Michael Kovach

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About 3-4 months ago Michael started becoming romantically involved (verbally, not physically) with another person and was not honest with me about it. To add important context Michael and I have been polyamorous for the vast majority of our relationship. I have had a second partner for a while who Michael has also been close friends with since well before I started dating them. Michael was of course free to have multiple partners as well, the issue is that he was dishonest and broke my trust.

I didn’t plan on all of this coming out this way, but over the last couple months my trust has continued to be repeatedly broken and I’ve seen little effort on Michael’s part to repair our relationship. I don’t hate Michael or think he’s a bad person. He just has things to work through and he’s starting therapy soon while I have also started therapy for my own struggles.

The last few years, my relationship with Ashley has felt more like a very tight-knit friendship, and I've admittedly been comfortable with that. Though, I failed to recognize that this also created distance between us and slowly caused my romantic feelings for Ashley to lessen over time.

Early into our relationship, the discussion of polyamory came up, and while it was unfamiliar territory for me, I was willing to try it. A few years later, once Ashley started dating her current partner, I saw how happy the both of them were and it left me feeling relieved and happy for them - which unfortunately led to me unintentionally distancing myself further in our relationship.

I very recently developed feelings for another person and we became romantically involved over text. I failed to properly communicate this with Ashley and ended up hurting her, especially given how distant I had become by that point. While my intention was to slowly break things off as gently as possible to avoid hurting Ashley, I ended up giving her false hope in repairing our relationship even though I had already made up my mind - and I deeply regret that. I made things more hurtful than they needed to be.

At the end of the day, I love and care about Ashley and genuinely wish the best for her. Which is why I believe the most responsible, healthy thing we can do for each other is give each other space and focus on our own journeys as we heal. She's already started therapy, and I've got my first session tomorrow. I'm going to be taking a lot of time to focus specifically on myself and my cat, Rose.

ITS OUT

PART ONE IS OUT