“Revenge of the Nerds”

(With pieces from Lena Dunham’s “Famesick”, Leonard Cohen’s “Let Us Compare Mythologies”, Dodie Bellamy’s “Pink Steam”, William Burroughs’ “Nova Express”, Kathy Acker’s “Blood and Guts in Highschool”, Eve Babitz’s “Slow Days & Fast Company”, Joan Didion’s “Slouching Toward Bethlehem”, & The Kabir Book)

I was complaining of a pulled neck muscle at six, a bad knee at eight, sciatica at 16 like a hanging gimmick.

I was the Venus mob. The vegetable people.

A death in orgasm. A time rocket of arousal.

Respond, release, regret, repeat

That is what it is all about, isn’t it?

Some people resist, some people don’t want to know

Their anxiety to be right embraces & penetrates everything

Even though I am not as thin as George Harrison, it is going to be all right.

My happiness is mine

My happiness is colored beads in the doorways, crayoned flowers on the walls, paper things for the wind.

Each time I visit her I talk to my inner lover and I say: The moon bird’s head is filled with nothing but thoughts of the moon.

You Can’t Always Get Whatcha Want …