kt x pisces

Trigger Warning: Hard Drugs / Overdose

If you’ve never scraped the corners of fentanyl or dope bags for one more hit then you don’t know the strength it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never felt like you were going to defecate and throw up on yourself at the same exact time then you don’t know the resilience it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never had your thumb calloused from the heat of using a lighter every six seconds on your crack pipe then you don’t know the determination it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never considered using your buddy’s syringe because you’re so dope sick you feel like you might die then you don’t know the desperation it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never heard the birds chirp as you try to force yourself to sleep then you don’t know the loneliness it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never told your family you're done using drugs and sincerely meant it only to find yourself using drugs again then you don’t know the struggle it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never been brought back to life by Narcan and still wanted to use then you don’t know the power of addiction. If you’ve never sat in a room full of people just like you and felt completely alone then you don’t know the isolation it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never waited on a corner for hours hoping your dealer would show up then you don’t know the patience it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never tasted an orange film of Suboxone dissolve under your tongue and felt completely hopeless then you don’t know the hopelessness it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never detoxed in a jail cell awaiting arraignment then you don’t know the courage it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never set out on a Friday night with the intention of having a couple of beers and found yourself homeless with a heroin habit 2 weeks later then you don’t know the unpredictability it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never sat in an emergency room for 24 hours only to have the hospital staff tell you, “Sorry, you don’t meet the criteria for a bed,” then you don’t know the perseverance it takes to be an addict. If you’ve never done any of these things then you’re not in a position to judge someone who suffers from drug addiction.

i've lived through every single 1 of these scenarios and i'm so proud to say that as of June i celebrated 6 years sober from my drug of choice heroin, and all other hard drugs.

*(coming from a Sagittarius pluto in 1st house native)

I know it's been done a lot and most of this has been covered.

I'm not sure why people think Pluto in 1st housers intentionally are trying to be intimidating sometimes. We're not. I promise you.

I've noticed that if Pluto 1st natives have lighter colored eyes they tend to have shadows under their eyes or face to make up for the fact their eyes aren't dark. Just a theory but I have noticed it

People either love or hate us. But it's mostly because WE either love or hate people. People project how we feel back onto us

Our biggest superpower? Being able to read people and their intentions. I've always been able to read people from the first meeting. It's more of a generalized "they can be trusted or not" situation. Literally the walking epitome of "I don't like them but I don't know why and I can't tell anyone or they think I'm crazy"

Pluto in 1st natives also tends to attract attention without trying. They even command it. BUT understand that not all of us want to. Those who are more introverted or have charts introverted, we despise this fact. We're just trying to be wallflowers.

People have always projected their insecurities onto me forever?? Like I had beef with grown adults. (I've got some stories about this. Feel free to ask for them lol)

I've noticed that I usually attract older men. Even if it's not older men it tends to be men sexualizing me and I've had a few situations that got creepy.

A LOT of power struggles and control issues. Either from others or WE ourselves have issues with control.

Tend to go through a decent amount of trauma. But over the years I've realized it's to push me to own who I am. Considering the fact it's almost always been because of standing up for myself and being unapologetically myself as well.

Tend to attract unhealed people.

I've had people be able to notice I've been through things without even telling them. Our face says it all along with how untrusting we are towards people

We must do a ton of shadow work in order to not be consumed by our control tendencies. Once we learn this, we can use our gifts to guide people through the darkness. Me personally I've learned to turn the darkness into wisdom and kindness

I believe one of the reasons we are magnetic to people is due to our private energy. People want to know us and learn our secrets

Yes it's true about the intense gaze. Lol I've been told myself I have an intense gaze and that I'm intimidating.

Disclamer: These are just my opinions and observations, I am not an astrologer, I am just a girl with a hobby.

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Saturn in the 1st house can't get away with anything. People look up to you, they admire you, and they expect you to rise up to their expectations of you. Because it is the ruler of your chart, it acts as a tough/strict parent, and it won't let you take the easy way out. When you learn something, you have to learn it the hard way; there are no shortcuts or easy ways out.

Saturn in the 2nd house spend money on yourself. Don't be cheap when it comes to buying things for yourself. Now, that doesn't mean buy in excess, it means buy quality. Being stingy with yourself won't get you anywhere. While I understand that these natives may have had a tough upbringing, when it comes to money and reckless spending, the faster you learn how to handle your money, the faster you'll see your life prosper.

Saturn in the 3rd house, you may come across as dumb (spoiler alert, you're not), especially in your early years. You may have had trouble with speaking, writing, or grammar. Small talk feels awkward to you, and you tend to feel invisible. People may also talk over you, which just diminishes your confidence further. You may also have a difficult relationship with your siblings. Take care of your electronics, they tend to break on you, and get your car checked regularly.

Saturn in the 4th house come to terms with the fact that you will not feel at peace with yourself (unless you're willing to change). The hollow in your chest is your craving for security that you didn't find at home. People don't go to you for parties or fun; they come to you when they need a shoulder to lean on. It doesn't matter whether your ma is carefree and loving or robotic and distant; you never felt happy with her. Most of you want to move out of your small town, but never do. Unless you resolve the problems within yourself and with your family members, you will never move on with your life.

Saturn in the 5th house, so many creative ideas and so much talent wasted because you can't let go and let loose (headcanon: I think Brandon from God of Fury has this placement). Very attractive but just won't accept love. Creativity and love have limitations because you keep setting nonexistent rules. You're finally ready to let loose? hold your horses because people are going to step on your boundaries. If anyone finds a way to balance this out, let me know.

This week feels intense because Mars is stirring Uranus, which turns ordinary life into sudden shifts, sharp reactions, and surprise plot twists.

If your patience is gone, your plans keep wobbling, and everyone seems one inconvenience away from making a dramatic decision, this transit is a big reason why.

Read the full article here: Why Everything Feels Intense This Week: Mars, Uranus, and the Astrology of Sudden Shifts