ikigai.

I don't know what I'm supposed to be. I have never felt so lost in my entire life. I wish I could get even just a slight of an idea of what I should do after what I have accomplished. I'm so lost. I don't know what to do or where I should be. It's tiring to be so lost.

I know it might seem too much to ask from you, but please don’t go. Please don’t get tired of me. Please……stay. It’s been a while since these facades have been built, showing people someone I, myself, don’t recognize. It’s been a while since I let someone see how vulnerable I am, and how easily I can break. It’s been a while since I felt this strange feeling in my gut that I can’t explain. Not that I don’t want it, but it feels so foreign to me, I don’t want to let go of it for the time being. Stay. I hope you do. I hope you stick around for a long time.

we all have our space in this world. stop looking for yours inside someone else.

You are the one who makes me happy When everything else turns to grey Yours is the voice that wakes me mornings And sends me out into the day You are the crowd that sits quiet Listening to me And all the mad sense that I make You are one of the few things worth remembering And since it's all true How could anyone mean more to me Than you Sorry if sometimes I look past you There's no one beyond your eyes Inside my head wheels are turning Hey, sometimes I'm not so wise You are my heart and my soul My inspiration Just like the old love song goes You are one of the few things worth remembering And since it's all true How could anyone mean more to me Than you

Hey! Today is your birthday today, and I’m going to wish you a very happy birthday. I’m going to say how glad I am that I have met you. I earned a genuine friend at the time when I really needed someone the most. I’m going to say that we may not talk to each other that often anymore, I’ll be saying to you that I’m always going to be her for you. I’m going to say those things because I mean it.

It feels like a cold stormy night and you cuddle with a pillow thinking it were someone you want to be sleeping beside you. The storm outside is so bad, the thunders are loud, and the lightnings are bright. You tuck yourself under a blanket with a pillow beside you, thinking, and maybe almost believing, that it were the person you want to see before you close your eyes and fall asleep, and the one you want to see the moment you open your eyes. You hug this pillow and tuck yourself deeper under the blanket, and you go into a fetal position. You take a deep breath before you realize something so strong yet so invisible. You get to realize what you’re feeling all along.