wtfalexx:
âIâd be happy to send you instead of me so you can pretend to my step-fatherâs perfect son for a night.â He offered with a light shrug. It wasnât like he made any effort at the parties, the most he did was dress up, show up, and end up in a closet with one of the rich guyâs daughters for an hour or two. He rested his head on his hand, chuckling a little. âItâs likeâŚwell, I donât know what itâs like. I guess Iâm justâŚscared? I donât know. Iâve had girlfriends before. Iâve loved the first one, but it wasnât likeâŚin love. Iâve known Gen for a while and everything thatâs annoying isnât really anymore and I fuckinâ hate it. She knows me. She knows my past. She knows things that make me tick and things that make me happy. She knows my passion and is 100 percent okay with a long distance thing when I graduate, but Iâm fuckinâ terrified of that shit. Iâm terrified of being in it for real and just screwing up like Iâve done with all the other ones. So I act as if I donât care, itâs better that way for me. To hide behind all the girls Iâve been fuckinâ since we got back.â
âMâgood, my own parents havenât talked tâme in years, forget crazy step-dadâs that arenât even my own.â He said with a sigh. Jesse listened to Alex talk, it was more or less a rant at this point about his feeling towards Gen, and every time he wanted to cut the other off he bit his tongue, letting him get it off his chest before cutting in. âThatâs just âbout the dumbest thing Iâve ever heard. What good is pushinâ her away gonâ be? If yâall love each other then yâneed tâjust give it a try, anâ if it doesnât work out then yâknow. What good is gonâ come of all of this fightinâ and shit that you two put each other through just so after it all yâcan just say âwhat if?â What if Genâs the love of your life and yâlet her go, on awful terms, just âcause yâcouldnât bring yourself tâtry anâ be with her? Youâre not gonna get her back if yâdo that.â















