hush, when no one is around my dear.

if you love me, you don’t love me in a way i understand.

there are so many things i’m not allowed to tell you.

you say ‘i’ll give you anything,’ but you never come through.

please, for just one night, will you lie down next to me?

you wanted happiness. i can’t blame you for that.

i owe you, i owe you everything.

tell me you love this, tell me you’re not miserable.

you didn’t show up. i kept waiting.

why take more than we need? because we can.

i want to explain myself to myself in an understandable way.

people like to think war means something.

you are here, you are here, you’re still right here.

sorry about how i ruined everything by saying it out loud.

will you defend yourself?

let’s not talk about it, let’s just not talk.

how much can you change and get away with it, before you turn into someone else, before it’s some kind of murder?

i ran and i knew you wouldn’t catch me.

when you have nothing to say, set something on fire.

you still get to be the hero.

tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us.

i’m bleeding, i’m not just making conversation.

eventually something you love is going to be taken away. 

you want a better story. who wouldn’t?

i hope it’s love. i’m trying really hard to make it love.

we are not dirty.

i will come back from the dead for you.

you are a fever i’m learning to live with.

do you want to go home now?

there’s nowhere to go.

i’d rather quit. i’d rather be sad.

unfortunately, we don’t have that kind of time.

you take the things you love and tear them apart.

there is no way to make this story interesting.

i don’t think i can take this much longer.

do you love yourself? 

sorry about the blood in your mouth. i wish it was mine.

even when i look away i am still looking.

i think i need to do this alone.

what more do you want?

you saved my life.

someone has to leave first.

i swear, i end up feeling empty, like you’ve taken something out of me.

will you love me even more when i’m dead?

      PREGNANCY -

❝ We’re going to be parents! ❞ ❝ Did you feel him/her/them kick!? ❞ ❝ Do you want to feel the baby? ❞ ❝ I’m pregnant…and it’s yours. ❞ ❝ Do you think I’ll make a good mother/father? ❞ ❝ What are you hoping for? ❞ ❝ I feel so nauseous today… ❞ ❝ What should we name him/her/them? ❞ ❝ How many diapers do you think we’ll need? ❞ ❝ You’re crying over a puppy? ❞ ❝ Is just strawberry okay? They didn’t have strawberries and cream. ❞ ❝ I’ve read this book four times I’m basically an expert by now. ❞ ❝ Boy or girl? ❞ ❝ Wait, do we have everything on this list I found? ❞ ❝ Can you put the crib together? I’m so tired. ❞ ❝ This kid can come out anytime it’s ready. ❞       ❝ You’re glowing. ❞ ❝ How far along are you? ❞ ❝ Please don’t freak out…but I’m pregnant. I SAID DON’T FREAK OUT. ❞ ❝ Hospital. Now! ❞ ❝ I think that was a contraction… ❞ ❝ The due date’s not until next week! ❞

     NEW BABY -

❝ S/He’s your kid before five in the morning. ❞ ❝ We need to go on a diaper run again. ❞ ❝ We’re out of formula–where’s the other can!? ❞ ❝ Ugh, s/he spit up on my good shirt! ❞ ❝ S/he won’t stop crying, I don’t know what to do. ❞         ❝ Please take him/her, I’m going to go crazy with the screaming. ❞ ❝ Is it even possible for a baby to scream so much!? ❞ ❝ Should they be breathing like that? ❞ ❝ I need to go check on the baby. ❞     ❝ If you never put him/her down you’ll spoil him/her. ❞ ❝ Daddy/Mommy’s little girl/boy! ❞ ❝ Good morning, little spawn of Satan! ❞ ❝ Shhh, they’re finally asleep.  ❞     ❝ Dammit, I just got them to sleep! ❞ ❝ Be careful, s/he’s a hair puller…. ❞ ❝ Where’s the pacifier!? ❞ ❝ I can’t find his/her blanket, please help me. ❞     ❝ I’ve been up since four this morning, it’s your turn. ❞ ❝ I found you and the baby sleeping in the recliner at six am and it was so precious. ❞ ❝ Stroller, diaper bag, playpen, blanket, bottles, what else do we need before we go to your parents? ❞ ❝ A babysitter!? Are you insane!? ❞     ❝ You’re going to spoil them. ❞     ❝ We can’t go out with the baby, that’s just asking for trouble. ❞ ❝ Baby’s awake… ❞ ❝ S/he’s so precious…. ❞ ❝ This is our son/daughter…. ❞ ❝ We make damn beautiful babies. ❞ ❝ Look at his/her little feet… ❞ ❝ S/he has your eyes. ❞ ❝ Do not dress him/her in that! ❞     ❝ Be careful with him/her! ❞ ❝ Did you remember to pack his/her toy? ❞ ❝ His/her first tooth came in today. Already bit me.❞ ❝ Did you hear that? That was a cough.❞           

        CHILDREN -

❝  i’m still hurting.  ❞

❝  ____ is probably feeling just fine.  ❞

❝  what about lies? what about things that you swore to be true?  ❞

❝  run away, like it’s simple, like it’s right.  ❞

❝  maybe i’d see how you could be so certain that we had no chance at all.  ❞

❝  i’m breaking my mother’s heart. the longer i stand looking at you the more i hear it splinter and crack from ninety miles away.  ❞

❝  i’ve been waiting for someone like you.  ❞

❝  the minute i first met you i could barely catch my breath.  ❞

❝  well yeah, nobody’s perfect! it’s tragic but it’s true.  ❞

❝  you are the story i should write.  ❞

❝  i think that i could be in love with someone like you.  ❞

❝  i guess i can’t believe you really came.  ❞

❝  see, i’m smiling. that means i’m happy that you’re here.  ❞

❝  i mean we’ll have to try a little harder, to make this love as special as it was five years ago.  ❞

❝  and you’re mine.  ❞

❝  with all we’ve had to go through we’ll end up twice as strong.  ❞

❝  you know what makes me crazy? i’m sorry, can i say this? you know what makes me nuts?  ❞

❝  you could be here with me or be there with them — as usual, guess which you pick!  ❞

❝  and i know in your soul it must drive you crazy that you won’t get to play with your little girlfriends!  ❞

❝  i swear to god i’ll never understand how you can stand there straight and tall and see i’m crying and not do anything at all.  ❞

❝  i’ve got a singular impression things are moving too fast.  ❞

❝  maybe i can’t follow through — but oh, what else am i supposed to do?  ❞

❝  i’m a part of that.  ❞

❝  and it’s true i tend to follow in his stride. instead of side by side, i take his cue.  ❞

❝  i said i’d stick it out and follow through.  ❞

❝  and then he smiles, and nothing else makes sense.  ❞

❝  first, a story.  ❞

❝  then the clock upon the wall began to glow…  ❞

❝  i’ve got to make due with the time i’ve got.  ❞

❝  don’t you think now’s a good time to be the ambitious freak you are?  ❞

❝  have i mentioned today how lucky i am to be in love with you?  ❞

❝  he wants me, he wants me, but he ain’t gonna get me!  ❞

❝  i’ve found my guiding light, i tell the stars each night.  ❞

❝  son of a bitch, i guess i’m doing something right!  ❞

❝  so hurry up schmuck, get unstuck and get on the scene!  ❞

❝  have you been inside the museum? we should go meet the dinosaurs.  ❞

❝  will you share your life with me for the next ten minutes?  ❞

❝  there are so many lives i want to share with you. i will never be complete until i do.  ❞

❝  i don’t know how anybody survives in this life without someone like you.  ❞

❝  i want to die knowing i had a long, full life in your arms.  ❞

❝  will you share your life with me for the next ten lifetimes?  ❞

❝  i do.  ❞

❝  you can not touch them. in fact, you can’t even look at them!  ❞

❝  but it’s fine, it’s fine, it’s fine — i mean, i’m happy!  ❞

❝  it’s not a problem, just a challenge. it’s a challenge! to resist temptation.  ❞

❝  i shouldn’t care what she thinks since i can’t fuck her anyways!  ❞

❝  when you come home to me i’ll wear a sweeter smile and hope that for a while you’ll stay.  ❞

❝  i am a good person. i’m an attractive person. i am a talented person.  ❞

❝  jesus christ, i suck, i suck, i suck!  ❞

❝  i will not be the girl who gets asked how it feels to be trotting along at the genius’ heels!  ❞

❝  can we please, for a minute, stop blaming and say what you feel?  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, we’d never have gotten this far.  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, we wouldn’t be having this fight.  ❞

❝  don’t we get to be happy?  ❞

❝  no one can give you courage. no one can thicken your skin.  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, i couldn’t have stood before all of our friends and said ‘this is the life i choose. this is the thing i can’t bear to lose.’  ❞

❝  this is the life i choose. this is the thing i can’t bear to lose.  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, i wouldn’t have loved you at all.  ❞

❝  i thought, i can do better than that.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to change a thing, just stay with me.  ❞

❝  i want you, you, and nothing but you. miles and piles of you.  ❞

❝  say you’ll move in with me.  ❞

❝  nobody needs to know.  ❞

❝  hold on, don’t cry yet.  ❞

❝  since i need to be in love with someone, maybe i could be in love with someone like you.  ❞

❝  don’t kiss me goodbye again.  ❞

❝  you want the last word, you want me to laugh, but leave it for now.  ❞

❝  goodbye until tomorrow. goodbye until the next time you call.  ❞

❝  i have been waiting for you.  ❞

❝  it’s not about another shrink. it’s not about another compromise.  ❞

❝  i’m not the only one who’s hurting here.  ❞

❝  i could never rescue you, no matter how i tried.  ❞

❝  all i could do was love you hard and let you go.  ❞

❝  god, i loved you so.  ❞

‘  i’ll  find  you  again ,  wherever  we  end  up  next .  ’

‘  the  enormity  of  my  desire  disgusts  me .  ’

‘  please ,  one  more  kiss  in  the  kitchen  before  we  turn  the  lights  off .  ’

‘  i’ve  been  lost  but  i’m  here  now .  you’re  the  only  person  who  has  ever  been  able  to  find  me .  ’

‘  almost  dead  yesterday ,  maybe  dead  tomorrow ,  but  alive ,  gloriously  alive ,  today .  ’

‘  you  are  not  broken .  ’

‘  you  can  love  and  be  loved ,  despite  what  may  feel  like  the  eternally  brutal  nature  of  the  world .  ’

‘  i  did  violence  to  my  own  heart .  ’

‘  will  i  be  forgiven  for  the  sins  i  did  not  commit ,  but  created ?  ’

‘  i  would  never  kiss  anyone  who  doesn’t  burn  me  like  the  sun .  ’

‘  i  would  rather  break  the  world  than  lose  you .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  in  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  i  didn’t  know .  i  had  no  idea  how  greedy  my  heart  really  was .  ’

‘  is  that  why  the  idea  of  losing  you  torments  me  so  much ?  ’

‘  how  long  have  i  been  without  you ?  ’

‘  am  i  foolish  for  wanting  this ?  it  will  end  in  flames .  it  always  does .  ’

‘  sorry  about  the  blood  in  your  mouth .  i  wish  it  was  mine .  ’

‘  if  i  love  you ,  is  that  a  fact  or  a  weapon ?  ’

‘  tell  me  how  all  this ,  and  love  too ,  will  ruin  us .  ’

‘  and  you  realize  the  one  person  in  the  world  who  loves  you  isn’t  the  one  you  thought  it  would  be .  ’

‘  it  cannot  be  a  mistake  to  have  cared .  it  cannot  be  an  error  to  have  tried .  it  cannot  be  incorrect  to  have  loved .  ’

‘  finally ,  i  plead  guilty  of  adoring  you .  ’

‘  a  child  weaned  on  poison  considers  harm  a  comfort .  ’

‘  without  realizing ,  i  find  it  in  myself  that  i  cannot  stop  thinking  about  you .  ’

‘  tomorrow ,  when  i  wake  up ,  i  promise ,  i  will  be  better .  ’

‘  someone  has  to  leave  first .  this  is  a  very  old  story .  there  is  no  other  version  of  this  story .  ’

‘  when  i  imagine  myself ,  i  am  always  leaving .  i  couldn’t  draw  my  own  face  if  god  asked .  ’

‘  do  we  simply  stare  at  what’s  horrible  and  forgive  it ?  ’

‘  i  wanted  to  let  go  of  the  pain  even  though  it  was  the  last  thing  that  felt  alive  from  you .  ’

‘  have  i  endured  loneliness  with  grace ?  ’

‘  i’ll  be  your  slaughterhouse ,  your  killing  floor ,  your  morgue  and  final  resting ,  walking  around  with  this  bullet  inside  me  ‘cause  i  couldn’t  make  you  love  me  and  i  am  tired  of  pulling  your  teeth .  ’

‘  and  then  my  soul  saw  you  and  kind  of  went ,  ‘ oh ,  there  you  are .  i’ve  been  looking  for  you . ’  ’

‘  sometimes  it  feels  like  someone  else  is  wearing  my  body .  ’

‘  i  spent  my  life  arguing  how  i  mattered  until  it  didn’t  matter .  ’ 

‘  who  knew  my  haven  would  be  my  coffin ?  ’

‘  dead  is  the  safest  i’ve  ever  been .  ’

‘  i’ve  never  been  so  alive .  ’ 

‘  you  know  what  i  was  gonna  tell  you  before ,  but  didn’t  have  the  nerve ?  you  got  your  name  written  all  over  me .  i  got  my  name  written  on  you ,  too .  ’ 

‘  you  already  are  something .  you  always  were .  and  you  still  have  time  to  be .  ’

‘  you  know  me  by  heart .  it  infuriates  me  that  you  know  me  by  heart .  ’ 

‘  why  am  i  waiting  for  you ?  hungering  and  thirsting  for  you  in  every  cranny  of  my  soul  and  even  in  my  ribs ?  ’ 

‘  you  came  with  a  handful  of  pain  and  a  smile  which  broke  the  ground  under  my  feet  as  the  earthquake  does  when  two  people  meet .  ’

‘  the  only  good  thing  is  that  i’m  getting  used  to  suffering .  ’

‘  the  return  to  time  was  not  my  choice .  ’

‘  we  are  built  to  live  inside  each  other .  this  means  we  are  built  to  ruin .  ’

‘  time  does  not  bring  relief ;  you  all  have  lied .  ’

‘  time  does  not  know  how  to  keep  our  hopes  safe .  ’

‘  you  needed  me  so  much  that  you  had  to  end  me .  ’

‘  there  are  days  where  i  am  morbidly  in  love  with  you ,  and  this  is  one  of  those  days .  ’

‘  i  know  no  end  to  desiring  you .  ’

‘  i  fear  that  i  am  both  too  much  yet  not  enough .  ’

‘  yes ,  yes ,  yes ,  i  do  like  you .  i  am  afraid  to  say  the  stronger  word .  ’ 

‘  a  heart’s  a  heavy  burden .  ’

‘  life ,  as  i  see  it ,  is  all  about  farewells  rather  than  reunions .  ’

‘  heaven  is  real  and  you  only  had  two  minutes  to  prove  it  to  me .  ’

‘  it  was  already  love .  ’

‘  everyone  desires  love  but  also  finds  it  impossible  to  believe  that  they  deserve  it .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to  and  then  i’ll  fall  like  my  knees  aren’t  already  bruised  from  doing  it  and  i’ll  remember  why  you’re  worth  the  ache .  ’

‘  of  course  i’ll  hurt  you .  of  course  you’ll  hurt  me .  of  course  we’ll  hurt  each  other .  but  this  is  the  very  condition  of  existence .  ’

‘  nothing  makes  me  sadder  and  nothing  makes  me  happier  than  you .  ’

‘  i  love  you  and  i  do  not  want  to  love  you ,  it  is  too  much  and  too  difficult .  ’

‘  grief  is  just  love  with  no  place  to  go .  ’

‘  i  felt  my  life  with  both  my  hands  to  see  if  it  was  there .  ’

‘  you  do  this ,  you  do .  you  take  the  things  you  love  and  you  tear  them  apart .  ’

‘  i  hope  it’s  love .  i’m  trying  really  hard  to  make  it  love .  ’

‘  if  you  touch  me  again  i  might  burn  up  in  the  cold  air .  ’

‘  i  asked  you  not  to  leave  several  times .  ’

‘  i’ve  only  adored  you  lifetimes  ago  and  here  we  are .  it’s  nice  to  see  you  again .  ’

‘  all  time  ever  does  is  pass  and  all  i  ever  do  is  remember .  ’

‘  i  feel  as  though  we  were  never  strangers ,  you  and  i ,  not  even  for  a  moment .  ’

‘  i’d  choose  you ;  in  a  hundred  different  lifetimes ,  in  a  hundred  worlds ,  in  any  version  of  reality ,  i’d  find  you  and  i’d  choose  you .  ’

‘  nothing  about  this  is  soft  but  we  pretend .  ’

‘  maybe  you  and  i  are  just  a  dream .  ’

‘  i  know  you  loved  me  too ,  you  knew  me ,  and  it  gladdens  my  heart .  ’

‘  i  promise  i  shall  never  give  up  and  that  i’ll  die  yelling  and  laughing .  ’

‘  i  don’t  do  anything  with  my  life  except  romanticize  and  decay  with  indecision .  ’

‘  the  world  was  made  so  that  we  could  find  each  other  in  it .  ’

‘  you  don’t  meet  the  people  you  love ,  you  recognize  them .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  this  body  knows  fear  like  a  front  porch  knows  welcome  –  it  is  always  coming  home .  ’

‘  i  miss  you  more  than  i  remember  you .  ’

‘  if  i  could  have  done  it  all  again ,  i  would  have  loved  you  better .  but  i  could  not  have  loved  you  more .  ’

‘  we  could  have  been  happy .  i  know  that ,  and  it  is  perhaps  the  hardest  thing  to  know .  ’

❝  i’m still hurting.  ❞

❝  ____ is probably feeling just fine.  ❞

❝  what about lies? what about things that you swore to be true?  ❞

❝  run away, like it’s simple, like it’s right.  ❞

❝  maybe i’d see how you could be so certain that we had no chance at all.  ❞

❝  i’m breaking my mother’s heart. the longer i stand looking at you the more i hear it splinter and crack from ninety miles away.  ❞

❝  i’ve been waiting for someone like you.  ❞

❝  the minute i first met you i could barely catch my breath.  ❞

❝  well yeah, nobody’s perfect! it’s tragic but it’s true.  ❞

❝  you are the story i should write.  ❞

❝  i think that i could be in love with someone like you.  ❞

❝  i guess i can’t believe you really came.  ❞

❝  see, i’m smiling. that means i’m happy that you’re here.  ❞

❝  i mean we’ll have to try a little harder, to make this love as special as it was five years ago.  ❞

❝  and you’re mine.  ❞

❝  with all we’ve had to go through we’ll end up twice as strong.  ❞

❝  you know what makes me crazy? i’m sorry, can i say this? you know what makes me nuts?  ❞

❝  you could be here with me or be there with them — as usual, guess which you pick!  ❞

❝  and i know in your soul it must drive you crazy that you won’t get to play with your little girlfriends!  ❞

❝  i swear to god i’ll never understand how you can stand there straight and tall and see i’m crying and not do anything at all.  ❞

❝  i’ve got a singular impression things are moving too fast.  ❞

❝  maybe i can’t follow through — but oh, what else am i supposed to do?  ❞

❝  i’m a part of that.  ❞

❝  and it’s true i tend to follow in his stride. instead of side by side, i take his cue.  ❞

❝  i said i’d stick it out and follow through.  ❞

❝  and then he smiles, and nothing else makes sense.  ❞

❝  first, a story.  ❞

❝  then the clock upon the wall began to glow…  ❞

❝  i’ve got to make due with the time i’ve got.  ❞

❝  don’t you think now’s a good time to be the ambitious freak you are?  ❞

❝  have i mentioned today how lucky i am to be in love with you?  ❞

❝  he wants me, he wants me, but he ain’t gonna get me!  ❞

❝  i’ve found my guiding light, i tell the stars each night.  ❞

❝  son of a bitch, i guess i’m doing something right!  ❞

❝  so hurry up schmuck, get unstuck and get on the scene!  ❞

❝  have you been inside the museum? we should go meet the dinosaurs.  ❞

❝  will you share your life with me for the next ten minutes?  ❞

❝  there are so many lives i want to share with you. i will never be complete until i do.  ❞

❝  i don’t know how anybody survives in this life without someone like you.  ❞

❝  i want to die knowing i had a long, full life in your arms.  ❞

❝  will you share your life with me for the next ten lifetimes?  ❞

❝  i do.  ❞

❝  you can not touch them. in fact, you can’t even look at them!  ❞

❝  but it’s fine, it’s fine, it’s fine — i mean, i’m happy!  ❞

❝  it’s not a problem, just a challenge. it’s a challenge! to resist temptation.  ❞

❝  i shouldn’t care what she thinks since i can’t fuck her anyways!  ❞

❝  when you come home to me i’ll wear a sweeter smile and hope that for a while you’ll stay.  ❞

❝  i am a good person. i’m an attractive person. i am a talented person.  ❞

❝  jesus christ, i suck, i suck, i suck!  ❞

❝  i will not be the girl who gets asked how it feels to be trotting along at the genius’ heels!  ❞

❝  can we please, for a minute, stop blaming and say what you feel?  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, we’d never have gotten this far.  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, we wouldn’t be having this fight.  ❞

❝  don’t we get to be happy?  ❞

❝  no one can give you courage. no one can thicken your skin.  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, i couldn’t have stood before all of our friends and said ‘this is the life i choose. this is the thing i can’t bear to lose.’  ❞

❝  this is the life i choose. this is the thing i can’t bear to lose.  ❞

❝  if i didn’t believe in you, i wouldn’t have loved you at all.  ❞

❝  i thought, i can do better than that.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to change a thing, just stay with me.  ❞

❝  i want you, you, and nothing but you. miles and piles of you.  ❞

❝  say you’ll move in with me.  ❞

❝  nobody needs to know.  ❞

❝  hold on, don’t cry yet.  ❞

❝  since i need to be in love with someone, maybe i could be in love with someone like you.  ❞

❝  don’t kiss me goodbye again.  ❞

❝  you want the last word, you want me to laugh, but leave it for now.  ❞

❝  goodbye until tomorrow. goodbye until the next time you call.  ❞

❝  i have been waiting for you.  ❞

❝  it’s not about another shrink. it’s not about another compromise.  ❞

❝  i’m not the only one who’s hurting here.  ❞

❝  i could never rescue you, no matter how i tried.  ❞

❝  all i could do was love you hard and let you go.  ❞

❝  god, i loved you so.  ❞