I will ALWAYS be VIP. I cried when I watched the Still Life MV and MV reaction by the juniors.

I am late but I don’t follow K-POP like I used to, but it was a huge part of my life and got me through some of the darkest times in my life too. Especially Big Bang. I fell in love with them in 2006 after DB5K and Super Junior got me interested in K-pop. My adolescent to college years were carried by BB. When I went through my suicidal phase in college, BB music got me through it. That’s why my first tattoo I got in 2011 was “Until Whenever” (with “Trust Your Struggle”)

2011 was not only rough for me, but Big Bang went through a lot that year too. It was, in my mind, a sign of solidarity with them. They got me through my dark period, I will always be there for theirs.

As I got older, responsibilities grew, and K-POP blew up. So many new groups and I couldn’t keep up. But I kept tabs on YG Family (Despite the company itself, I Stan all the artists) and when everyone left for military services and Seungri’s scandal I honestly thought that could have been it.

But I cried watching that MV. All the nostalgia, flash backs, the lyrics, and feelings…was overwhelming. I haven’t been on tumblr in forever but this was the platform and community who freaked and geeked out with me about Koop. My safe haven.