hold it in as she used her hand to cover any evidence it might show.

"No no don't cough, kensei will lose his marbles and start questioning me."

The walk was silent and she looked towards his ring finger. Her heart was yearning, aching and numb. The thought that Kensei and his fiance would share forever with each other actually made her puke as she fell to the floor onto her knees and threw up. "(Your Name)!" He shouts as she pushed him away swallowing the remainder of it but it did her no good as there was a mixture of food, drinks and blood. "I'm fine." she states but Kensei refused to let her go and looks at her in worry. He knew something was up, drunk people don't throw up blood.

He shunpo them back to her place and took the spare keys out of his jacket. "I knew it jackass, you still have the keys to my place." She laughs now and of course it was the last remaining alcohol that was still in her system. "How can you laugh in this situation?" Kensei asks frustrated she didn't seem to care. (Your Name) gave a big sigh as she stripped out of the dress throwing it somewhere in the living room. After she opened the fridge, it was practically empty but she found what she was looking for. A new bottle of sake.

"Because why not?" There was a cold tone under her amusement as Kensei stalked towards her. His breath fanning her face as she scrunched her face and pushed him away. "Ugh you reek of alcohol."

"I don't care, explain to me what's going on." he persisted as she dropped down to the couch and took a swing of the sake. He could tell she wasn't going to give in the argument. Fine he would force it out of her. Taking a seat next to her he took the bottle and set it down. "You are killing yourself." he calmly states as she glares back at him with anger.

"What happens to my body is none of your concern Kensei, mind your own fucking business and let me deal with it alone." She was angry, he could tell. (Your Name) rarely cussed and when she did that means business was business. Kensei couldn't bear to see her destroy herself, he wanted to throw the table, fuck up the kitchen even fuck her silly to see she is loved by him. "Don't do this (Your Name) let me help you." he begged grabbing her waist to scoot her closer to him but she retaliated and threw his scarf towards his face.

"Don't touch me." she coldly says making her way towards the bedroom. Kensei followed worried she might harm her body from the drunkness that was now taking over her body. He slightly grabbed for the arm before she turned around and yelled. "Don't fucking touc-" the flowers were coming up her throat as she threw a coughing fit. Her body shaking and hurling. The pain to intense that tears fell from her eyes as she looked down to see her hands covered in red. She was frozen as Kensei princess carried her into the bath tub to bathe her body.

The thought of him seeing her in this situation made it worse as she broke down in a sob fighting him in the shower to leave her alone but he stayed silent and refused any of her request. Even when she screamed and threw things at him, Kensei let her throw a tantrum. He dressed her and gave her water, made sure she had no cuts or bruises before taking her into bed.

The last thing (Your Name) confessed to him that night was that the disease had no cure and she would die soon.

As she drifted asleep, Kensei arms wrapped around her body tightly making sure she wouldn't leave his grasp. He felt at odds with her confession earlier that evening. He had convinced himself that she was purely drunk and pulling an excuse out of her ass.

"(Your Name) please be joking." He begged to himself as he inhaled her scent from her shoulders to neck cuddling his head between them. Kensei was afraid to lose her, death was inevitable in their line of work but something about losing her drove him mad. He was wary. He knew he shouldn't be sleeping in another womens bed but it was not any random women. It was (Your Name)

(Your Name) was up before the sun had risen, her body was sore and she still felt woozy. With a sigh she tried to move from the bed but Kensei body was locked against hers. A warm flush brushed against her cheeks as she turned his direction and examined his face. His scowl was no longer there, his face was relaxed and his hair down. She smiled softly while brushing some of his hair away from his face. He twitched a little from the sensation but ultimately gave into her touch pulling her even closer.

"Kensei you have to get up." She whispers, and she felt guilt in her chest. This was wrong of them to do, but it didn't feel wrong. The feeling of his arms caged around her body and his natural scent drove her crazy, she couldn't think straight. This was all she ever wanted and it's now here in her arms. (Your Name) could be selfish, for once she could and she wouldn't regret it. If death was to take her soon then she wished to have him once.

Nuzzling her head against his chest gave her comfort as she drew little pictures around his abdomen, letting Kensei rest while she contemplated what to do now that her secret was out. (Your Name) was lost in thoughts when she felt callous hands engulf hers. She looked up to Kensei as he slowly open his eyes.

"How are you feeling?" His voice was gruff, it was low and it sent a shiver down her spine. She couldn't remember a time when they were this close.

"Fine." She softly says lifting her body away from him but he still had her caged. There was an awkward silence between them. "I want to apologize for last night." She continued relaxing into his touch once again.

"It's fine, just making sure you will be alright." Kensei says as (Your Name) winced at his statement, the aching in her chest and throat already beginning to arise as she gently pushed herself off him. Her sudden movement alerted Kensei as he pulled her back into him. "Let me help you." He begs laying his head on her shoulder, he would do anything to keep her alive. "Name it and I'll do it."

(Your Name) held herself, knees close to her chest as she kept her eyes close. She did enough crying, she was tired of crying. The sensual touches and pleading voice of his made it worse for her to compose herself. She just wanted him.

"I just want you." She whispers painfully as her voice cracks, she locked eyes with him. He couldn't read them clearly. They were a mix of pain, sadness and longing. A sense of guilt washed upon Kensei has he lifted her chin up. He knew his next actions would be unforgivable but he wanted her right now. She wanted him. The consequences would come after.

Slowly they inched their mouths to one another letting the kiss settle in as (Your Name) gasp but Kensei took that opportunity to move deeper into her sighing into her touch. His hands grabbed onto the plush of her waist as he caressed all the curves her body held. Her hands went straight to his hair begging for him to give her more. Their tongue entertained each other as she moaned into him. "Please more." She begged as he lifted her into his lap making his way to her neck sucking on her sweet spot as she moaned and rolled her hips against him. Kensei took turns on sucking and biting her sweet spot giving her a taste of estacy waiting to be released. His hands on her ass massaging them apart.

"Shit you're driving me crazy." He groans as she grind her hips more needy and whines wanting for him to bite her sweet spot again but Kensei refused and slid her shirt off massaging her perfect tits in his face and he moaned taking them into view. He imaged them full of milk and leaking as he took one into his hot mouth swirling the little buds. "Pretty little ladies waiting to be drank from baby." He groaned into her as she whined rubbing harder into his bulge wanting it deeper into her core. "Please kensei suck on them more." Her voice raspy as she looked down towards him watching Kensei smush her tits together swirling on her nipples on one go. (Your Name) didn't think that was possible but oh how she felt so wet right now watching Kensei suck on her pretty tits as he was a starved man.

Slapping her ass Kensei flipped her onto her stomach and probing her ass in full display. "You won't be needing these babe." He says while ripping her underwear in two pieces. She gasped as the cool air brushed against her most intimate area.

Kensei couldn't tell what brought this upon them but he was so painfully hard watching her slick pussy asking to be eaten out and oh he would, he would eat her out till she was crying and begging for him.

Anticipation ran through her body as she shook her ass swaying them as a invitation to him. Kensei grabbed each cheek and threw a spit on her clit before lapping her clit on his tongue. "Yes." She sighed "please."

His warm tongue played with her clit as he switched from sucking and swirling circles. Kensei couldn't get enough of her taste, her wetness melting into his mouth as he moaned into her pussy causing the vibration to shiver up to her burning core. "I'm going to do something so don't freak out." He states as she halted herself and stared back at him. He looked feral, he looked hungry. "Okay." She agrees and smiles softly.

Kensei kissed each side of her ass cheeks before spreading them apart and kissing her little hole. She jolted from surprise as he held onto her. " 'so kay baby, let me take care of you." He whispers as she relaxed her body and he slowly drew saliva onto her pretty little hole. Diving his tongue to rim her ass she moaned into the sheets. He smirked and continue to lick her ass while rubbing circles on her clit. "Oh Kensei." She whines as he hummed in response. "Feels good baby?"

"Yes feels so good." She says as he alternated between licking her clit all the way up to her ass. After making sure (Your Name) was wet enough he slipped two fingers into her cunt making her moan. "Oh fuck yes more." She plead as he pumped his fingers into her while eating her ass out.

"Didn't know you were so dirty." Kensei smirks as he slaps her cheeks once more before pumping his cock a few times.

"Of course you wouldn't." She says with sass and he tilts his head in confusion before giving her clit one last kiss. Kensei was painfully hard now that he just wanted to fuck her silly for all that mouth she was giving him. "Condom?" She asks and he shakes his head in delusion. No he wanted her now, needed her cunt squishing his dick like he needed air.

"It's fine Kensei I trust you." She says giving him a genuine smile of trust between the two.

He couldn't help but chuckle at her, of course she trusted him. They were life long friends after all.

"Hold still babe." He whispers as he inched himself into her and she moan softly into the sheets. He could get lost in her but Kensei wanted to make sure she was not in pain.

"More you dickhead!" She complained under him as he slammed his hips into hers and she groaned. He bullied his cock into her pussy until she was moaning so load the whole seireitei would wake up to it.

His grip on her hips bruised as her eyes rolled back and he took a fistful of her hair pulling her up to meet his rhythm. "Tell me you always wanted this? Tell me you always wanted me." His voice husk into her ears as she moved her hips more into him.

"Yes I've always wanted you." She cries out as he flips them over into a mating press. Her eyes are closed, she can feel him everywhere. She can feel his warmth, his breath, his dick abusing her insides. (Your Name) wants this to last forever.

Kensei gives her a sensual kiss onto her lips as his hips slow a little but still enough force to feel everything. She opens her eyes to meet his. Kensei eyes look sad, he looks torn. They meet foreheads as he groaned when her nails claw his back lightly. "Fuck, you drive me crazy." He says inching his face into her neck biting her sweet spot again before picking up the pace.

"Please don't stop." (Your Name) moans as he helped her ride through her orgasm before chasing his.

There body stilled for a moment before he lightly slumped down onto her, cuddling into her naked chest.

"I'm sorry, we shouldn't have done that." She quietly whispers trying to pry his body off hers. He grunts and lets her move.

"I don't regret it." He says watching her head to the bathroom.

(Your Name) could cry, of happy tears and sad ones. It was too late for him to make her his. He was too late to confess his love, his regrets, his decision to marry another woman. She throws him a rag before taking a shower.

While in the shower she scrubbed her body so hard her body turned red, she felt gross, she felt like a whore, an attention seeker. She cried and cried until the bathroom door swung open and Kensei rushed to her figure taking her hands away. "(Your Name)!" He shouts as she cried with her head hanging low.

"I can't do this no more Kensei, please leave me alone." She yells as he made room for himself taking her body into an embrace. She clung to him, clung onto him as if this was the last time she would be able to touch him.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." Kensei chants to her cuddling her body into his.

After a while she finally stopped crying and decided to get out the shower. Kensei was right next to her trailing before his phone rang and she tilted her head to see if he would answer. She knew it was his fiancé.

"It's okay, you should go now."

Kensei had a nagging feeling this was a goodbye like this was a make or break situation and he didn't know what to do. "I won't leave. Not until you tell me how to cure your disease."

Anger flared into her face as she slapped him in the face. "Stop shitting me right now Kensei! I told you already there is no cure! I'll die and you will live your happy little life with your fiance! That's how it was meant to be and how it's suppose to be!"

With her little tantrum she took his clothes and phone throwing them out her door for the whole seireitei to see if they walked by.

"Get the hell out, this is the last time you will see me." She threatens before slamming the door.

Kensei was stunned from her actions before he angrily left, he didn't go home. He went straight to the fourth squad.

"I'm here to see Unohana." He rudely says to a squad member before they ran with a tail between their legs to find Unohana Taicho.

"I wasn't expecting to see you Muguruma Taicho." She softly smiles leading him into her office. He was annoyed and angry but mostly towards the situation not because of (Your Name) temper tantrum.

"I know patients have rights to have their information kept secret but Im here to ask about (Your Name)." He explains to the older women and she already knew he would come once he found out of the disease.

"Must had a fun night." She muses staring at his love bite before he looked away in annoyance. "But yes, her records are private I can't give you that information."

Kensei cursed under his breath he didn't want to cause a scene in someone else's barrack and he had very little patience left in him. Unohana could see his exterior cracking as she sighs.

"Her disease is called Hanahaki, her lungs grow flowers until she can't breathe anymore. The cause is because of unrequited love Muguruma Taicho. Perhaps someone she loves dearly couldn't return the feelings. This disease is very rare and usually the patient is to loving to let go that they die from heartbreak." Unohana emphasizes to Kensei with a keen eye to make sure he understood what she meant.

There was no telling on Kensei expression as he nodded his head in regret trying to process the information that was straightforwardly thrown at him. "So there's no cure?" He asks swallowing but his throat was dry.

"Do you love her?"

"Yes!" He says quickly and defensively. Unohana could only chuckle as she walked away.

"Well there is your answer Muguruma Taicho, good day."

(Your Name) didn't hear from Kensei for the next month. She knew it was for the best. Walking back from the store she sees his fiancé. She groaned under her breath and hid her face to walk past but ultimately his fiancé saw her.

"(Your Name)! Long time no see!" She cheerfully says giving her a hug. (Your Name) hugs her back softly and cleared her throat. "Um how are you?" She asks Kensei fiancé trying her hardest to be nice but only guilt held her heart.

"You didn't hear? We aren't together no more." She whips her hand up to see her ring finger empty. Guilt was definitely eating her up right now as she had tears threatening to spill over.

Kensei ex fiancé now gave her a sympathetic look before taking (Your Name) hands in hers. "Don't feel guilty about anything. I know what happened that night. I've always known.... I was second in his heart. There were times when I hated you. I really did for a time but I couldn't hate you. You've always made him special. He left me the day after. (Your Name) be happy." She softly says before taking her leave but she must have also been heart broken too (Your Name) thought staring back at the beautiful lady who held her head high and walked with grace. She indeed was a strong lady and (Your Name) felt envy because she was also a good woman.

Walking home with empty thoughts in her head she didn't notice her lights on. Her head still hanging low. She couldn't process if she was happy or sad. The lady, Kensei ex fiancé forgave her and even wanted her to be with him.

"Took you long enough to get home." Kensei gruff voice awoken her senses as she closed her door softly.

"Hey." She says softly setting her bag down making her way to the kitchen where he had food laid out.

"I-" he starts to say but stops midway. He didn't see her for a month, the longest ever since they became friends long ago.

"I saw her, your ex. I'm sorry." (Your Name) starts but Kensei could only give her a hum while plating her dinner. "Did you love her?"

There was silence in the room as he thought if he loved her. He thought he did or until he was threaten you would leave him forever. "I did for a time, thought you never liked me so I moved on. I realized I couldn't love her wholeheartedly though but I still stuck around. It wasn't until I heard you were dying that I messed up, I was too late. If I can fix us now I will (Your Name)." Kensei say's uncharacteristically to her without much of an expression of discomfort but that of regrets and longing.

(Your Name) could only giggle softly at his face. Those expressions were not made for him. "Yeah I guess so." She says taking his hand into hers. "But there's still a lot of healing to do." She continued as he held her hand back with more pressure.

"I'll do anything, I'll make you the happiest and make up for loss time." Kensei confesses as he left small peppered kisses on her knuckles.

"Stop, I love you for you. We've had miscommunication before but now that we are here together, you don't have to change a thing. I want you for you."

Kensei could only pull her into a hug sighing with relief that he had his (Your name) back. How he wished he confessed to her in his younger days. "I love you." He says as she smiles into his hug.

Her home felt like home again.

"Hey beautiful! It's been a few weeks missed me." A drunken man loudly says as he leaned across the bar trying to gain (Your Name) attention as she awkwardly chuckled and kindly answered him back.

Shinji was thrown off by the tone of voice but chose to ignore the rude man's voice level and look ahead to the stage.

"If you worked at a club bar you would make nice tips because you know." The rude man says and gesture his hands across his chest, implying she should show more skin in her work outfit.

"No thank you. I make a good amount here. I am quite happy." (Your Name) says and walks to the next customer to greet them.

The rude man slightly got irritated and let it go for now. It wasn't until thirty minutes later he walked around the bar to gain (Your Name) attention again.

"Hey women, I've been waiting patiently for my next drink!" He slammed the glass down as she mentally rolled her eyes and looked across the room to see her manger giving her the death glare.

'Of course, customers first.'

"I like feisty women, I can tell you have it in you somewhere ." The man smirked while grazing his hand to touch hers as she set the drink down. She pulled her hand away quickly and grabbed a towel to wipe her hands.

"Could you stop, you've been flirting with me for lord knows how long. Cant you take a hint I'm not interested." (Your Name) says as one of her co workers heard and decided to take over as she walked away grossed out.

"I don't want you! I want that lady!" The rude man says getting angry (Your Name) walked away towards Shinji who happen to witness everything. Although she didn't ask for the blonde man's help he could read from her body language she was trying to hold her anger in as she started to dry glasses to distract her thoughts.

"You okay doll?" Shinji asked sympathetically as she turned to him with a small smile and nodded. He could tell she was use to these type of customers. It was bound to happen from time to time. Some people just couldn't hold their liquor or tongue.

"Here, on the house." She sets Shinji a dark drink as he tilted his head. "I haven't seen you in a while that's all." She implied as he was confused.

Shinji took a whiff and boy he was right, it was some good aged whiskey. He wasn't gonna complain though, it was good to get spoiled by a pretty lady here and there. While sipping on the drink he could see the rude man from a while ago coming towards them.

He could hear (Your Name) whisper 'stupid fucker can't take a damn hit.' While her back was turned to ignore the man.

Shinji was feeling a bit mischievous as he grinned under his glass.

"Oi women!" The rude man called.

Shinji swung his hat on his pointer finger while leaning on his elbow and turning to the man.

"The little lady as given you multiple hints through out the night that she wasn't interested. Seems as if you didn't live up to her expectation, I say to take a walk." Shinji then starts to say as the man began to get flushed before getting angry and getting uncomfortably close to the viszored face.

"What you say punk?" He threaten to Shinji as his grin turned to a bored one as he side eyed while watching (Your Name) talk to a different customer, unaware of the situation happening.

"I'm saying, she can do better and clearly she knows her worth now scram before I make you uncomfortable like you made the pretty lady." Shinji threaten looking back to his glass and taking another sip.

The glass had broke, of course he let it happen. Humans and their pettiness Shinji thought while catching a strong grip on the man's wrist before slammed his head on the bar counter.

(Your Name) gasped and saw Shinji with a frown looking down to the man who was causing a scene.

"Wanna go ahead and try to swing again? I can make it twice as hard this time." Shinji encouraged as the bouncers came to break up the scene and ultimately kicking him out. (Your Name) was shock as she ran out towards the bouncers.

"Wait! It wasn't this man!" She told the bouncers as they apologetically told her both men were to be kicked out, but she understood her coworkers were just doing there jobs.

Leaving her shift she went to find Shinji, he was leaning against a light pole.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen." (Your Name) says feeling ashamed she couldn't handle the rude customer herself....again.

Shinji turns his head and gives her a light smile.

"No worries doll, I'll always defend you. I scared him away, let me walk you home just in case he's a crazy nut job." He offered as she agreed without hesitation. Shinji had never given her a reason to feel suspicious. In fact he's been so kind and brought her dinner on occasion when the night was busy and she hadn't eaten dinner. (Your Name) would pin them as close friends but still he was a mystery to her.

"I might get fired but that's okay, if management can't see that a customer is wrong then I should find a new job." She says to Shinji as he looked down to her with sympathy. He knew how hard it was to find a decent job that paid well.

Of course, after getting exiled from soul society him and the other vizsored needed to find income from somewhere.

He was thinking maybe he could ask that pervert hats and clocks man to let her work at the shop, just so he can be sure she will be safe once he left.

"Don't worry though! I'll be okay." (Your Name) tells Shinji with a smile seeing that the man had gotten fairly quiet.

"Um, will I still be able to see you though? You know since I might get fired." She brought up shyly as he grinned at her and threw a arm around her shoulder.

"Awe my little doll is starting to warm up to me, I knew you would miss this pretty face." He teases as she hid her face from him.

"Shinji I'm serious! Stop making everything a joke" (Your Name) pouted and kept walking.

"I'll be a little busy but I gave you my number, I don't know why you hesitate to text me." He groaned as she laughs a bit.

"I guess I'm a bit shy." She admitted as he patted her head.

The walk was fairly short as Shinji made sure she was at arms length through out the walk just in case. He didn't want to part yet but it was late and everything was about closed. He would not invite her to his home.... No warehouse....where he lived with other stupid Shinigamis as he likes to say.

"You'll be safe?" There was concern in his voice and he admit as much as he wanted to hide it she could hear him clearly.

(Your Name) chuckled at him and gave him a soft hug which surprised the older man but he gave into the embrace.

"I'll be fine, text you later?" She tells him and enters her home.

It was about a month and a few days prior of getting fired from the bar Shinji had texted her a good friend of his owned a candy shopped and needed a worker. Although it wasn't appealing at first she came to like the job.

Her boss urahara was a strange man but she sense the same vibes Shinji gave off and she felt safe around the store. No more perverted men....oh well...maybe her boss but it wasn't to a disgusting point.

Although she hadn't seen Shinji since that day and everyday ever since.

"You said you and Shinji were close friends?" She asks Urahara one day as she grabbed a few of the boxes that needed to be restocked.

"Hmmm I wouldn't say close, more like old co workers!" He cheered and sipped his tea amused of her struggle to carry the boxes.

"Jesus! You gonna help me carry these! I can see it's funny to you!" She snapped as the shop owner laughed and offered a hand.

"Shinji is busy with work, with time you will understand." Urahara tells her as she tilted her head confused.

'Maybe he doesn't wanna see me anymore?' (Your Name) would think everyday until it turn to every few days and to months.

Although during those months she found happiness in this little shop. Maybe even a family with the kids and her boss and his other worker tessai. She would be grateful to Shinji for showing her such a welcoming environment.

Even when she was struggling with living or even personal problems, Urahara was there to guide her back to reality and reminded her that Shinji would come back.

"I'm not in love with him you know." She tells the boss as he chuckled and waved his fan. Not believing a word she was saying.

"Oh of course. I can see the sad smile is for me not giving you affection." He jokes as she threw the box stuffing at him and looked away. 'Ugh men'

"Whatever!" She flushes and walked towards the front of the store to start closing duties.

A gust of wind make the door rumbled a bit as she grabbed a broom and rolled her eyes, damn the weather. She just wanted to lay in bed after a hard day of her boss yapping her ear off.

"Stores closed, come back tomorrow!" She yelled.

"Oh baby doll, I didn't think our reunion would be this sour!" Shinji grinned as she widen her eyes and then softly smiled.

"Oh Shinji. COME HERE YOU BASTARD!" (Your Name) yelled chasing him with the broom stick to smack him in the ass for leaving her alone all these months. "IMA KILL YOU, YOU JERK! YOU LEFT ME FOR SO MANY MONTHS WITH THAT PERVERT BOSS!"

"Hey hey, if he's a pervert then what am I?"

"A stupid man! A selfish one!" She screamed as he caught her broom and engulfed her into a loving hug.

"I'm sorry love, I had work. I'm sure over time you figured out where I was." He tenderly says as she looked down. Of course she caught on, the hints that Urahara gave her and the strange people that came into his store frequently.

"Yeah I know. Why didn't you tell me!"

Shinji laughs and patted her head.

"Of course I didn't want you to think I was a freak! You had enough of those at your old job." Shinji explains as she walked towards the register and took a seat.

"I've miss you, how are you going to fix that mister?"

"Oohhh I took a special request off work for a few days, so I have something in mind." The older man winked as she began to grow flushed.

Hearing snickering from the back she threw the broom at the door. "STOP LISTENING PERVERT BOSS!"

Shinji and her chuckled at each other, her personality really was a feisty one sometimes.

"I'll explain in details later how we can communicate, on the mean time. I say we boggie out here and let Urahara do the rest!"

"Oh I'm so sorry!" (Your Name) gasped as she looked down in embarrassment.

Shuhei chose to ignore her voice as he informed his Captain about the whereabouts of some new recruits he settled in.

"That's great, thank you for the hard work. You want some kid?" Kensei asks picking up an extra bento (Your Name) had brought. It was slightly decorated childishly but was stuff with protein and veggies, it was made with craft and love.

"I'll pass." And with that Shuhei bowed before walking out.

(Your Name) looked down sadly as she remembered the good times they shared together. He became so cold to her, sometime acting as if she never existing in the first place. She knitted her brows in frustration as the room became quiet.

She couldn't remember when it all started but as time flew he disassociated himself completely from her.

"Are y'all fighting or something?" Kensei asks noticing his girlfriend had became really quiet after seeing the dark haired lieutenant. She shook her head and gave him a sad smile.

"See you at home."

Watching his girlfriend leave the room a little less happy he raised an eyebrow. The two children he had came to know acted as if they never knew each other.

"Shuhei!" She called out happily as she ran after the taller man who happen to be taking a nap out in the sun. He groaned from grogginess and lifted his head to see (Your Name) running in his direction.

He smiled softly to her and extended his hand out as she took it softly in hers.

"What's going on?" Shuhei asks in heavy concern not noticing her face was smiling from ear to ear.

"I'm going on a date!"

His smile fell a little, but he couldn't understand why she was so happy. 'So she was going on a date? So what.'

"With who?" His voice becoming a little possessive as (Your Name) tilted her head in confusion with his tone of voice. "I mean with who?! I'm sure you will have fun." He try to play it off as she started to smile again.

"Secret. I'll tell you who if we ever get serious."

Shuhei walks back into his room, the place was a bit messy. It was hard to get out of bed these days. There was trash in a corner and his clothes thrown into a pile across the room. His fridge was empty as he sighed in defeat. He wish only a little to take that extra bento. Removing his top for some extra air he sat on his bed with his head down.

"Shuhei?" (Your Name) voice called out as she softly knocked on his door. He stayed silent watching her figure stand in front of his place. The man contemplating on wether he wanted to talk to her or ignore her. She called his name out again before he sighed and open the door.

"What is it?" He asks roughly as her eyes widen and she walked into the small place.

"Since when did you ever get this messy?" She huffs and helped pick the trash up before opening his fridge and seeing it was empty. "I brought you food, you've been working really hard. Have you been taking care of yourself?" The concern in her voice was irritated Shuhei by the minute but he was a grown man and didn't want to lash out if it was unnecessary.

"(Your Name) you didn't answer my question." He says as she bit her lip and took a seat next to him. A little fluster he didn't have a shirt on she looked the other way.

"Since when did we act like stranger together." (Your Name) started as she played with her fingers and whispered she missed when they were close.

"Boys and girls can't be just friends." He tells her before opening the made bento she brought.

"What are you implying?" She asks a bit offended he didn't care about her feeling anymore. The Shuhei she knew was lost, she was talking to a stranger.

"(Your Name) you aren't a stupid women, how can I associate myself with you. How can you think I can be okay with you with another man. And he's not some random man. A man I call captain and respect heavily. How can you be so dense to my feelings towards you all these years." Shuhei asks painfully with a little bit of heat radiantly coming off his voice.

There was a thick silence in the air as (Your Name) found sitting there suffocating. She never knew of his feelings. 'Was I the only one who thought our closeness was because we were close friends? But he never told me he wanted me.'

"I didn't know you felt that way Shuhei." She quietly says and touched his face. There was a bit of tears forming as she felt ashamed of herself. Her close friend she loved was hurting and she continued to be happy without him.

Removing her hand he looked down, maybe he shouldn't have used to much force but she jumped from the roughness he had used on her.

"Shuhei!" (Your Name) shouts at him as he kept his gaze away from her. Shuhei knew what he was doing would only hurt them both but he didn't want to be friends. He only wanted more and if he couldn't have that then he didn't want to see her anymore.

"You should leave, I'm a man (Your Name) I don't want to keep hurting you and do something I'm going to hate myself for."

(Your Name) couldn't believe that words that were coming out his mouth. She held back what she wanted to say before leaving the man to himself.

Shuhei smiled with passion as he held a container of soup in his hands. 'This will make (Your Name) feel better!'

Knocking on her door he heard small shuffling as she peeped her head out. A feverish smile came as she let him in.

"Who told you I was sick?" She asks guiding him to the kitchen as he helped her sit.

"You weren't at work today, I knew something was up when Taicho said you weren't feeling well, I made you soup."

They ate together and talked for a few hours but it was mostly Shuhei as she listened to him. (Your Name) coughed here and there as he helped her with water and even brewed her tea.

"You didn't have to come, I'm sure you are busy."

"Of course not! I just hope you will feel better."

There was a comforting silence before she looked up to him "thank you for being a good friend." His smile fallens a little as he heard friend from her mouth.

"Of course (Your Name) should I put you to bed it's getting late."

She shook her head and insist she wasn't sleepy. He nodded his head till he heard a loud noise from her living room.

"Babe im home!" Kensei calls as he walked into the kitchen and cursed a bit. "Shit I blew our cover, oh well it's just shuhei he won't say nothing." The older man pats his lieutenant back and kissed the top of (Your Name) head.

Shuhei was shocked, he didn't know (Your Name) man she would talk about was his own captain. He was quiet but suddenly laughed, not at them but at himself. How could he be such a clown. He was to late. Kensei was a great man and what was he? A cry baby child who couldn't even tell the girl he liked he wanted her.

"It's getting late. I should head home." Shuhei then says wanting to leave the house before he could break his cover.

"You sure kid? I'm sure (Your Name) would enjoy your company more." Kensei asks as he set dinner down for himself.

"Yeah, plus I don't want to invade in your private life Captain."

The older man and (Your Name) only chuckled.

"Of course you aren't, I'm sorry you had to find out this way but we wanted to wait a little longer before telling the squad. I know you are mature enough to hold it in."

Shuhei could only chuckle back awkwardly as he bowed and made his way to the door.

(Your Name) called his name as she followed his steps to the door, she looked so cute wrapped in the huge blanket. Giving the dark hair man a hug she smiled and said "thanks for taking care of me and keeping me company."

Shuhei could feel his heart clenching as he rubbed her back.

"Good night (Your Name)."

There was muffled cry's as she laid in bed and hugged herself, she was such a fool. (Your Name) should have seen the signs. Of course he liked her. 'I'm such a horrible person.'

Although she felt conflicted and lost she didn't know what to do. Do they ignore each other now? Would they ever be friends again?

"I'm home babe!" Kensei yells from outside their room as she wiped her tears and sat up from bed.

"Damn it's dark in here. You eat dinner yet?" He still calls from the kitchen as she fixed her hair a little and walked out.

She couldn't tell Kensei, not after everything she heard. It would only make matters worse.

"Babe, what's wrong?" The older Shinigami says and walked towards her as he pulls her to warm and engulfing hug.

She couldn't form any words and she cried in Kensei shoulder. Shuhei had hurt her but she knew the pain wasn't as bad as the man who loved her.

"I'm sorry, my cycle has been killing me." (Your Name) lied as Kensei rubbed her lower back and helped seat her on the chair.

"I'll prepare you a hot bath and towel." He offered as he left the room and she wiped more tears out her face.

(Your Name) could only pray that Shuhei would find someone that could reciprocate the same feelings he bore to her. Accepting that their friendship had officially came to a end she held her heart for a bit before making her way to the bathroom.

The following months had past really fast for Shuhei, his strange cold behavior towards (Your Name) had mellowed out but he still refuse to acknowledge her sometimes. His captain had brought it up a few times asking if they were okay but Shuhei just told him that sometimes friends grow apart and it wasn't anything serious.

Although he knew Kensei had his suspicions their conversation would end there and a new topic would be brought up.

He was learning slowly to accept the fact that not everyone gets a happy ending and he was just one of the lucky ones.

Not a day goes by where he thought about (Your Name). Secretly he wished her happiness and her well-being to be healthy and productive.

Although he knew the good old days of them lounging in the sun and talking for endless of hours were at a end. He was accepting his heart break and learning how to mend the wounds that were still open.

He knew not seeing her was for the best and he was thankful that (Your Name) did exactly that and manage to avoid seeing him. He was a selfish man it seems when it came to love and he knew it. But one could only do what's best for themselves and Shuhei was doing just that.

The other Shinigami around bowed with respect and didn't utter a word about (Your Name) anymore as she pulled her sleeve down by routine.

Kyoraku noticed but chose not to say anything as he grins at her and walks off.

Sitting in her room she felt empty as she stared at the empty wall "what's wrong with me? Why aren't I enough?" She thought staring at the blade across the room, her lungs were getting heavy and she hugged her arms for comfort.

"Don't do it, don't do it."

Sighing she picked up the metal and cried, would the pain make her feel better again.

The cherry liquid spilled as she let it drip down her arm as she slept with haunting thoughts.

"(Your Name) is she late again?" Nanao asked the other members as they had a mandatory practice session.

Most of them rolled their eyes and snickered, most believed there was favoritism because she was the grand daughter of the head captain, it was also why she was strongly disliked by lots of the members.

"I'm sorry! I'm here!" She yelled as Nanao sighed and let her join the line.

"Pair in groups of two, we will be doing self defense today."

As everyone scrambled to find a partner, everyone she asked either pushed her aside or already had a partner. Sadly looking around she was randomly placed with a fellow member.

"Don't think you're gonna get it easy." He threaten her as she bit her lip from lashing out on him.

"I'm strong, I'll be fine."

With a few kicks in and punches he was knocked out in no time, but that didn't leave the Shinigami on the floor quit as he threw dirt into (Your Name) eyes and wrestled her to the ground.

"Tch, don't get all high and mighty because you won, you're still weak for what reputation you got going up."

Clenching her fist she bit her words back because she always thought about what grandpa would do, he wouldn't let trash get into her brain.

Yet it did, although she never physically fought anyone back she hurt herself, constantly. Weather it was mentally believing she wasn't good enough and physically with a blade.

"I'm not crazy, we are Shinigami, a small cut is nothing." She convinced herself everytime. Getting off the floor she left him no mind as Nanao could see that (Your Name) was stuck in her thoughts again and gripping her arm like gorilla glue.

(Your Name) was to consumed into her thoughts that she didn't see that Kyoraku had saw the whole scene.

"(Your Name)~" he cheers as she walked past him without a thought in the world still consumed in her head. Grabbing her shoulder lightly she jerked and met the eye of her captain.

"Taicho?"

"Let's walk together." He suggested as she averted her eyes, her captain was such a patient and handsome man, she almost felt guilty that she couldn't go to him.

"I don't think the other members would like that." She says looking back to see some of them with distaste written on their face.

He glides his hand down her back and pushes her forward as they walked side by side.

"Anything you need off your mind?" He genuinely asks with care in his eyes as she averted hers.

"I'm okay taicho, just haven't gotten enough sleep."

"Huhhh looks like my little flower doesn't want to tell me the truth." He overly exaggerates and falls to the floor.

"His little flower? Taicho!?!"

She laughs a little as he chuckles and linked his arm with hers, he definitely knew something was up once she stiffen from his touch.

"I know people talk about you. And I know what you've been doing." Kyoraku seriously tells her as she looks down in shame.

"So what?" She whispers as his eye widen in shock from her change in behavior. "You never did anything to stop it. Why should you care now? Because my grandpa taught you? Because he was your sensei?!" She yelled at him.

Out of anger, she felt selfish for being upset but all along her captain knew and he knew she needed help.

"(Your Name)." He says as she ran away, angry and embarrassed that she yelled at her Captain. He wanted to help, he was going to and she had to ruin it like everything else in her life.

"Ahhh!" She yelled breaking her room apart, she hated it here. Everyone was the same even if they were dead or alive. The stigma behind mental health was complicated. Most people would just tell her to grow up and words don't hurt but words hurt.

Hearing she was the failure of the clan and she wasn't good enough for anything drove her to madness as she cried out and pulled her hair as she fell to the ground.

"I really am the worst." (Your Name) says as tears slipped on the floor.

"I don't want to be here anymore. I just can't."

Staring at her katana, would her zanpakuto forgive her for committing such a sin? She wondered as she blankly stared at it.

Grabbing her katana she left to the hill.

Kyoraku was upset, he had no right to confront her but he understood why she was upset at him. He knew everything and never once stepped in or checked up on her. Of course he tried to in subtle ways but she was to much in her head to notice.

He felt guilty as he looked out into the sky getting a bad feeling in his stomach.

Deciding to check on her, he found her room empty as he panicked.

"Nanao Chan, have you seen (Your Name)?!"

"I saw her leave towards the mountain, she told me she was going to train."

"No no."

Kyoraku rushed to the country side hoping he would make it on time, there was no way he would forgive himself if she really did disappear.

Then he would be just as bad as everyone else.

"(Your Name)?!" He yelled finding her by the edge sitting on the floor looking at the whole seireitei.

"It's beautiful isn't it?" She whispers to him sadly watching the night life of the Shinigami and people of Rugongai.

"Come here little flower." He ordered as she turned back to her captain.

"I don't think that will be necessary, I'll already made up my mind."

His lungs hitched as he saw her sword pierced through her body, how could he not see.

"(Your Name)!" Kyoraku yelled as he grabbed her body, looking at the damage he sighed in relief because it wasn't deep. With years of experience and knowledge he knew if he rushed her to the 4th squad she would be okay.

"Stop!" She yelled holding onto her katana.

"(Your Name)." Kyoraku says in pain as he saw the pain she carried in her eyes.

"Why didn't you come sooner?" (Your Name) cried into his arms, upset at herself again that she once again took the easy way out. "I'm such a disappointment."

"You are not a disappointment, I chose you in my Squad because I see potential in you. Everyone has their time. The head captain is proud to have you as his grand daughter. Now don't make it anymore painful than it should. Let me take care of you."

(Your Name) wanted to laugh at how ridiculous she was, she really was the worst.

"I can't promise I'll be better if I go back."

Kyoraku felt heavy as he knew not all wounds fully heal. For her she was so young and that bright future she dream of was slowly crushing away from the toxicity of peoples words and action.

"My flower, forgive me."

There was a moment of silence between them as she sighed and pulled the katana out. Kyoraku watched (Your Name) as she hooked her arms around his shoulders.

"I'm sorry." (Your Name) cried as she held him tightly and feared that she made a mistake. "It hurts."

"I know, but please let me take care of you. You always have me to fall back too." Kyoraku encouraged as he lifted her body heading back to the 4th barracks.

Reality hit Ichigo once again as he turned to his child and painfully gave a crooked smile. "Mommy still needs to rest, I'm sending you to grandpas tonight."

The night was restless for Ichigo as he broke down to his father that everything he built with (Your Name) would have been for nothing. The happy and painful memories of them would have been for naught. The adventure they shared would have been for nothing to see how much they have grown side my side.

He put Kazui into his old room and made his way back to the hospital after, Ichigo wanted to be the first person she saw when she woke up tomorrow morning. Even if she didn't recognize him as her husband. Staring at his wedding band and ring he took them off and carefully placed it in the cars hidden compartment.

(Your Name) eyes slowly opened as the sun beamed into the hospital room, her body was sore but the pain in her head had subsided a bit. The room was freezing as she moved into the covers more. Turning her head she could see Ichigo sleeping on the chair uncomfortably.

Confused and worried she sat up and walked to give him a pillow from her bed.

The familiar touch of his wife had woken Ichigo up as he grabbed her wrist and looked up to her with painful eyes, she seemed confused and she looked tired. "(Your Name) you shouldn't be out of bed." He scowls her as she tried to talk but he guided her back into her spot in bed.

"I'm sorry Ichigo I thought you were uncomfortable. Thank you for visiting me."

Those words alone made his face twist in agony. "Of course, I will always be here for you dummy."

After laying her down he scooted his chair closers to her as she observed his body language. Ichigo looked stress, unhappy and exhausted. He also looked older and more built in muscle. The boyish features were gone.

"Shouldn't you be in school right now?"

He swallowed his breath and got out of chair to get the doctors to inform them (Your Name) was awake.

They slowly explained to her the situation and how she got there. "A few nights ago we were hit with a strong storm and a car driving to fast hit yours and your head was hit pretty hard, you have been asleep for the past few days. We want to diagnose you with amnesia but yesterday you seemed distressed so we wanted to wait till you calmed down a bit more. From what we collected you can't remember anything after reaching adulthood."

Ichigo sat by her the whole time listening to the doctors but also staring at (Your Name) to see any reaction but there was none. Of course because she couldn't remember anything.

"I see. How old am I then?"

"29." Ichigo answered her as she turned to him and gasped, she couldn't believe she can't remember anything.

The doctor had informed Ichigo once she was out of the hospital to take her home and be patient with her, let her do anything she wanted but slowly bring back the routine they shared together.

The next few days for Kazui were hell to the little boy, he just knew his mom was in an accident and that she was coming home tonight. Isshin had him dropped off after they left the hospital.

"This is home." Ichigo tells (Your Name) with a smile as she gets out the car but not without his assistance. "I'm okay now." She assured Ichigo but he refused to let her walk alone without him by her side.

The place felt homey, it was small but it wasn't bad. There were toys all over the floor and picture frames on the wall.

"Are we married Ichigo?" She awkwardly asks him as he helped take off her shoes and he bit his lip, of course there was no hiding their relationship.

"Yes but don't feel as if you need to act or remember anything." He assured her but she could tell it was painful to watch her not know anything. Looking at all the cars and dinosaurs in the room she could sense they have a baby boy together.

"Take a look around." Ichigo tells her with a smile as he checks the notification on his phone. Kazui had just arrived but he wanted to speak to the boy first before seeing his mother. "I'll be back." He told (Your Name) and left the house.

She walked around the house slowly and took in everything, it wasn't messy but definitely not clean but she guessed it's because the situation of her in the hospital had left no time to worry about cleaning. The pictures on the wall were surprisingly to her, her memories from High School didn't help except she had a small crush on Ichigo at the time but she didn't expect them to be married or have a kid together.

"Kazui." Ichigo starts by sitting him outside the door, the boy looked so happy eagerly wanting to see mom. Ichigo was angry at the driver who caused her memory loss. It messed up his happy little family, how do you even tell your child their own mother won't recognize him. "Baby." He starts again as Kazui frown seeing that his father wasn't happy.

"What's wrong daddy?"

"Mommy isn't feeling well right now, I need you to be really patient right now. She is having some trouble with her memory." Ichigo tried to explain as easily as he could without telling his son that she actually doesn't remember anything.

"What does that mean daddy?" Kazui starts to frown as Ichigo pulls him into a hug and sadly smiles to his son. "That means if mommy ask who you are just tell her your name and help her with any other questions she has."

Kazui couldn't really understand what was going on but he had never seen his father so distressed before as he only nodded with a frown. "Okay, can I see mommy now?"

"Of course."

They walked into the front door and into the hallway making it into the living room, she was picking up the little toys and placing them in a basket.

"Mommy!" Kazui screamed and ran into her legs as she slowly lost her balance. Her eyes widen as she looked down to him.

"Hi." She greets as Ichigo watched from afar. Kazui smile was from ear to ear as it had not hit the little boy yet until she asks the question his father had warned him about. "What's your name sweetie?"

Kazui smile wavered a bit remembering the conversation moments ago. "Kurosaki Kazui, mommy." He quietly says and starts to tear up.

(Your Name) frown and suddenly felt sorry for the child hugging her, her child. The one she couldn't remember. It felt slightly off being called mom when she only had the memories of her teenage years.

"Kazui, such a strong name." She cheered on and picked up the child. "I like it."

"Well you and dad choose it." He states as Ichigo sighs and her smile fell.

"Okay kiddo, why don't we help clean." Ichigo orders to ease the tension out the room. (Your Name) sets Kazui down as she excused herself to the bathroom.

"Kazui, It's hard on mommy right now, try not say to much."

The little boy only nodded as he felt bad for making his father and mother feel awkward between each other. Ichigo could hear silent cries in the bathroom but chose to leave her in her own space. She probably needed it after taking in so much.

That night Ichigo tried to assure her if sleeping together was weird he could sleep in the guess room but she was determined to remember anything she could. The doctor did tell her routine is usually something that helps gain memories back. "Does Kazui not sleep with us?" She asks him as Ichigo settled down in bed next to her but put a space between them. "Sometimes, it depends how he feels a night. He usually crawls in here in the middle of the night."

She nodded and laid down, it was slightly awkward to her. She knew Ichigo in high school but they were just friends. Good friends not even close friends so she didn't know what to say to him.

"How did we end up together?" She asks him as he turned to his side and looked at (Your Name) with sadness.

"We got really close in college because we shared a lot of basic classes together, we only knew each other so we naturally were drawn to each other. We had kazui at 24 and we married at 21."

"Oo I see."

The rest of the night was restless for her, she couldn't sleep. Occasionally Ichigo sleeping form would hit her but he pulled back if he felt himself touching her skin. It was as if his body knew not to make her uncomfortable until she was ready to try again.

The door open as she closed her eyes and she felt a tiny body crawl between her and Ichigo, the litto boy was sneaking into their room to sleep with them. She smiled because of how cute it was.

His tiny arms wrapped around her waist and she was content with it, it made her warm. Kazui sleepy form was not content as he reached for his daddy arms to make sure it was wrapped around the both of them. (Your Name) stiffen, it was nice to be hugged like this but she knew this was probably normal for Ichigo and Kazui but for her it was as if it was the first time again.

Slowly the warmth of her baby boy and husband drifted her to sleep.

The next morning Ichigo woke up earlier than usual to see Kazui under (Your Name) as they were both in a deep sleep to even feel he had gotten out of bed. The older man felt so happy to see his little family again but he knew even if it looked like it everything else was different.

Shifting her eyes she saw Ichigo looking down at them with love.

"Hi." She greeted him as he blushed madly knowing he got caught staring at them.

"Good morning."

Giving herself a few minutes she got out of bed quietly not to awaken the child.

Ichigo was already downstairs in the kitchen. She looked at the back of him and felt warmth, his presence was familiar to her at least.

"Does Kazui go to school?" She asks him as he nodded and was working on breakfast for them.

Not really knowing what to do she decided to look for his lunch box and make him lunch. Ichigo was observing her every moment. So far she was doing good remembering where everything was and even packing kazui lunch the same.

"Wanna eat first." Ichigo asks her as she was about finished with packing lunch.

They sat across from each other and ate silently, it was surprisingly peaceful.

"Why don't you wear your wedding band or ring if we are married?" She asks curiously as she looked that her finger was also empty.

He wanted to choke on his food from how blunt (Your Name) was but she was genuinely concerned.

"Are we secretly divorced or something?"

Ichigo laughed heart fully at her comment, seeing how innocent she was with the questions made him feel lighter.

"No baby, I took them out because I didn't wanna overwhelm you with everything. Especially since we didn't get together till after we graduated high school." He adds as she nodded her head and blushes from embarrassment.

"I wonder if baby is his usual pet name for me?"

"I'm sorry I was just wondering."

"Don't worry, whenever you like we can put them back on. Don't feel sorry." Ichigo smiles at her as she smiled back gently.

Whenever Ichigo was not around (Your Name) she did everything in her power to try to gain her memories back, whether it was looking at picture albums or her phone from text messages and camera roll but it was harder than she thought. Closing her eyes really hard didn't help either. She felt bad and also mad at herself because she just couldn't remember.

She could see in Ichigo and Kazui eyes the pain sometimes when she asks question or if she didn't realize that they were a family and she was doing her own things.

"Can we cuddle?" She asks one Friday night as they were all sitting in the living room watching a movie that the boys really wanted to see and it seem familiar as if she remembered them talking about it in the past.

Ichigo was more than delighted, she had never asked for physical touch until tonight and even then he only got to it because Kazui would sneak into their room at night and make them all cuddle.

Excited kazui ran next to her side as he was baby spoon for (Your Name) and she was baby spoon for Ichigo.

He smiled as they watched the movie silently again. He felt whole again and he could see she was smiling as she was watching the screen but he knew it wasn't the movie making her smile.

A couple months had past, and (Your Name) had begun picking up the routine they use to have as a family except she couldn't work anymore so she stayed home. Although the expression of pain and sadness were still there from time to time she realize instead of looking into the past to start looking into the feature.

Ichigo wanted to feel the same way except he had way to many memories with her that he wished she remembered. It slowly was eating him inside everyday even though he remain positive and optimistic with everything she had progressed.

While doing laundry she had began to hear talking in the guess room next to kazui.

"She doesn't remember?"

"No Rukia! I told you she lost her memories, I wanted to tell you and everyone else in Soul Society but you guys had stuff going on. It's been like this for the past four months." Ichigo slightly raised his voice and she could feel shuffling in the room.

"What if she saw me, do you think it would help?"

"No."

There was silence in the room again as she tried to listen more carefully. There was sniffling and wheezing noises.

"Ichigo, it's okay to cry. I could never imagine the feeling of starting over again." Rukia had lighten her voice trying to comfort the orange hair man.

"I just don't know what to do anymore. I still love her the same but still. She doesn't remember me being a shinigami, how do I even tell her that?"

(Your Name) tilted her head "shinigami? Why does that sound so familiar."

"That's the biggest part of my life we shared together and she doesn't remember." He continued as she set the clothes down and opened the door.

There was an awkward silence as she felt the two pair of eyes look towards her direction. "I'm sorry I just heard talking in here and got curious."

Rukia shook her head and smiled. "This is your home too! I'm sorry I didn't get to say hi properly."

"It's okay but I feel like I kinda know you." (Your Name) starts to say walking closer to the shorter women.

"This is Rukia. You guys were pretty close." Ichigo tells his wife as he avoided looking towards her eyes holding back his tears.

There was a guilt inside her as she saw how much he was hurting as she sadly looks down towards her feet.

"You know, don't feel bad about what happen. I will always still be a close friend." Rukia cheered trying to break the discomfort the room as (Your Name) sadly smiled to her.

"Is there anything mayuri can do with her memory?" Ichigo asks getting up from the bed and taking (Your Name) hand in his.

"I'm not sure, wait. I think we know someone who can heal quite anything."

"INOUE." Rukia and Ichigo yelled as they ran straight to the car with a lost (Your Name) following behind.

"Where are we going?" She asks out of breathe as they stuck her into the car and sped off towards the hospital.

"Are you sure shes even here?"

"Well ishida is and she's usually with him during his lunch break."

Ichigo and Rukia were bickering as (Your Name) tried to get a word in.

"WHERE ARE WE GOING?!" She then yelled as the two simply had huge smiles on their face and said a close friend might be able to help them.

They were running like mad men trying to find ishida office and luckily he was on break.

"Kurosaki, Kuchiki." Orihime smiled happily as she sat across from Ishida who was eating lunch.

"Tch, can't even knock." He tells Ichigo slightly irritated.

"Inoue, we think you can heal (Your Name) memories." Rukia starts by sitting her down next to the busty women who was shocked to see that her friend didn't remember her.

"Hi my name is-"

"My love she knows who you are." Ichigo smiles wrapping his arms around (Your Name) from behind.

"Why didn't you tell us she was in a accident?" Ishida starts to asks concerned now as Ichigo sheepishly answered it was because he was overwhelmed and didn't think to tell anyone.

"Of course I can try!" Inoue happily says as (Your Name) smiled to Ichigo.

"Are you ready baby?" He asks her as she calmly smiles and held onto his hand for support.

Once she closed her eyes she felt a warm sensation hit her, the memory of that night was coming back. She thought she was going to die from how hard her head was hit and the feeling of leaving Ichigo and her baby boy behind as she laid on the concrete floor bleeding out.

She remembered Ichigo yelling at the doctor to do something as he ran with them to rush her to the ER. There college memories of walking to class and studying for finals together. The first time she witness a hollow and Ichigo had saved her.

The first time she heard her baby cry as she gave birth to Kazui. All of them were flooding back but was to overwhelming to bear as she passed out.

"Ichigo she's fine, she's probably tired." She heard Rukia voice and a hand on her forehead.

"I know she's fine but did it work is what I'm worried about." Her husband bit back a bit rudely. The shorter women sighed.

"I'm awake now." They heard (Your Name) say as she opened her eyes. There was anticipation in their eyes hoping she remembered.

"I love y'all, thank you for getting my memories back." She smiled as Ichigo threw her into a bear hug and Rukia sighed in relief.

"Inoue not here?"

"No she had to pick up her child from school." Rukia tells her as she pats Ichigo back. "I don't know how you deal with him. He is one huge baby."

"My husband is definitely a big baby, I almost was content with starting over again."

Ichigo let's her go and sighs in relief. "I missed you."

"I missed you too, I can't wait to see Kazui he will be so happy."

"Very." He smiled goofy and she couldn't help but laugh.

"Huh?! No! You are my Captain!" She lied facing away from him to take a seat on the couch. She reached into her bag to start working as his smile fell. "Which seated officers aren't doing their jobs?"

"It's okay, really." She stressed not paying attention that Aizen was disappointed they were making his sweet lieutenant overwork.

"I'll be off to my meeting."

Aizen decided to make a quick stop to those seated officers as they sat one by one in a line looking up to him in mercy. "As a shinigami in the gotei 13, you think slacking off is part of the job?" He asks as his spirit pressure crushed their lungs. One by one they grabbed their throats begging for air as he looked down in disgust.

"These damn kids can't handle a little bit of pressure, surely the gap between the strong and weak has gotten greater the past few decades."

"T-taicho." They coughed up as he stopped and knitted his brows. "Must I hear of it again, your punishment will be worse." After he put on a smile to them and walked off. "I expect good things children."

Waking up from a chilly air (Your Name) looked at her surroundings to find that her papers were already done and neatly clipped together on the table, Aizen was no where to be seen as she yawned. It was nearly dusk.

"(Your Name)."

She turned and screamed before falling. "Taicho! You can't scare me like that!"

He smiles and sets down some dinner for her. "There has been intruders that invaded soul society, I don't want you leaving the barracks till we figure out how to eliminate them. One brought down Zaraki Taicho ."

She widen her eyes a bit. "Zaraki Taicho? Who are they?"

"Are you listening to me?" Aizen asks as she nodded her head, the severity must be high because even Aizen was not smiling no more. "You must not leave the barracks." He warns her with a piercing tone behind his voice. "Taicho has never spoke to me this way."

"Of course Taicho, anything for you."

Aizen smiles again and stood up. "You may sleep in my barracks if it makes you more comfortable my sweet lieutenant."

"Where are you going though?"

"Research." He says before setting down and laying her down on the couch. "You will be safe here."

"White, everything was white. I must be going insane." (Your Name) thought as she tossed in turned, something wasn't right. She tried to wake herself up but nothing would work. It was as she was lucid dreaming and controlling it.

"Aizen Taicho?" She called out running towards him, the place was barren, she didn't like it at all. She felt suffocated. It lacked oxygen and sunlight. No color. No personality.

"My love." Aizen muses as he sat on his high chair looking down to her. This was not the Aizen she knew, he seemed so evil, where was his kind smile and his glasses, his nurturing aura?

"I want to go home, let's go home Taicho." She yelled but he smirked and came closer to her face to pull her chin towards him, the fear in her eyes were unpleasant to him as his facade erased. "We are home darling."

"Wake up wake up!" She thought and jumped out of bed.

"No No No!" (Your Name) screamed, it was not a dream. This was real. Where were the doors? What happen to the soul society? Was she asleep for that long?

Searching the room she tried to find a exit, there were no windows, just a bed, couch and table. Falling to the floor she wailed in pain. Even the door was bolted and locked, anything she tried it wouldn't bulge.

"Whats going on?" She had no idea, her intuition must meant that Aizen must have been the master mind behind everything. Covering her mouth she cried, she was disgusted and she felt dirty. After all these years being his lieutenant he was always so caring and loving.

This was not love, she could never turn her back on the soul society.

"I see you are awake now my love." Aizen calls out from behind, his voice sounding strained and stress. "This is our new home, learn to love it." He demanded in his voice with a threat she has never heard from him besides the night she fell asleep in his barracks.

"It was you? The whole time?" (Your Name) asks backing away from him reaching for her katana that was no where to be around.

Aizen chuckles a little and stepped closer to her but she refused and inched away from him as far as possible.

"How, why-"

"My love, they would kill you if they knew we were together."

She widen her eyes, did he really think she would want him now? He was acting so weird, so devious.

"I don't want this, please taicho! If you loved me-"

Aizen shushes her with a quick grasped as he laid them in bed and she closed her eyes from fear, she feared him. Something in his eyes held madness, she was going to go mad as well.

"I've always loved you, this is me protecting you from the enemy. I don't want to hurt anyone but if you refuse me I have to teach you a lesson."

Opening her eyes she looked down, he had her pin. Something about him was intoxicated as she fell into his touch. Aizen was more than delighted as she complied to him but he knew. He knew his lieutenant wasn't so much a baby to fall so quickly. Aizen was expecting her to act as soon as she could.

(Your Name) couldn't tell if it was days or weeks that past by, she only knew that wherever Aizen went she had to follow. If she wasn't allowed to then it was back to their room. The room, she hated it so much. She cried more than ever in her life and she never cried. She was never sensitive but this place was mind fucking her mental health.

"I refuse." She said to servant one night as they served her dinner, she missed the days where she had freedom to do whatever she wanted. "You must eat." They plead as she threw the food across the room before turning the other way.

"If I can't escape I will find other ways to escape."

A familiar spirit pressure filled the room as she got up quickly to see Aizen in a sour mood, even though there was still a smile plastered on his face, she knew he was raging.

"My dear, you made a mess in our room." He says walking towards her as he ordered the servant to bring another before excusing themselves. "Why act like a brat now? You were doing so good these past week."

"I-"

Setting her dinner down on the table he grabbed her body and set her on the bed. "Eat now, you have to be healthy."

"No."

"No?"

She shook her head but before she could say anything else a hand was around her throat as she tried to screamed but food was being forced down by his mouth. (Your Name) tried to hit him off but his pin was like a metal chain.

"You aren't a baby bird (Your Name) making me force you to eat like this." Aizen face was twisted sadistically as he covered her mouth forcing her to swallow.

Her body was shaking as he left go and she picked up the spoon, she ate quietly and slowly and the whole time he watched her. "That's a good girl." He praised kissing her tears away.

The following weeks were no better as he watched her eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. If he couldn't be there he had Gin do it. She could tell something about Gin was off but she couldn't pick up what. There were days she gave Gin a hard day but he wouldn't say anything to Aizen. Did he pity her?

"Ya wanna leave don ya?" The snake asks her one day as she sat on the floor like a baby that had broke its toy.

"What do you want?" She sneered at him before hugging her knees and staring at the wall again.

"Nun ya, poor baby, suffering all alone." He teased. As she looked back to him.

"You sure I'm the only one suffering?" She asks Gin as his eyes wavered a bit but he smiled again.

"Such a weird girl."

He whispered something into her ear as her eyes widen but he smiles and waved off leaving her shook.

That night, she was met with an angry Aizen, apparently she was giving Gin to much attention. He was jealous the snake had made you smile while he couldn't seem to put one on your face anymore.

"I'm sorry Aizen Tai- Sosuke! You asked me how my day was." She pleaded as he grabbed her by the neck towards the bed.

"Look at me love." He commanded as she saw the menace in him.

"Shall I kill him? Should I slice his body in half? Should I make you watch as I torture my favorite subject?"

"No! No! I swear Gin wasn't the one to make me smile."

In the back of her mind she replayed what Gin had warned her about "Be careful, his eyes are everywhere, but not mine."

She knew Gin pity her, but it sparked a hope that someone felt bad for her even from someone coming from the likes of him.

Grabbing Aizen face she forcefully placed her lips onto his even if the gripped around her neck never loosen. She had to play the game in order to survive.

"I only want you, my one and only love." She whispered into his ear as he slightly calmed down.

"You made me do this (Your Name)." Aizen whispered into her ear as a restraining kido wrapped around her wrist.

Her eyes widen as she turned to face him, there was disappointment in his eyes as he stared in disgust.

"You don't love me." She said to him pulling on the restraints, it stung and burned the more she pulled on it.

Without saying any words he left the room.

Ever since the incident with Gin, Aizen had not been to nice to her. He simply fed her enough to be alive and punished her body in sexual ways that made her uncomfortable. He was testing her loyalty by using Gin and she failed in Aizen eyes.

The restraints were still around her wrist as she looked down onto the bed sheet, apparently some Shinigami had made it to Hueco Mundo, she prayed they would find her room but the chances were slim, Aizen had locked her down the deepest level.

"My love." Aizen asks as she looked up to him, her eyes were dark and they died, losing the color of life. (Your Name) did not answer as she acknowledged he was there by staring at him.

She felt tiny and broken, who was she to oppose him.

"Are you happy?"

She started to shake quietly as Aizen waited for her answer, he was always mentally abusing her. One day he would treat her like a princess and the next day it was as if she was trash on his foot.

She was scared any answer she gave him never exceeded his approval.

"Yes." She lied looking back down at the bed sheets.

"Then smile." He ordered her as she tried to move the muscle on her face but it felt so numb by now.

Slowly smiling to him she felt like screaming in his face so bad.

"Thank you." Aizen touches her hands removing the restraints but she didn't move as he grabbed her arms and kissed the marks.

"My love, I apologize for hurting you. Will you forgive me?"

"No."

"Yes." She says still smiling and reaching for a hug. "I love you." She choked out as his embrace of warmth made her sleepy.

"I love you too. My one and only. We will always be together." Aizen assured her with a smirks as she smiled too but deep inside she was crying.

She was curious to how Ukitake Taicho was as a person, apparently he was gentle and kind soul. That was to generic to her, she wanted someone with some spice that would give her life an adventure.

Rukia knocked on the door and it opened, the tall white haired man welcomed them with a large smile. "I'll see you (Your Name), try not to cause any trouble here." Rukia plead and walked off leaving her and Ukitake alone.

She kept a scowl on her face and took a seat. He was still smiling and arranging some papers on his desk. It was too quiet for her and he was taking his sweet time when she could be training right now.

(Your Name) tapped her foot very loudly trying to distract herself.

"(First and last name)." Ukitake finally speaks and took a seat, offering her a cup of tea.

"That would be me."

"I welcome you into our squad, I hope you find this place as home and make many friends. There are a few papers you need to sign since you are being transferred under my directory." His smooth voice says in ease as he looked into her eyes.

Her heart stopped beating for a few seconds, did the sixth squad really give up on her? When she finally found a home to call forever she was being moved to somewhere new like she was an orphan. Sighing she roughly grabbed the papers scribbling her name and slamming it on the desk. Before getting up and opening the door.

"I already hate it here." She said coldly to him and walked out.

"She's kinda a bitch."

"No I'm just trying to protect myself." She thought defending herself.

"She has no respect for anyone."

"But I care and don't want anyone to hate me." She screamed into her mind.

"No wonder Kuchiki Taicho dumped her onto our squad."

"Kuchiki Taicho would never, he wanted me to calm myself." She convinced herself.

(Your Name) heard people talk behind her back the whole time. When eating or practicing she was alone and no one dared to approached her. "I feel abandon again." She sadly thought to herself and left towards her room alone isolated from the others.

Ukitake found her a bit amusing, she was a grown women acting like a disobedient teenager, it made his days more interesting when he wasn't sick in bed.

Since she came off so stubborn and strong willed, Ukitake would have to deal with her when it came to training and everything else she caused problems too. Although he didn't mind, he never did.

She was cold to Ukitake, she hated how nice he was and how he was super patient even when she would cross the line and say stuff to hurt his feelings. She refuse to believe this was her captain.

The older man could see something was troubling (Your Name), there was a scowl everywhere she went and the only time she smiled is when she was doing mischievous things to other people.

He had got a report that (Your Name) was causing a rukus in one of the training rooms and needed to be restrained.

(Your Name) was furious how this low life shinigami dug a memory so far below she wanted to forget, a past she hid away. It hurt her heart to think of it and she admit it's the reason she was the way she was today.

"You're a monster! I remember when the village heard you murdered your father! And your mother went crazy and killed herself!" The shinigami yelled as they fought with their katana. The other members gasped in shock as (Your Name) clicked her teeth and jumped onto her follow squad member. She didn't want the others to think she was murderer when she was trying to defend herself.

"Take that back! You don't know Jack shit!" She screamed wrapping her hands around the neck of her opponent.

The shinigami was gasping for air as she used all her strength to choke all the air out of them. "Apologize and I'll let go." She said in a dark voice. Refusing to let the shinigami win, she held back on actually committing a crime.

The shinigami was tapping on the floor as she gripped harder gritting her teeth.

"(Your Name)!" Ukitake shouted and pulled her off the shinigami.

"Get off me old man!" She screamed and tried to escape his grip. "Everyone out the room now! Get this person to the medic now!" Ukitake ordered as they all scrambled out the room.

She grunted and tried to pull her arm away from his hard grip. "Let me go!" (Your Name) screamed angrily out of breath.

"(Your Name)." Ukitake says softly as she ignored him and looked away trying to pry away.

"(Your Name)!" He shouted to her as she looked up to him with fear and sadness, her eyes widening refusing to blink so she wouldn't drop a tear in front of him.

He finally let her go as she ran out the room. He watched her little figure run for her life and out of his sight. He knitted his brow and replayed what the other shinigami said about her past. He could see why she was a bit troubled because of how she grew up. There was something off about it though and he wanted to know.

"What pleasure do I owe you Ukitake Taicho?" Byakuya asks knowing why the older man came to visit.

"I'm sure everyone heard now." He said as Byakuya sighed, he knew (Your Name) enjoyed being in the sixth squad but she was tarnishing the reputation he worked so hard for. Even though it hurt to let go of (Your Name) who obediently listened to the nobleman and looked up to him. He had to let her go. He didn't know how to help her, or what troubled her.

"She had a tantrum again?" Byakuya asked curiously as Ukitake shook his head.

"Yes, but I actually came to ask about where she grew up."

Renji was sitting next to them with concern, the lieutenant missed (Your Name). She was rude but after warming up to the sixth squad they became close, it sadden him to see her leave. They would train together and pig out in dinner, he felt like he could act like a guy in front of her and she wouldn't be grossed out.

"I do not know, there's rumors going around saying shes a suspect of murder." Byakuya says and Renji looked down to his hands and clenched them.

"No." The lieutenant then says and looked to Ukitake.

"She didn't murder her father. She told me... the whole story.

Byakuya then looks to Renji as he gave his approval to tell the story.

He hesitated a bit and wonder if it was okay to share her personal information but the red head knew that (Your Name) was a bit angry at herself and that's why she caused so much trouble. Renji wanted to clear her name.

"They were a family of three. Mom, dad and her, of course they were poor and tried to make ends to survive. She told me her mother never loved her because it took the fathers attention away from the mom. One day her and the father were playing in the open field when a hollow came and tried to attack them. She told me her dad always carried a sword with him just in case. They were attacked and the father got a large wound to the abdomen and was losing blood really fast. She took the sword and fought the hollow but it escape before it could get injured. The mother found them. (Your Name) was holding the father in her arms crying with the sword next to her. She took a guess that her mother didn't believe her. The next few days after the incident her mother killed herself in their home and she had to escape the village and attended the academy."

Byakuya and Ukitake held their breath and felt a heavy sympathy to why she was so sour about everything. She had a rough up bringing of her mother not loving her and her father murder in front of her eyes. And the guilt of her mother taking her life.

Renji explained that (Your Name) was happy in the sixth squad and hated to be alone, abandon. He explained to his Captain that transferring her to a different squad really effected her because she felt this place as home and that she was homeless again.

Byakuya face was unreadable as Ukitake sighed and stood up to take his leave. "Thank you Abarai Fukutaicho. I'll be off Byakuya." He says.

"(Your Name) you are loved." Her father said as he laid in her arms with a smile as she gasped and tried to shake him awake. "No! Wake up! Wake up!" She screamed and held pressure on the wound.

A ruffle in the woods came to show her mom standing on the field with a shock expression. "Mom!" She yelled but her mother wasn't looking at her but at her dead husband laying on the ground.

"You killed him." She stutters with fear in her eyes. Her mom ran and pushed (Your Name) away wrapping her body around her husband.

"How could you do something so cruel! I knew it from the start! You wanted him all for yourself!"

(Your Name) shook her head and fell onto her knees. "No! No mom a hollow tried to-"

"Leave now! Or else I'll make sure you don't return!" Her mother said with malice in her voice before taking the sword and swinging it at her.

"Mom." (Your Name) called out as her voice broke. "Mom don't."

"Go away! You already caused enough damage!" She yelled thrusting the sword onto her daughter as she caught it with her hands. They were dripping with blood as she cried and ran away from the village.

(Your Name) gasped for air as she woke up during the night, her body was reacting from the past as tears slipped through her eyes. She coughed a bit and turned on her lights. The moon was still shining high.

"(Your Name)?" Ukitake calls out from behind her door. His voice was soft and forgiving.

"Come in." She says lightly and tucked herself into her bed again. The older man sat beside her as she looked up to the ceiling.

"You don't have to feel alone." He said slowly examining her face but, she laid emotionless. "I know it's not my place to say anything but I believe your story, (Your Name) you were just a kid, the past wounds will heal."

She turned her head to face Ukitake, there was a certain look she had on her face as she reached her hand out to his.

He hesitated to hold her small ones, he had never seen her be so gentle until tonight. Ukitake grasps her hand as she swiftly pulled him into bed and cradled herself in his arms as she hid her face from him.

He blushed slightly as it felt inappropriate and felt his body go tense. She was so fragile in his arms right now, it was a side she rarely showed anyone. It had been a long time since Ukitake had received such physical touch, he didn't know how to react.

He cleared his throat and relaxed a bit until he found a more comfortable position to hold (Your Name) in his arms.

"I also lost someone important from a hollow attack." He began quietly as she rubbed her face into his chest for comfort. "It was many years ago but I still remember it clear as day. I felt totally helpless that day."

"Taicho?" She says and looked up to him. "You don't have to tell me anything that is painful for you."

He gently smiled at her and laughed a bit, he really liked this soft side of her.

"I'm sorry for how cold I've been to you. I have abandonment issues." She admits shyly and looked away from his soft gaze.

"I've been alive for hundreds of years (Your Name) I know you don't really mean anything harmful towards other. Sometimes someone just needs a bit of reassurance and a another chance to be alive again."

She softly smiles and rest her head against his chest.

"Byakuya was going to let you enter his squad again... if you like. He felt bad for not being knowledge about your.... Um issues I should say." Ukitake continues saying as (Your Name) closed her eyes and laughed out loud, she felt relief and safe in his arms.

"I think I already found my home, right here, right now." She confessed to Ukitake without any shame even if she was going to get rejected from her own Captain.

The older man blushed furiously as she gave him a small kiss on his cheek.

Aizen smirked and kissed her temple before grabbing a glass for himself. "You knew from the start I was going to be a busy man love."

"That doesn't mean to not answer my text and phone calls. I'm starting to get suspicious." (Your Name) argued back and took his wine glass to drink. He was amused to her behavior but today she was very persistent.

"If you think I am cheating on you, I am not." Aizen stated and watched her drown his glass of wine. She looked at him with worry and stay silent. He grabbed her chin and placed his warm lips onto her as she leaned towards him.

She was missing his masculine touch recently. Since he was always at work, she felt as his duties as a husband were lacking and she was stuck doing all the shopping, renovating and fixing up in their home.

His hot tongue ran around her mouth as she groaned and touched his shoulder for support, the intoxicating taste of the wine made it worse as he sucked her bottom lip.

The noise of Tatsuya door opening pulled (Your Name) out of a trance as she tried to pull away but Aizen strong grip wouldn't let go as he hungrily moved down to her neck giving it a harsh bite as he sucked onto the skin unapologetically. She let out a yelp.

"Mommy! Is daddy home?" His baby voice called out hearing his tiny footstep run towards their direction.

Before Tatsuya could see anything Aizen pulled away and settled comfortably on the couch turning the news on.

"Hello son." Aizen smiled as Tatsuya ran into his arms to snuggle. "Daddy! When did you come home? I haven't seen you in days."

"I'm home now Tatsuya, daddy has been stuck in the office the last three days." The little child snuggled his face into his father chest and was beyond happy.

(Your Name) however was not in a cheery mood as she sat up and cleaned up the two wine glasses in the kitchen. Watching her husband and child catch up was nice but she didn't want her husband corrupted mind to poison their son. She knew he was hiding something, but what?

Aizen rocked Tatsuya to sleep in his arms as she rejoined them and watched the tv in complete silence.

"I'm going to bed." She told him without looking into his eyes as she walked away to their bedroom. He frowned and dropped his happy facade and stood up to place Tatsuya in his room.

As he got back into the bedroom she was already tucked into bed turned away from him. Aizen cleaned himself up and laid next to her.

"It's not fair." She started to say as he looked to the ceiling. "I could have been happy with a real family and a husband that is around but I'm stuck here and what's worse is I don't even know what you are doing."

Aizen recalled back to their arrange marriage, yes he had picked her but she had no choice but to marry him. Her future was basically living as a treaty from two rich family colliding to build a empire.

No words were spoken anymore that night as they drift to sleep.

Some months later

"Tatsuya! Don't run off to fast!" (Your Name) shouted holding his book bag chasing after the happy child as he giggled and hit his head against a pair of legs. "Ow." He whined and rubbed his head a little and looked up to see a black hair stranger. "Mommy?" He then calls out scared to see she was not behind him.

Byakuya eyes widen a little as the child had ran into him. Lowering himself he helped Tatsuya up from the floor.

"Tatsuya!" (Your Name) yells and runs up to the pair and stares at byakuya. "Byakuya?" She calls out smiling a little to see a familiar face.

Tatsuya ran back to her and hid behind her body as he looked at the tall reserved man. "Don't be scared, he's a friend of mommy. Also you should apologize Tatsuya you bumped into him."

The child looked to the floor and shyly apologized to the taller man. Byakuya slightly smiled at the child before looking back to (Your Name). "You look good." Byakuya says with relief in his voice as he worried for her after getting married to Aizen. "I have not heard from you since the wedding."

There was a twist in her heart as she slightly chuckled and looked at him sadly. "I've been doing okay."

Byakuya examined her eyes and then back to her voice, he had missed her a lot. They were both from rich families and ended up spending a lot of their childhood together. It wasn't until he married Hisana and she married Aizen that they fell out of contact.

"(Your Name), I have something important to tell you." Byakuya starts to say as Tatsuya started to cry noticing that he had a cut on his knee.

"I'm sorry, let me take care of this first." She tells the dark hair man and turns to Tatsuya to examine the cut.

"My office is around the corner we can treat him there."

The walk was fairly short as they walked into his building. (Your Name) felt a sense of nostalgia as she walked behind Byakuya. She had missed him a lot but Aizen would not let her contact him after their marriage.

Byakuya set Tatsuya on his chair and brought out some alcohol and bandaids.

"I can do it." She told her childhood friend as he ignored her words and patched the cut up himself. Smiling up to Tatsuya he let the child go back to his mom.

"How is Hisana?"

Byakuya sighed while putting back his first aid into his desk and said "she's in peace now."

"I didn't know she-"

"I never publicly announced it, cancer had took her a few years back."

There was a silence between the two before he asked his secretary Renji to get two hot teas ready and a juice for her child. Byakuya had to tell her what was going on, she was somehow brained wash from Aizen.

"It's a important matter that effects you and Tatsuya." Byakuya says seriously to (Your Name) as she worriedly swallowed a lump in her throat.

"Tatsuya, follow Mr.Abarai. I need to speak to Mr.Kuchiki for a little bit."

Tatsuya was a little hesitant but gave in seeing his mom was in distress and sitting in the office would bore his little mind. Taking Renji hand he left quietly.

"How is Aizen treating you?" Byakuya asks in concern in his voice as he felt betrayed that she did not keep contact with him after all these years. As they were both business men they were ultimately competitive and going against each other.

(Your Name) hesitated and started to play with her hands, should she tell him the truth or play it out and act like she was happy in her marriage. Byakuya was a friend, someone she cherish and fell in love with at one point. Would it hurt to actually tell him. She didn't have many friends and was stuck inside home all the time.

"I don't know, he's cold sometimes, very vague whenever I ask him questions. He doesn't come home sometimes. I spend a lot of time with Tatsuya who he doesn't have a close relationship with. I just want to act like I love my life but I hate it Byakuya, I hate it so much." She says as her voice cracks and she hid her face away from him. Feeling the weight off her shoulder feel less heavy as she told him the truth.

"(Your Name) why haven't you left, you didn't even love him." Byakuya tried to reason with her.

"But I did! For one point I did love him. But I realize we just don't meet eye to eye and I know he is hiding something from me."

There was some tension in the room as he sighed and looked back to (Your Name), she was no longer the out going college student he remembered running party to party but a mom tied down to duties in a unhappy marriage.

"Aizen is running a underground mafia and is currently under investigation, his action could harm you and your child. It has not been publicly announce because the police is trying hard to find his whereabouts. He has been doing criminal activities for years and still hasn't been caught." Byakuya told her not sugar coating the truth. He had to let her know what Aizen had been keeping a secret from her. After many years of questioning why she agreed to marry Aizen didn't make sense to him.

(Your Name) was starting to sweat and couldn't form any words out her mouth to show how she was feeling, would her family business be okay? Would her and Tatsuya be punished for such crime Aizen was hiding from them.

"I don't-"

"You don't have to do anything but leave, your family has no business with him once you leave since you are the heir once your parents pass. (Your Name) I always thought it was weird you picked him." The older man said wanting to understand why she chose to marry off.

"I didn't get to pick. I was still young and my parents told me a good older man wanted to marry me and that he was already well established. I was lucky he wasn't a old disgusting geezer but I fell in love with his charms... the more I'm with him I realize he was just manipulating me and my family company. He took all my friends away and isolated me away from the world."

There was a no words spoken between them after as they sat in silence. She was in pain, her whole marriage was just a set up, she should have known but being young and native at the time did not help her.

"You can always come to me for help." Byakuya states to her as she sadly smiled to him, she had really missed his company. As many people found him scary to approach she felt comfortable knowing she was one of the few people he cared about.

Once she got home she ordered Tatsuya to go to his room and she started to grab as many luggage and bags to pack. Turning off their camera in their house she rushed so Aizen couldn't see what she was doing. She was running away, as much as she wanted to confront him she was scared.

"Mommy?" Tatsuya asks from the door holding his little plushie they had won together one day they decided to go to the arcade. "I need you to pack your clothes Tatsuya we are leaving."

He couldn't process what was going on as he slowly back away and felt a hand on his shoulder.

"And where do you think you are going?" Aizen chilling voice says to (Your Name) as she slowly turned to him in fear and slowly her anger started to rise up.

"Don't touch him! Tatsuya come here now!" She screamed as the young child started to look back and forth to his parents that were fighting. He had never seen Aizen with such a serious expression before, he was always smiling. Stuck between what to do he stood in place.

"Go to your room Tatsuya." Aizen ordered before walking into their shared bedroom and closing the door lightly.

"What is the meaning of this (Your Name)?" He asks slowly as he was notify that their security cameras were turned off in the house.

"You lied to me the whole time, why couldn't you just tell me the truth I would have try to understand what you were doing." (Your Name) says as she sat on the floor defeated that he caught her in the act of leaving.

"I never hurt you did I? I gave Tatsuya a good life, I'm not sure why you are acting this way." Aizen states annoyed she was acting like a child and not a grown up as she was.

"You used my family business to gain yours and not even that you run a underground mafia with a criminal record if they catch you! How can I feel safe around you when you haven't been honest from day one." She yelled at him and pushed passed him before grabbing important papers and the rest of her belongings.

Aizen couldn't fathom how she would figure this all out in less than a day till he harshly grabbed her body and held her secured. "Where did you hear this from?!" He shouts losing his calm demeanor and wanted answers out of her.

She smirked at him as she got the upper hand from him, it was always her losing her cool but to see he was concern was amusing.

"How does it feel Aizen, this is how I felt all these years wondering questions about you. And I won't tell you how I know. Don't worry I won't rat you out cause I don't wanna deal with this anymore." She eased his anger as she got out of his grip and leaving their bedrooms to Tatsuya.

The little boy was crying as she opened his drawer and grabbed all his clothes and shoved it into hers.

"You can't take Tatsuya." Aizen says following her into the room as the child looked again between his parents.

"I can and I will! You don't even come around to see how our child is. What makes you think he wants to stay with you!" She shouted now getting angry he brought Tatsuya into their argument. She was going to make sure her baby wasn't going to be corrupt by his father by any means.

"(Your Name)!" Aizen argued as she faced him and got into his face.

"You may love Tatsuya but you never loved me and I won't risk his life because of your stupid schemes, I'm going to keep him safe with all I have! Now say your goodbyes we are leaving!"

Tatsuya hugged his father before looking back to his mother that was waiting by the front door with their bags and slowly ran to her before looking back to Aizen that was only showing his back.

As they left Aizen was furious as he threw whatever he could grab into his hands and took the picture frame he saw of his 'happy' little family and threw it across the room as the glass shattered everywhere.

(Your Name) was walking fast pushing pass people in fear that Aizen would follow them but for her luck he didn't. She could see him staring down at them from their house as he looked so calm and frowning. Goosebumps ran down her spine as she spun around and held her grip tighter around Tatsuya little hands.

She followed the direction that Byakuya told her to follow as she rushed towards the black car he instructed to get in. Before she could even open the door a familiar red hair came out the car to help with the bags she was carrying. "Thanks Mr. Abarai." She tried to smile but it came out forced as he understood she was in distress and he helped Tatsuya into the back seat.

As she got in Byakuya was on the phone with someone as he looked at her in the rear view mirror.

"You promise I will be safe." She starts to say to Byakuya.

Byakuya could see she lost all hope in her eyes as she ran away from the only home she had the last few years, leaving everything behind.

He hung up the phone and turned to her and Tatsuya.

"Hello (Your Name), are you feeling well?" William ask with concern in his eyes as he took his seat next to her. She swallowed the lump in her throat and cleared her throat giving him a smile. "I'm fine, it's a bit hot right now."

"It's winter outside." Yami states as she blushes and kicked his leg under the table. "Shut up you stink!"

William lightly chuckles and hands her a handkerchief he had on him. "You can use this."

With embarrassment (Your Name) thanked him before giving Yami a dirty look.

"I hope Charlotte doesn't think I'm flirting with Yami, god forbid."

As the meeting started she couldn't help but stare slightly back at William. He was listening to Julius about recent news and what not about the kingdom. Williams eyes met hers as he gave her a small smile and turn back to the meeting. She smiled back slightly.

Once the meeting ended everyone took their leave as (Your Name) followed William. "Thank you for your handkerchief."

"It's okay, keep it. It's better use with you."

Scratching the back of her hair she looks down with a flush. Looking back at him she had a boost of confidence to just kiss and confess to him right there. "William."

"Yes (Your Name)"

"Uhh thank you, really I appreciate it." Her smile slowly faded as he smiled back and took his leave again. She sighed, William was so mysterious and hard to open up.

Truthfully the only reason she always held back from telling William how she felt was because she knew he always kindly rejected everyone.

(Your Name) knew his secret, the reason he wore his mask. His scars and the insecurity that came with it. That didn't change the way she felt for him though. She had accidentally stumbled across William privately after coming back from training some squad members. He was resting and happen to have his mask off.

It was a surreal moment for the both of them when they locked eyes. Hers were filled with love and acceptance but William was fear as he quickly put his mask on.

He shared very few words to her after the incident probably because he was scared she would viewed him as ugly and different.

William was sadden to know that she saw his real face, the only person he really cared that saw. To him (Your Name) was a light he saw when things were dark.

William made it back to the base and closed himself in his room, he had feelings for her. He refused to accept it.

"How can she truly love a ugly monster like me?"

He sighed and retired for the night, William thought someone as strong and powerful as her should be with someone with confidence in how they were and not hide behind a mask.

As he laid in bed he couldn't help but smile to himself replaying her image of today in his head. It was as close he was going to be with her. He was confident she deserved someone better.

"Just tell him." Sol pushes (Your Name) on the shoulder as she grimaced.

"What are we talking about?" Charlotte asks as she walks in on the two sitting by a fire place.

"(Your Name) here likes Captain William and I'm trying to convince her she has nothing to lose!" Sol cheers as (Your Name) hangs her head in shame wanting to punch the soul out of sol.

"I could lose a lot, me personally!" She screams at Sol.

"I thought she had a crush on Yami! I swore I saw them flirting at the meeting!" Charlotte sighs in relief it wasn't the case and it was the masked man she really liked.

"Who cares about men anyways, right ne-san!"

"Yes, we don't need men. Women basically do all the work in the world."

(Your Name) slightly cringed at the pair as she falls onto the floor with a thud, what was she going to do.

After leaving their base she walked back towards home, she wanted William and was determined to show it! Even if he thought different.

With a wicked smile on her face she crashed into a shoulder as she looked up with a furious expression. "You could have just moved if you saw me walking!" She screamed and then covered her mouth from embarrassment.

"I didn't take you to be so aggressive Captain (Your Name)." William lightly chuckles as his beautiful pearly whites showed.

Lost for words she looked away and denied it was her fault.

"I-" she started to say as he kept his calm smile and listened to her talk.

"You don't dislike me for seeing your face?" (Your Name) starts as he got confused to why he would hate such a precious soul just as hers.

"Why would I hate you?"

"I don't know, you wear a mask for a reason right? You don't want people to know. I thought you would have avoided me."

William was speechless for a second, she really was so.....cute he thought. He wanted to laugh for her silliness but wouldn't it be the roles reversed.

"I would never, if anything I shouldn't be ashamed but I came to terms with how it is." He tells her as (Your Name) pulls her hands behind her back and sadly smiles.

"William, you know I like you without the mask right?"

She was determine to let him know her feelings even if he didn't return them. At least he knew she accepted him.

"...."

Without any words coming from him she nodded her head and walked forward. (Your Name) knew he wouldn't accept it.

"(Your Name)." William calls out as she turned her head to see he had removed his mask. "You don't really mean what you said." He tries to convince her as she knitted her brows.

"Last time I checked you weren't (Your Name), now you can't go telling me how I feel." She argued with William as his mouth hung a little open lost for words.

"You really are one aggressive women." He scoffs at himself for persuading (Your Name) not to like him because he was insecure. "You really are the one for me." He smiles as she widen her eyes.

"YOU CANT JUST SAY IT THAT EASILY WHEN IT TOOK ALL MY GUT TO CONFESS TO YOU SIR!" She screams and punched him in the chest slightly as he warmly embraced her shyness now.

"But that's what makes you different, would anyone confess even if they saw the scars?"

She looked up to him and smiles into his eyes. "No, I guess I'm one persistent women."

"Indeed." William agrees as it became silent between them.

She awkwardly coughs and side eye him a few times trying to make conversation.

"I never thought to take you as a shy women."

"IM NOT!" She screams as William walked off offering her to follow him.

She took in his features and noticed how much he didn't smile anymore, during the academy days he was so innocent and cheerful. Growing up they were close but now it seems as she didn't know him anymore.

"Did you want to come over for dinner tonight?" She asks him as he looked up from the papers.

"Who's going?" He asked with curiosity, Kira didn't wanna intrude on her personal life especially when one of the reasons why he was feeling down was because of her relationship with Hisagi.

"Just me and Shuhei! But don't worry he won't mind! I think he kinda misses you." She winks as he wanted to frown.

"Don't you think it's weird?" He says a bit rudely not noticing his tone of language as her eyes widen from disbelief. Noticing her face sadden a bit he cleared his throat. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it in that way. I'm actually behind on the Captains papers so I probably won't have time." He added.

"Well you don't have to do it alone! Shuhei is in the same position so maybe you guys could do it together and we can all drink a bit! I'll even invite Matsumoto Fukutaicho if it lightens the mood!"

Kira didn't want to be in the same room as (Your Name) and Shuhei. He tried to think anyway possible to escape tonight but she seemed on insisting he come out.

"I guess, what time tonight?"

"Around 8! I'll cook dinner!" She says with a smile on her face as she ran out happily.

Knowing it made her happy that he was coming out was okay with Kira even though he wasn't in the mood to socialize.

"Kira?" Shuhei asks with a smile as he got back from work while leaning his zanpakuto on the wall.

"Yes! He's seems down a lot recently so I thought inviting him to dinner would be a good way to have fun, oh Matsumoto is coming too!" (Your Name) said as she pulled out some veggies and protein out from the fridge.

Shuhei wrapped his arms around her body as he kissed her temple as she smiled while cutting the broccoli.

"That was nice of you, I've been worried about him." He tells her letting go and washing his hands to help prep with dinner.

"And I've been worry about you." (Your Name) states to Shuhei as he raises a brow and started to wash the rice.

There was a knock on the door before he could say anything.

"Hey we're here! Open up!" Rangiku cheerful voice rang around from outside as Kira was standing behind her with a tired expression.

"Hey! We just got started on dinner! Come on in!" (Your Name) welcomes them into her and Shuhei shared home.

It was Kira first time here, he took in the view. There was nothing really special that stood out to him except a few decor and a guitar in the living room. There was a few picture frame of the couple as they smiled to each other.

There was jealousy in the blonde lieutenant as he looked away from them and set a bottle of sake down he brought.

"Kira! Finally see you've been out of your own quarantine!" Shuhei greets him and pats him on the back.

"Slightly busy that's all." He tells the older man and smiles.

Rangiku sat down and cracked a sake open while they waited for dinner. She was in a cheerful mood today. "Oi we haven't been able to drink together in a while!" She tells Kira as he chuckles and gets himself a small cup.

"Likewise."

As him and Rangiku took small talk he could see in his peripheral version Shuhei and (Your Name) happily cooking together. There was small kisses stolen from each other as they were in sync.

"Dinner is served!" Shuhei yells placing down the rice, salmon and veggies along with miso soup to wash it down.

"Wow a chef in the house." Rangiku says as they all dug in.

"You guys started without us!" (Your Name) pouts noticing that two bottles of sake were already empty from Kira and the busty women sitting next to him.

"Ooo sorry that means y'all have to catch up!" She says as they poured themselves a cup.

Kira slightly smiles at (Your Name) cuteness as he took a bite of the fresh cooked fish. A part of him was thankful that it wasn't them three alone. He already didn't wanna talk much but the alcohol was kicking in and he was also thankful rangiku was there.

He didn't notice how hungry he was till a pair of chopsticks had put down a new piece of salmon in his bowl nonchalantly. It was (Your Name) as she was conversing with Rangiku about their new beauty routine with Shuhei listening and putting his input.

It felt like he was in the academy again, when he forgot to eat or wasn't eating enough (Your Name) was always feeding him and taking care of his health. The lieutenant knew she brought him out tonight so he could enjoy himself more.

"Thank you." He says as her flushed face smiles at him and went back to her conversation.

He blushed but it wasn't noticeable because of all the alcohol he already consumed.

"Kira you are particularly quiet for being drunk already!" Rangiku chimes in as he was lost for words.

"I- I am not drunk!"

"Sure you are! You finished 3 bottles alone already!" Shuhei laughs as he just groaned.

It was later in the night when it started to get rowdy, they all had a few to many as they were shouting to each other.

They were playing card games and gotten into it. They decided ride the bus because apparently kisuke had showed Rangiku a while back when she was in the human world. He told her it was a drinking game a lot of college students were doing so she wanted to hop on the trend.

"Kira you're on the bus so you have to keep drinking till you get these cards right!" She said as he took sips of the beer they had brought out for back up.

As he was drinking (Your Name) and Shuhei were cleaning a bit since it was getting messy.

Him and Rangiku were having to much fun that Shuhei retired for the because he had an early morning but he insisted on them staying and enjoying themselves.

By the time Kira won the card game he was sauced and couldn't walk in a straight line. He knew drinking with Rangiku was going to be a disaster.

"Did you want me to take him back?" He heard Rangiku ask (Your Name) as he was slumped on the table.

"It's okay, he can stay for the night. We work together anyways so I'll wake him up tomorrow." (Your Name) tells the older lady as she left for the night.

"Okay big boy, help me will ya." She tells Kira as she laid out a futon for him to sleep in comfortably.

He wrapped an arm around her waist as he walked towards the bed made on the floor. Tripping on his foot they fell over as she gasped.

"Kira you are crushing me!" She silently whispers so Shuhei wouldn't wake up from their shenanigans.

"Just let me hug you (Your Name)." He says breathlessly with his eyes closed. Kira wanted to enjoy this moment because he knew she could never be his.

"Kira?"

He looks down to her lips as she looked up to him innocently. A part of him didn't want to be the bad guy but what was so wrong with being bad once in a while.

He knew it was the alcohol bringing out everything he was holding in, he was going to regret his actions the next morning. Cupping her face he kissed her parted lips. It didn't help that she wrapped her legs around his waist as he groaned. Letting his tongue slip into her mouth.

She flipped him over so she sat on top, just when things were beginning to get spicy he opened his eyes and.

"KIRA IZURU! You wake up this instant now!" He heard a voice called out as he jumped out of bed and looked to his side to see a concern (Your Name) next to him. She sighed in relief and pushed his hair out of the way from his face.

"Are you dating Hisagi San?!" He asks quickly out of breath as she tilted her head and slightly smacks his forehead.

"Ow!"

"Hello! What were you dreaming about? I'm dating you stupid." She says as he calmed down a bit and laughs rubbing the back of his neck.

"It was just a dream, thank goodness."

(Your Name) looked confused as she jumped on top of Kira and laid her head on his chest.

"Whatever it was Izuru I'm always going to be yours." She says as he laid back down and rubbed her back. He was cheesing to himself to know (Your Name) wasn't going anywhere.

"I know, it was just a dream." He says as she kissed his lower lip and grinned.

"I love you, you know that."

"Of course, I love you too, always."

(Your Name) just watched the trio and hid silently by the pillar. Hoping they wouldn't notice her. Not that she was important but her lieutenant Renji actually seem to acknowledge her besides everyone else.

She blinked a bit and looked at the sun, she felt like passing out. "No I can't cause a scene."

She tried to focus on her breathing but soon fell lightly on the floor spilling the tea.

"Let's invite Kira and Shuhei." Ikkaku says before stopping on his track with wide eyes. "Oi."

Renji stopped also and blinked.

"(Your Name)!" He yells and ran to pick her up. "Oi oi!" He shakes her a bit violently as she groaned. "What's wrong?"

She sighs because of his yelling and opened her eyes, (Your Name) was fine, passing out was basically a norm now. With Renji helping her off the ground she dusted off her clothes and awkwardly coughed. "Um, I'm sorry I was feeling light headed." She told them and looked down to her feet.

"Are you feeling alright? Your eyes are kinda dark and your skin is pale." Yumichika adds with concern as she felt a twist in her stomach, her anxiety was starting to rise as all three men looked at her with concern.

(Your Name) needed a way to escape as her thought were scrambling everywhere.

"Yeah I'm fine! I'll clean the tea cup! You guys get going I'm sure you guys are busy!" She says with a forced smile as they all look at each other.

"Be careful." Ikkaku says as him and Yumichika head off first.

Renji helped pick the pieces off the ground as she frowned. "Really it's no big deal!"

"No no! I can't let my underclassmen do all the dirty job." He insisted with a smile on his face as she lightly blush and look away.

Weeks after she noticed Renji was around her a lot more often then usual, it's like he was concern she was going to pass out again. "You've been missing training a lot." He tells her as she tried to catch her breath from the days practice.

"I haven't been missing practice, I go everyday." She lied with a smile on her face as Renji raises a brow.

"Okay." He extends his word and hands her a snack as she looks down at it with slight fear.

(Your Name) holds her breath and chuckles making a lie up. "I had a big breakfast this morning, I don't think I can eat right now."

Renji laughs with her and lifts her arms showing her biceps. "You need more meat girl!" He jokes as she lightly cringes and drank more water.

"Did you wanna go out with me and a few lieutenants tonight?" He then offers as she looks up to him with innocent eyes. Renji slightly grunts and looks away from her.

"Where are you guys going?"

"A small bar! It will be fun." The insecure lieutenant says with a small half smile as she looks down to her feet.

"I don't know, I feel like I'm not in the ranking to be hanging out with y'all."

Renji just chuckles and slings his arm around her shoulder as they walked back to the barracks. This gesture alone made her feel warm. She smiled to herself.

"Sure I'll go." (Your Name) then says as his eyes light up.

"Great! I'll see you tonight!"

As the night came the bar was packed with many friends and familiar faces. "Hey! Renji talks about you a lot!" Rangiku says with a smile as (Your Name) blushes and smiles back.

"I feel so weird here."

"No no dont! I promise we don't bite!" Rangiku says and leaves a seat open for (Your Name) with Renji beside her.

"You look good." Renji stutters a bit as she flips her hair jokingly and winks at him. "I tried." She admits and looks around to see what everyone was drinking.

"What do you want? It's on me." Renji says as he gets himself some hot sake.

"Oh I'll just get water."

Rangiku overheard and pushed her boobs into their direction. "Oh no! We came to get loose! You have to order something!" She said to (Your Name) as she awkwardly laughs and just points to what the older women is having.

"I'll just have what Matsumoto Fukutaicho has then." She tells Renji as he grins and puts it on his tab.

She was a bit frighten to drink and get to intoxicated because she had barely eaten anything today. But her mind was somewhere else as she saw all the happy faces around her.

"A few sips won't hurt."

After downing one sake and a half she was already feeling dizzy and wobbly. It was hard for (Your Name) to concentrate on the conversations around her.

"Hey you okay?" Renji asks with concern on his face as she silently nodded and excused herself to the bathroom.

She washed her face and looked at her reflection, her face was flushed and she felt disgusting. "Ugh." Leaving the bathroom she looked down onto the floor to hide her face because she was unhappy.

"Everything good?" Renji says as she jumped from being frighten.

"I'm not feeling to well actually." She admits stumbling a bit as she tried to leave the bar.

"Hey hey don't worry, I'll take care of you." He laughs at her drunken state and carried her in his arms as she protested a bit.

"Wait! I'm heavy!" She pleas as he raised a brow.

"You are literally skin and bone, what do you mean?"

She sighs in defeat and started to feel insecure as she hid her face from him.

"Did you have fun?" He started a conversation to ease her mind as she nodded her head and sadly smiled to herself.

"You know, you are really caring I can see why Rukia is attached to you."

Renji snorted and laughs. "Me and Rukia are nothing! If anything I know her and Ichigo have something on the DL." (Sorry not sorry lmao)

(Your Name) gasped a bit and looked away embarrassed for mistaking their relationship.

They finally made it back to the 6th barracks as she tried to regain her composure but miserably failed and fell on her knees. She grunted and cursed under her breath.

Renji looked down on her with concern and picks her up again. "Do you usually drink?"

"No not really, this is the first time I've been drunk."

His eyes widen and he chuckles a bit helping her into the room.

"Well good night." He says as she fell onto her bed and groaned.

"I'll see you tomorrow Renji." She says with a smile on her face as she closed her eyes.

She looked flushed and vulnerable as he madly blushed and ran out to his private quarters. His heart was shaken by her.

Renji didn't see her the next morning or afternoon, he guessed she had a hangover and wasn't feeling to good. He decided to pick up some food for her and medicine to make sure she knew had to properly take care of a hangover.

Knocking on her door lightly he heard tiny shuffling as she peaked through the door. "Oh I wasn't expecting anyone." (Your Name) says and let's him in.

Renji was a bit embarrassed for coming unnoticed but he saw she had a ice bag laying on her floor. "Are you sick?"

"No my head hurts though."

"Silly, a ice bag won't help you. I got you food and medicine for your hangover." He walks in and sets it on her tiny table.

"What's is it?" She curiously asks and opens the bag. It was warm soup and rice. Nothing to special.

"Nothing cures a hangover but some hot soup and rest will help." He says and throws her some pills for the headaches.

"Renji you didn't have to." She says quietly and sets the soup down. He grins as she looked a bit unsettled.

(Your Name) breathing hitched a bit as she slowly picked up the spoon for the soup. She wanted so badly to just devour the thing but her mind was telling her no no no. With Renji sitting and watching her she had no escape. Slowly her anxiety started to rise again as she gripped the spoon a little harder.

"Is something wrong?"

Renji saw fear in her eyes and a forced smile as she just took a few sips and lightly pushed the food away. While sitting there he began to notice she avoided food a lot and was particularly very thin as he had only seen her with the uniform on.

He picked up the pieces to why she wasn't attending practice and was passing out a lot.

"(Your Name)." He calls out to her but she looked down in defeat and stood up to put on a thick jacket because she was getting cold.

"I'm sorry Renji nows not a good time to be here." She stressed a bit as he stood up to her level.

"You are sick (Your Name), you need to get some help." He says in a serious tone as she shook her head.

"I'm fine really-"

"No! You don't think I've noticed how you avoid food, how you barely have any energy. You've been passing out and your skin bruises easily. You get cold!"

(Your Name) trembles under him as she swallowed her tears. She knew getting close to him was going to be the end of her.

"So? Why do you care? It none of your business."

Renji knitted his brows and held onto her shoulders. "I care because I like you, this wasn't the way I was going to confess but I'm not going to sit here and watch you kill yourself. You are so beautiful please don't hurt yourself anymore." Renji begged as she fell into his arm for comfort.

"I can't, it's so hard. I tried but everytime I see myself in the mirror I get dark thoughts and end up torturing myself."

He sighs in frustration, not because of her but because no one has ever noticed how much she was suffering. Renji wanted to help her, no he was going to and was determined to make her the most confident she's ever been.

"I'm sorry, I know I'm pushing the limits here." He wraps her tiny body under his and rubs her back for warmth. "But let's get you to the 4th division tomorrow and get you professional help."

He saw the fear in her eyes as she refused. "No. No! They are going to force feed me and I won't be able to fulfill my shinigami job-" she says but he shuts her mouth with a rough kiss as he wiped the tears away.

"Hey look at me. I would never let you do something that makes you uncomfortable but let's just get you checked up and go on from there." Renji tried to compromise as she bit her lips and nodded slowly.

"I'm sorry, you don't deserve someone like me."

He smiles at her and pushes some hair out of her face.

"(Your Name) everyone deserves happiness, even you."

She couldn't help but pull him in a kiss as he returns back with the same passion.

"Okay, let do it then." She says with a bit of confidence as he nodded with reassurance.

"I'm right here with you." Renji says pulling her back into bed and tucking her in. "Get some rest, I know it's been rough on you."

She warmly smiled to him even though the tears were still there.

Taking the only belonging shes had left which was a few clothing and a personal journal she set it hidden under the bed.

Zenon doesn't say a word as he calms his head a bit.

This women had the nerve to defy him and all he could do was snap her neck to end it all.

"It's time for bed." He tells her as she carefully walks into the bed before he stops her. "This isn't the attire I gave you."

A fear comes across her face as she backs away from him. Zenon roughly tears her clothing off, they fall one by one as she picks up the pieces. "These were all I had left of home." She whispers as he hands her something more revealing to wear.

"You are to obey me."

(Your Name) angrily looks up to Zenon and slaps him across the face. "This gives you a reason to kill me now."

Zenon darkly smiles to himself. Oh how he liked to torture her.

"Bedtime." Is all he says and drags her into the bed next to him.

Zenon happened to walk past her home when he saw her. She was shining in the snow and her beauty was mesmerizing.

Carrying the fire wood for some elderly she was smiling kindly to them. Zenon was surprised how gentle he was feeling. He hated it. Why did this women make this affect on him?

He wanted her... no he needed her. For what? He had yet decided but he got what he wanted.

The way she smiled and effortlessly showed kindness was something he could never do. Zenon wanted that from her. That's when he decided she was going to be his.

Zenon was one to rarely sleep these days, he wasn't known to having a women in his bed unlike his brother. The first few nights she refused to sleep so he had to knock her out. Looking at her reflection from the moon her weight had drop dangerously low. The cold wind blew into the room as she shivered and turned away from him.

His body moved unwilling from his mind as he covered her with more blankets.

Zenon craved love, he didn't know how to describe the feeling. To be cherish or a warmth that was never settled in him. He wanted that affection from her yet everything he asked of her she refused.

Tracing her hair to her shoulders he kissed it softly till he craved her body and bit down harshly.

(Your Name) yelled in pain as he held her body close to his. Removing his teeth from her shoulder the thick blood fell as he licked them away. The look in his eyes scared her. He was enjoying giving her the pain.

"You are tempting women." Zenon lustfully whispers as she throws the covers off and tries to find the closest exit.

"At this point I don't even care how I die."

(Your Name) looks towards the window and back at Zenon. She tries to run out the window to end her misery in this room of his. Zenon wouldn't allow it as he grabs her back knocking her out cold.

That night Zenon dreamed of them as they happily lived together and how she was happy with him. He dreamt that they were making love from the pureness of their hearts. How hot she felt around him and the ecstasy they both felt from the closeness of their bodies.

Until it turned into a nightmare of her blood running thick in his hands as she laid lifeless in his arms. Her cold eyes staring up at him, blaming him for her death. She was trapped.

Zenon wakes up in cold sweat as he looks around to find her sleeping soundlessly again next to him. She was uncharacteristically cuddled up next to his body for warmth.

The next morning there was food laid out for her but no sign of Zenon, this was the best part of the day for her. She was alone and not being watched like a hawk. (Your Name) chows down the food, she was starving. The only time she refused to eat was when he ordered her to.

(Your Name) was curious to why he picked her, his brother Dante had many beautiful women surrounding him. Everytime she hoped he would trash her out already but he refuses each time she brings it up or if Dante tells him his 'toy' was boring.

"There has to be a reason."

The door opens as he walks in and changes out to more comfortable clothes. (Your Name) avoids his eyes staring at her as she clears her throat and set the empty tray out the bedroom.

Walking back to the window seat she watches the snow fall again. There was nothing to do, no fun. Her family was gone and she wouldn't dare try to talk to Zenon like she knew him.

"Are you not happy?" He asks her making his way to the window as she softly laughs and grits her teeth.

With venom in her voice she says "clearly I'm a prisoner and there's nothing to do here."

Zenon gently grabs her head and kisses her neck softly from behind.

"Stop it." She whispers as he lightly sucks on the precious skin.

"What will make you happy."

Her eyes widen as she turns her head to look back at him, he was emotionless. The look of his eyes held no warmth or comfort. It was as if he lived everyday to die.

"I want to leave! I want to go home! I'm sure there's other girls who would rather be in my position!" She raises her voice to Zenon as it slightly cracks from fear.

"She wants to leave me, I can't understand why she is so unhappy? I give her food, shelter and all the attention but she refuses everything!"

Zenon eyes grew dangerously dark as he kicked the chair across the room and dragged her to the bed wrapping his hand around her neck. She protested the whole way.

"Do I not give you everything you need?" He asks in a low voice as she swallows the lump in her throat and he finally loosens the grip around her neck massaging her bruised hickey.

"I don't want everything Zenon." She whispers back with tears falling from her eyes.

He lets go and kisses her tears away as he leaves the room locking it behind him.

(Your Name) finally manages to pull herself together when he left the room, her hands were shaking from the anxiety she got from his close they were. Truthfully she was scared he was going to choke her to death. Even though she wanted him to kill her she didn't have the guts for it.

Zenon was with his other two siblings as they mocked him in his misery.

"I told you to get rid of her, she obviously a nuisance to you." Dante says with a smirk as he shakes his head in disappointment.

"Or she can be my toy and I can torture her till she's crying to just end her life." Vanica suggest with amusement in her voice.

Zenon mentally rolls his eyes at his siblings, he was always the different one from the three.

"Don't tell me she's already begged you to kill her." Dante smiles deviously at Zenon who doesn't usher a word but let his silence speak for itself.

"Ahaha brother you sure are a cruel one!" Vanica says licking her lips before leaving the two behind.

"So what are you going to do? I suggest throwing her out in the snow and let the starving dogs get her."

Zenon gives Dante a icy glare as he makes his leave. Going to his sibling for help was not the brightest idea.

Back in the room (Your Name) was laying in bed and reading a book that Zenon had in his shelfs. It wasn't completely boring, the story she was reading at least but being trapped was driving her crazy. He walks in as she tenses up a bit.

Sitting beside her on the bed she backs away from him slightly.

They stare at each other in silence as she turns towards her book once more.

"You can't leave." He tells her as she covers her face with the book. She wanted to avoid his sorrowful gaze.

"Why me?" She whispers as Zenon lowers the book from her face and traces her facial features.

"You are the most exquisite creature I've ever laid eyes on. I have been enchanted by such beauty. I mean no harm to you but you refuse to accept me."

She looks at him sadly and holds his face.

"I can't give you what you need, I am terrified by you, if I am to be the light of your life it is not a gift but chosen by the heart."

Zenon holds her hand on his face before giving it a light kiss.

"Your fate as been determine, if I let you go my siblings will kill you but if you stay with me here in this room I can give you the ever most love in the world."

(Your Name) eyes fell, the light shining in them were gone. Did she want to be set free but die in the hands of his siblings are be in his company till she accepted his love.

She felt disgusted with herself as she answered him.

"I'll stay with you."