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i still watch NMB and Nogi’s stuffs but I don’t have an oshimen anymore. I doubt I can find someone who makes me invest that much time and money like Paruru did lol

To everyone who has always supported me until now, thank you very much.

My mind went blank whenever I stood on stage at the theater. That was my kenkyuusei era.

They suddenly appointed me to the center position after the promotion. I was scared and didn’t know what to do. That was my team 4 era.

I was overwhelmed by the performances of Kashiwagi-san who danced beside me and Milky’s fishing skills. The songs were always very idolish, that made me and Kojima-san somewhat uncomfortable. That was my team B era lol.

Perhaps the staffs knew about that so they moved me and Kojima-san to team A. Takamina-san was also there, she appointed me to the position of Maeda-san who had graduated. Even though I was a little restless, that was a very happy team A era.

After that is team A without Takamina-san, today I also have to say goodbye. And soon Kojima-san will leave too. I was both happy and worried at the same time when Kojima-san told me: “This is really the end, isn’t it? We have to say bye bye after this, right? What should I do now?”. Actually, I requested to sing Risuke together with Kojima-san. I was very happy when I heard that she also wanted to sing with me.

Some fans of Itano-san and Maeda-san became my supporters. It must be because I am loved by my dear senpai.

I received messages from Itano-san and Kasai-san. I met Takamina-san and Maeda-san recently. I also met Oshima-san in the studio when filming for a program to promote our new dramas. I heard that Shinoda-san mentioned me on her twitter too.

I am also loved by my dear kouhai. I am such a happy person.

What made me happy the most is that about 3 of my very first fans came to the theater to meet me. My tears suddenly fell down when I sent them off. Then I cried again when reading their letters. Also dozen of people who has always supporting me in the past few years all came to see me, I don’t really remember the rest (sorry lol) but I want to thank you all. And then so many people specifically gathered in front of Don Quijote Akihabara because of me, I was really happy. There was this one person who always cosplay in HS event just to made me laugh, he was wearing some shiny team A's pink colored thing that day. I was in the car when I saw him riding a bike home. It was very cold, I wonder if he was okay lol

I will graduate from AKB48 today.

I will work hard so that my fans can still support me after my graduation. Also I am working on some secret plans for my fans. 

it would be such an honor if everyone could watch over my future activities.

I don’t know if it because I was too relaxed but my body was not feeling well after my graduation stage so I had to get some IV drips. I finally had enough sleep today, I can challenge the Kouhaku!

Regardless of how the result will be, I am really grateful to be able to stand on that stage.

I will write more mobile mail if I have time

If I'm busy, I will write on twitter

Even though it’s Golden Week, it doesn’t even feel like Silver, let alone Golden~~ At least let my heart feel some ‘golden’ please There’s this line from the Rilakkuma’s book ‘My heart muscles are in pain’ That’s exactly what I’m feeling.