i cant stop thinking about dad who rapes you when hes drunk. hitting you and being extra rough because hes just so angry and out of it, but also occasionally becoming soft and going “shh its okay” “just let me, alright?” “im sorry baby,” the drunken ramblings about how much you tease him and how badly hes wanted this and how much he hates you for making him like this, the taste of alcohol when he kisses you and just the scent of it all over from how close he is… im losing it.














