Lawrence wife

Mc: (Ever since Lawrence went to the safe zone I've felt lonely, but to think that Lawrence... Recently when I was looking out the second-floor window I saw Ethan or well what's left of him, I couldn't help it relieved to see him alive. i knew he was nothing more than a zombie, a being that is neither alive nor dead, but he still had faith that there would be a cure to save him soon. Still, he knew that if Lawrence saw him he would kill him, So I decided to do nothing. I mean what could I do? If somehow get close to him, will he kill me or turn me into a zombie like him, I just prayed that Lawrence would never see him.

Every day was the same, I barely managed in the most discouraging way and with less desire to live every second, get out of bed, and eat whatever I didn't have to cook, eating ramen noodles, raw, had become a habit. Once every two days I went up to the roof to take care of the plants, I knew that even if I managed to make them grow well I would never taste them, or at least I hoped that I only did it so as not to go crazy without doing anything or talking to anyone.

I didn't want to accept it under any circumstances, but deep down I knew, that if Lawrence didn't come back, I would die, not because I can't take care of myself, but because I could bear to lose the only person I have left in this world. Without Lawrence I won't live, these thoughts would kill me, they run through my mind" what do I do if he doesn't come back "I just denied it, but I knew the answer, I knew the answer immediately the moment crossed the schoolyard.

A month passed and Lawrence did not come back, I was worried, I thought he had died, I considered running away from school to look for him, but he told me not to go out unless 2 months had passed. I still got out of school, it wasn't easy, I made it, I had no intention of dropping out, I think I just wanted to avoid going crazy, doing nothing but watering plants. It was difficult not to go into despair, I was already bored, I just went out to look for something to do or feel deep down, I just wanted to feel that I could die at any moment.

There was nothing around the school anymore, it wasn't worth looking any further.

I only went out and maybe I just did it to feel that I was alive, even when the zombies approached me and I realized that I was hiding, that I was doing everything possible to survive. I realized that I wanted to live deep inside of me, even unconsciously, would I be able to kill myself even knowing that this was my fault, that the death of all my companions was nothing but my fault?

I didn't want to die, you could call me a coward and maybe you'd be right, I shouldn't be alive or trying to stay alive, still, I can't help wanting to be alive. Even if I'm going to have to have death breathing down my neck for the rest of my life, I'm going to survive.

At this point I just want to survive, the only thing waiting for me to do is stay in this Castle that he built, for me, I will stay here waiting, like the princess who only hopes that her prince will rescue her. I'm not useless either, I try to do things, but every day that passes I feel more alone, I feel that madness irremediably takes over my being.)

2 months passed slowly and quickly slow for MC and fast for Lawrence

He was working with the army trying to develop strategies against the zombies, so the entire infected population near the safe zone was eliminated without major complications, earning the respect of the general and several ministers. Due to his age, they did not formally give him very important positions, but if he carried out actions that would correspond to a high command without complaining, getting a small apartment in just 2 months in the only area that was habitable in the city.

Lawrence: (no matter where I am, people are the same everywhere, idiots, sometimes I wonder what makes others so different from me? Why do they seem such idiots in comparison? They get so carried away by her emotions, I didn't understand it until I met her, from my reaction you could say that from the view of others I am much more impulsive and sentimental than others, most of the time it's like I don't have emotions, but when I did I protested in the most violent way possible.

Considering that I can understand that my love can be dangerous, what can I do if I love more intensely than others? It's also not like I wanted to kill them from the beginning, it's just that they were a constant obstacle to being with her, stealing her attention, kindness, and love from her.

I remember how I look at idiot Ethan with a different affection and worst of all, much more intense than the one you had for me. The others were just brats that would waste the air around you, he had to eliminate them.

I don't regret what I did, but I would like to know if I hadn't done everything I did.

Would you love me more? Your actions show me submission to me, not love, I want her love from her, I want her to love me like I do, that she wants me as I wanted her. She that she dreams of me like she does every night, I want her to be her dreams, not her nightmares. I would do whatever it takes to make you forget them and only remember me, if I could turn back time I would have killed them before you knew them and I would go for you, so he would love me the same way if he had known you were alive...

Time is cruel and does not stop or go back for a second, I can only move forward and pave our way. To prevent others from getting in the way again, I will make our future so bright that it overshadows what you consider to be bad memories.

Morning came and you could only tell from Lawrence's wristwatch that the sun didn't reach this cold basement. Mc was in bed she couldn't sleep all night knowing what she had done and with whom she had done it she couldn't feel more than a despicable being she knew that what she had done was to be able to survive and have a life outside of that basement even so she felt very alone Lawrence was sleeping peacefully on the other side of the mattress with only his white shirt and underwear mc, on the contrary, she was fully dressed as soon as Lawrence fell asleep she tried to clean the body with one of the bottles of pure alcohol, since not wanting to wastewater, he put on his clothes and tried to sleep without success until Lawrence's alarm went off pretending to be asleep so as not to see him.

Lawrence: (looks like she's still asleep but she's fully clothed that's kind of weird but I guess it's because she was cold women are more sensitive to cold who would say she'd do something like that in the middle of an apocalypse most adults are idiots feeling that they are superior because of their age, but I must accept that they were right in this I had never felt so good in my life so perhaps the drama they made when referring to this was not an exaggeration she asked me if she would have enjoyed it too, she he didn't complain about anything his face looked embarrassed but for me it's certainly lovely we didn't make much noise because of the zombies we're in the basement but it's better not to risk it I'm glad I could control myself because it certainly cost me too much I think I should go clean up, but the showers are on the second floor there shouldn't be a problem she should go take a bath too it must be uncomfortable after sweating so much, but I'd better go first and when I'm done I will not take her to bathe there is water in the tank it is not potable to drink but enough to bathe)

/Lawrence changed and quietly left the basement for the showers while mc got out of bed not knowing where Lawrence went cooking half a can of canned meat with a small pot of rice, salt, and what little pepper was left until Lawrence arrived in the basement to find mc serving on the plastic plates at the desks leaving the dishes ready/

Lawrence: wow you woke up in a good mood, you've never cooked before it smells great, enjoy

Mc: thanks, by the way, good morning

Lawrence: It actually looks good, it's not bad, thank you very much, sorry for not letting you know where I was going, I just went to the showers, after helping you clean up I'll take you so you can feel more comfortable. I know there are no things for the hair or anything like that but I got a bar of soap so that should suffice for now

Mc: thanks Lawrence

Lawrence: mc are you okay? I have no idea if what I did yesterday was okay for you, you didn't seem to dislike it anyway, I wanted to confirm if you feel okay

Mc: I'm just a little tired, that's all, don't worry, you didn't hurt me or anything like that, let's go to the showers? Lawrence: yes, of course, let's go

/ while mc is taking a bath, Lawrence is at the entrance of the bathroom trying not to let anything get close while he immerses himself in his thoughts /

Lawrence:(this should be enough to make sure she won't leave me and will obey me i guess after almost 3 months she finally broke and is in my total control psychology was right stockholm syndrome is powerful it doesn't matter if we now go to the safe zone she would stay by my side, but it doesn't seem wise to risk her in vain I wonder if only the safe zone would be closer if it were only I could try to climb as fast as possible I doubt those idiots realized the way zombies behave so I wouldn't have any distractions if she was safe in the basement there is food and everything I need how long would it take me to get a stable job 4 or 3 months maybe if I get it I'll bring her with me to a place where no one questions too much she wouldn't slave for the government and we could do what she wants so much it's decided i'll go to the safe zone i'll just get a nice position of power and bring her with me meanwhile she will be here safely locked up she would come maybe once a month to make sure she is alright)

/mc got out of the shower and they went to the basement together/

Mc: I need you to tell me what will happen? you decided we're leaving

Lawrence: I have a plan, I don't think you'll like it, but it's perfect, the best we could do is for me to go only to the safe zone, first don't make that face, listen to me.

If I go first with all the experiments I've done on zombies I'm very useful, I could show my knowledge and get a high position in the safe zone when I have it I'll bring you with me and we'll live comfortably and do just what you wanted I will not leave you alone at all I will come to see you once a month I do not think it will take more than 4months to get the job I'll make sure this is a safer place scaring away zombies is not a difficult task just trust me I would never leave you alone I do it because it's what you want and it's the best way you think

Mc: what you say makes sense, I want to trust you, but I'm afraid of being alone

Lawrence: I would never leave you I promise to keep my promise I'll come back for you just trust me /kisses mc's forehead/ wait for me understood I'll leave next week today is Friday meanwhile what could we do?

MC: Lawrence you are not afraid of what we did yesterday

Lawrence: No why should I be afraid?

Mc: Well, I had never done something like this in my life, honestly, I couldn't imagine doing it in the middle of a zombie apocalypse. I had no idea that I was going to do it so soon, I was only interested in studying, but I always thought that I would do it. I would always take great care of myself so that nothing bad happened to me

Lawrence: What happened did I hurt you in any way? Because you didn't tell me I would have stopped, I tried to be very delicate

Mc: no, that's not that, but I mean, you know in this new world there are no contraceptives or any way to avoid any accident and both of us are only very young and I don't want to have more problems in a world like this

Lawrence: I've never thought about it that carefully, but you're right, it would be irresponsible to bring more trouble when we can barely ensure we have food for ourselves, let alone someone else, it was very irresponsible of me not to think about it

Mc: I don't think there will be many problems due to my schedule, but I don't feel comfortable or safe doing anything until I can ensure that we can eat 3 times a day.

Lawrence: I would never allow myself to be like those idiots who, even though they were poor, had so many children that looked like rabbits, it seems so stupid to think that you eat with love

Mc: yes you are right

Lawrence: Don't worry when I go to the safe zone, I'll get the stability we need at all costs and we won't have to worry about that

Mc: why can't go with you from the beginning?

Lawrence: I would work too much and the food we will receive will be less than what you will eat here you would be hungry, cold, and tired unnecessarily, part of me could not concentrate 100% on achieving a high position, it is putting yourself at unnecessary risk and allowing those idiots of hurting you because I would need to be attentive almost always to get the job and I couldn't protect you as necessary

Mc: seeing it that way you're right, it's unnecessary to go through all that

7 From Lawrence's point of view

(Lawrence's thought you want to leave Why? Do you not see how our beautiful castle that I made for us as our home because you would want to leave we have more resources I do not want others to see you any idiot You deserve to even see you, you are better than anyone, you are not shit, you do not deserve to surround yourself with garbage, always seeing you talking about yourself, I cannot allow it)

Lawrence: no, that's not going to happen mc is that maybe he doesn't see it because you wanted to surround yourself with idiots who take advantage of your naivety it seems ridiculous to me, didn't you see them fighting like idiots even when death comes their way I would only be with you putting in danger

Mc: Lawrence ENOUGH! Your god complex is insufferable, accept reality we are not going to survive alone 2 years pass and after that we will live on potatoes and hopefully tomatoes, does that seem like a decent life to you

Lawrence: not exactly, but you think a good life living as slaves for the government would be desired of us, anytime don't be stupid we're much better off here

Mc: you say you love me, but that's a lie if you loved me you wouldn't want me to die FIRST OF ALL I WANT TO LIVE!! I don't get to this point to give up I want a future I just want to eat 3 times a day and be able to plan a life

Lawrence: It doesn't matter what you want, you won't get anywhere on your own.

MC: Lawrence please listen to me I want to feel that I have a reason to be alive that I come here for something

Lawrence: And what is that something you could have in the safe zone that we can't have here?

Mc: since I was a girl I always dreamed of having a family of my own, I dreamed of cooking taking care of children working, I had so many dreams that now they are gone, but this safe area gives a door a little hope that if it happens I can be happy with you even after all you've done you're all i have left but it's not enough to be alive

Lawrence: would you like to have a family? I did not know that

MC: Lawrence, you know things that the army probably doesn't know, no one but you knew how sensitive zombies are to noise, I know that with everything you learned about them, you could stand out from the rest. the safe zone next to me?

Lawrence: I'm not an idiot, I know you would immediately run away from me Mc: of course I would never go to your side, you are the only person I trusted and the only one I have left even if I could I don't want to leave you, but I do have a good life

Lawrence : you are braver than you seem (the truth if what you say came true I wouldn't mind if I had power in the safe zone no one would come near you no one would dare to challenge me I could get rid of anyone with ease there would be no way to escape , but nothing assures me that I could achieve what you promise me, there should be a way to have a future that is not to eat vegetables for life, but I need time to think about it, plan it, see that you cannot escape from my side, I have all that to think carefully)

Lawrence: mc I need to think carefully about what you tell me, I don't promise you more than that (The reality is that the idea that I can be free and meet others I don't want anyone else to see you I don't want that to be He says with no one else I don't want I don't want You are mine and Although the truth is you are not the most perfect person for me you are simply perfect there is no way that I will let you, so pure and perfect, get close to him Besides the ilk of the world I can do his friend can socialize you can be and not depend completely on me that makes me sick I haven't come that far so that tomorrow you betray me and leave me I can't allow that and if that means eating only potatoes and tomatoes I'm willing to make the sacrifice Although I know you're right we couldn't last long in that state I wish I could have power I wish there wasn't a need to do this, but knowing how sociable you are and your need to be with others you know I don't think that could be it your kindness is one of the worst things oh i can't control you i can't control what you do or what you think what i want to do with you i can't do it i just wish you would be obedient but at the same time without losing your spark but i guess that's it what humans have does not have its good and bad parts if you could obey me 100% I think I would not hesitate to go to the safe zone with you, but since that is not the case I guess we are going to have to stay here at least until I can finally break you and make you obey everything I say I would like to see your smile while you obey everything I say That is my greatest desire)

MC: look (he takes out a pamphlet from the safe zone that has a map behind it to get there) you can see that they moved it, right, it's another pamphlet

Lawrence: How did you get it?

Mc: I've been able to get out of here for a week now, if I wanted to run away I would have already left with the map and the food without you noticing.

Lawrence: that's impossible how did you get out of here

Mc: listen to me Lawrence there are only two ways to be or you kill me like the rest and you stay here in this cold basement with my body until you run out of food or we go to the safe zone together

Lawrence: So you're not afraid to die right?

Mc: I'm not afraid of anything, every time I see you it's like seeing death in person and even so I'm here, believe me there's nothing that scares me

Lawrence: And if death doesn't scare you, tell me why you want to live.

Mc: don't go through all this in vain and if I'm going to die at least it's in a way that makes me proud

Lawrence: so you won't leave my side no matter what I do right

Mc: yes it is if you are going to kill me just do it once

Lawrence: Will you stay by my side and obey me no matter what?

MC: (takes a deep breath and looks directly into Lawrence's eyes) yes, if we go to the safe zone together I will obey everything you ask of me

/Lawrence approaches mc slowly and takes her face in his hands until he kisses her slowly, but with a lot of passion her face was very red and trembled somewhat anxiously while with her left arm she took mc by the waist bringing her body closer to her/

Lawrence: And as I am sure that you will obey me

/mc took a deep breath and without much thought kissed Lawrence quickly while Lawrence's hands approached his shoulders taking off his jacket while mc also took off Lawrence's jacket although he was a little nervous he tried to hide it Lawrence's hands went down to below of mc's shirt touching his abdomen his hands were hot and mc was very cold Lawrence took off mc's shirt leaving her only with her bra on top mc closed his eyes and said "I'll do what you tell me" all by himself I look at her with her impatient and anxious face that disgusted mc so much and she touched her hair she raised mc in her arms as if it were a fairy tale while mc just tried not to look away from her face despite the fear that had, Lawrence took her to the room where there were only some sheets and the inflatable mattress gently placed mc on top of the mattress while he only observed her from head to toe with a reddened face he took off his shirt long black ngas that he was wearing revealing his defined torso and arms without extremely exercised musculature, but that could be defined perfectly pants/

Lawrence: don't worry if you don't like something you just have to say it and I'll stop, but I'll try to be delicate, I don't want him to hate me more

Mc: ok...

/ Lawrence lowered mc's pants to her thighs and stopped to look at mc's crotch with her underwear and then completely removed her pants, touched mc's abdomen again with her hands until kissing him /

Lawrence: Your smell is like a drug to me, touching your delicate skin is driving me crazy. Since I saw you arrive I couldn't help but dream of having you like this at my complete disposal, now that you are, I just want us to be together without even a little distance between us, I want your body to scream that it's mine.

/Lawrence once a week goes outside to see if he can find something useful over time he found less and less useful things although occasionally he found clothes it was not very useful clothes in the middle of an apocalypse, even so whenever I found something that I considered nice for mc, I returned happily. He almost never looked for something for himself rarely did he really look for something for himself all the time looking for nice things to be able to keep her in the best possible shape, at the same time he neglected himself more and more physically to the point that his jacket was completely torn and almost unusable/ Lawrence: today was a good day look I found this for you it's a sweatshirt I know it's a little dirty, but you can tell it's new I found it at the mall

MC: thanks Lawrence... I wanted to talk to you about this some time ago I noticed that your jacket is a bit worn and I found some thread and a needle if you give it to me I can repair it for you at least enough for the next Patrol you can find something for yourself

Lawrence: I really hadn't even noticed that my jacket was ripped

MC: you must put yourself first, you always bring a lot of things for me and you have nothing if you neglect yourself too much you will get sick

Lawrence: Do you care about me?

Mc: Of course, if I can't allow something bad to happen to you, what would happen if you go out with this torn jacket, you'd be very cold and you'd probably get sick, and in this world without antibiotics, any cold could be fatal.

Lawrence: You've been even paler than usual lately.

MC: It's normal considering I haven't seen the sun in weeks.

Lawrence: you're right, but even though your skin is so pale you look good

Mc: Do I look good with a vitamin d deficiency?

Lawrence: No, well if what I mean is that it impresses me that no matter that I still find you beautiful. Actually, no girl had ever interested me before, not even physically, I was so focused on my studies, I think I never allowed myself to have any kind of attraction to anyone.

Mc: We all sacrifice something for studies, the truth is I have felt physical attraction for someone else in the past, but I didn't do much about it, I was still focused on being a good student

Lawrence: and what was your type is to say as Lucia the person to whom you felt attracted

Mc: I don't quite remember it was so long ago, but he was tall with broad shoulders I think he had black hair, but I'd be lying if I said I'm sure of that the truth is I never heard his voice I only saw him from afar there was no time to those things

Lawrence: Sounds a bit like Ethan at least the way you described it.

Mac: what? Not at all he wasn't that tall

Lawrence: I see I could be a bit nosy, but did you have a partner before?

Mc: that is a confusing question, that is, I was in a "relationship" for about 2 weeks, I don't think that counts haha, so I would say not really

Lawrence: so it's a no /he puts on such a nice and warm smile that mc can't help but smile/ Why did you go out with that person?

Mc: It was something too fast at that time I was a little depressed and he was very kind and when he is sinking he just holds on to the first trunk he sees to float even though it sounds cruel

Lawrence: not at all, I think it's what any human does at some point I think it's very mature that you accept your mistakes that seems remarkable in a person

Mc: I guess you're trying to get me to do that but with you right?

Lawrence: maybe

Mc: you don't feel guilty

Lawrence: To be honest, no.

MC: I see, how long until the canned meat is cooked?

Lawrence: It should be fine by now so could you bring the plates? I found a packet of pepper on my squad car the other day, do you want some?

Mc: yes please, you know my favorite seasoning for food is pepper then cumin whenever I cooked something it always had pepper

Lawrence: Do you like to cook?

Mc: yes, but just being left alone in the kitchen with the music I want and cooking what I want otherwise I don't have too much fun my mother is a bit strict so I'm afraid someone will see me while I cook

Lawrence: Was your mother good to you?

Mc:/ stops eating staying still for a moment like a computer processing the question/ she was someone complicated, but she loved me and I loved her. Did you and your parents get along?

Lawrence: they weren't very good parents let's just say they were only interested in what grades I got out of that they never really cared about me they gave more attention to my younger brother

MC: It sounds complicated, I guess neither of them got the best parents.

Lawrence: yes to be honest although it sounds very cruel I don't really miss them all they did was yell at me every time I got a tenth less, they were just idiots

Mc: that's quite direct... well I finished eating I think I'll go to my room /Lawrence grabbed mc's wrist as he was getting up from the floor/

Lawrence: Wait a minute, would you like to go up to the attic with me to see how the garden club is doing?

Mc: isn't it full of zombies?

Lawrence: once the bell stopped ringing most of them left and if you're with me there's not much to worry about. Do you want to go?

Mc: I really want to get some fresh air and sunlight /On the stairs on the way to the terrace mc accidentally stopped just a little behind Lawrence and looked at Ethan's bat on the ground/

mc's thought: Ethan your bat is here I wish you could come pick it up it's covered in blood I just hope it's not yours

Lawrence: you can't just stare, we have to go, what are you doing? /Sees the bat on the ground and then looks at mc's face / ok this is perfect it will be very useful /picks up the bat no matter it's covered in blood / let's go /grabs mc's wrist and they walk to the attic where a small greenhouse was waiting for you /

Mc: Wasn't this greenhouse full of flowers?

Lawrence: If so, unfortunately, the garden club thought it was a better idea to plant flowers than something useful, but at least the seeds were in the shed, so I was able to plant some things for some time, the only thing that has borne fruit so far is these cherry tomatoes

Mc: they look very cute they must be delicious

Lawrence: I would not have so much faith in them, the truth is that gardening is not my forte

Mc: As long as they're edible it should be fine. What else have you planted?

Lawrence: Well, I also planted your favorite strawberries, but some carrots didn't turn out very well, but I don't think they'll be ready any time soon. I still need to perfect the watering technique.

Mc: If my partner was the leader of the gardening club at my school, she always complained about how different the amount of water was and how to distribute it depending on the plant and how the others always ruined everything, she said that she prefers to be just her in the club have the whole garden to herself

Lawrence: Like a secret garden, remember when we secretly went up here for you to see the flowers when they were still alive without any of the boys knowing?

Mc: I do remember how beautiful this place was, but technically speaking it wasn't very useful. Does the plant you gave me still exist?

Lawrence: no, I don't know where she is, she must be dead, but here's more of her She's smaller, but she doesn't contribute anything by herself, you know before this was our secret garden and now even though the boys aren't here it's still like that no one knows about this place and now it's just the two of us

Mc: ... If I think you're right/I'm starting to get even more scared of the coldness with which Lawrence refers to the boys, he has Ethan's bat in his hand as if he hadn't died trying to defend himself with it, how if he bat like it wasn't full of possibly his blood i just grabbed it like it was the most normal thing in the world shit how the hell i never suspected him the razor the brooch all that he did and i never thought he could be the culprit i feel so stupid I wish I could have another chance if only I could turn back time/

Lawrence: what are you thinking mc you seem distressed

Mc: nothing is just that the bat belonged to Ethan is covered in blood...

Lawrence: don't worry I'll wash it soon.

/ a month has passed since lawrence rang the school bell they already had a daily routine together and although mc kept being sad he was getting better at hiding his pain and resentment towards lawrence, mc slept in a separate room from lawrence there were many rooms in that basement though they were all small just barely big enough for a single bed and a nightstand though none of those things were actually in the room just an air mattress on the floor and a set of sheets on the floor though because the mattress was much better than the floor where he slept before mc couldn't sleep every time he closed his eyes he saw and heard the boys begging for help wanting to be with them and avoid everything that happened but of course they are just dreams /

Mc: lawrence, do you think that one day this will end?

Lawrence: if you mean the apocalypse no, I don't think it will end and I really like it that way

MC: You really like to eat canned food and waste energy even for the simplest thing like turning on a lamp.

Lawrence: Of course I don't like it, but there are things I do enjoy about this decaying world.

Mc: yes? Tell me what you enjoy in this world because I don't see a good thing

Lawrence: Did you really enjoy studying until 11 or 12 in the library only to have a role that didn't even mean a comfortable life in the future?

MC: I would rather study until late at night again than be here

Lawrence: well anyway it doesn't matter what you want there is no way you can get out of here or tell me you prefer to be outside waiting for your death alone?

Mc: While I'm here, I'm just waiting for my death, only with you the same, how long do you think we're going to survive?

Lawrence: according to my calculation there is food for 3 years here without any problems so no your death is not very close

Mc: and after those 3 years what? Tell me we wait to die of hunger, thirst and cold

Lawrence: Of course I will never let anything bad happen to you.

Mc: what do you want to do with me? Come on tell me lawrence what are you going to do with me you are going to kill me like the others as soon as I bore you

Lawrence: do you really think that getting bored of you is possible? You gave me an umbrella more than 1 year ago and I still remember it like it was yesterday and I did all this to be by your side and still you think I can get bored like nothing

Mc: lawrence what are you going to do with me tell me the truth it is impossible that you have not thought in the future what are you going to do with me

Lawrence: I want you to be always by my side I have been planting vegetables in what used to be the garden club and I modified the school's water tank a bit to use rainwater I want to make this building perfect for both of us to live in together forever ..

Mc: will we live on vegetables?

Lawrence: I know it's not very effective but it would be temporary when I get better conditions

Mc: lawrence in this world that sounds impossible I trust your abilities don't get me wrong but that is not something we can live with for a long time without having some iron deficiency or getting sick easily

Lawrence: no I've gotten some supplements and there's a lot of canned meat if we waste it we can last even longer they're canned they never really expire don't worry I'll always find a way to keep you safe

/ Gently grabs a strand of mc's hair and brings it close to his face/ you have nothing to worry about I know you think I can't keep you safe but I promise to keep you safe if it costs me my life Don't you remember what happened when you left here and you met that zombie? Believe me if I tell you that I am capable of giving my life for you, don't you believe me?

Mc: ...Lawrence I-

Lawrence: if I have to prove it to you a thousand times I will / hugs Mc while mc freezes at first when he falls and puts his arms around his body, lawrence slowly approaches his left hate and whispers / we have a life whole together to prove to you that I'm telling the truth~

Mc: I know you are capable of taking risks, even so I can't help but be so afraid of you.