Getting older and realizing you love your parents objectively but do not at all like them personally is …exceptional, I think. Esp when they stay fucking up bettering aspects of your relationship that have been damaged bc of them directly. I mean idk really. All I know is it legitimately makes me question why they didn’t just abort me when they very well could have Its like, do I wish you weren’t my parents — or that I wasn’t your kid? Whichever would have absolved me from experiencing this life (and being part of their toxic families) at all, honestly. Because it’s such a massive mindfuck coming to realize your parents never matured or that they stunted themselves having kids the way they did in the first place. My parents absolutely fucked themselves having me and my siblings; esp so consecutively and so young w/o money or education. They fucked us extensively too, of course. They definitely fucked us, too. 🙄
















