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Looking back at my life, there was always one girl that I will always remember as the one that got away. Only one girl that I regret not talking to because I was too scared and too shy to approach. I was young and stupid. I day dreamed about her too much to ever do anything when I saw her in person. I was the typical geek that was into the girl that was way out of my league. 

And because I never gathered up the courage to even try, I will never know if I would have failed or succeeded. Here I am now, 7 years since the last time I ever saw her, and I still regret never having talked to her even once. I recently realized that she was the big crush. Probably THE crush that shaped and defined my preference in women. I realized that ever since I saw her, every girl I’ve ever liked or dated reminded me of her in one way or another.

It makes me feel so empty inside that I missed it. All my chances, all the what-if’s, and all the what-could-have-been’s. I feel as if I lost an entire alternate future; the possibilities of how different my life would be if only I had the courage. I don’t regret ever doing anything in my life, I only regret the things I didn’t do, and never talking to her is and forever will be, one of the biggest regrets of my life.

Looking back at my life, there was always one girl that I will always remember as the one that got away. Only one girl that I regret not talking to because I was too scared and too shy to approach. I was young and stupid. I day dreamed about her too much to ever do anything when I saw her in person. I was the typical geek that was into the girl that was way out of my league. 

And because I never gathered up the courage to even try, I will never know if I would have failed or succeeded. Here I am now, 7 years since the last time I ever saw her, and I still regret never having talked to her even once. I recently realized that she was the big crush. Probably THE crush that shaped and defined my preference in women. I realized that ever since I saw her, every girl I’ve ever liked or dated reminded me of her in one way or another.

It makes me feel so empty inside that I missed it. All my chances, all the what-if’s, and all the what-could-have-been’s. I feel as if I lost an entire alternate future; the possibilities of how different my life would be if only I had the courage. I don’t regret ever doing anything in my life, I only regret the things I didn’t do, and never talking to her is and forever will be, one of the biggest regrets of my life.