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Part 1 - Friends Since the Start

Pairing: Jacob Black x Human!Fem!Reader. Description: Reader has known Jacob since they where little kids, and as they get older her feelings for him begin to grow. A/N: Bella is in this story, I assume they hung out with her as well I just couldn't think of how to fit it in. - keww

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Your first memory of Jacob came from when you were about 6. You were playing on La Push, scouring the sandy shores for cool shells or any washed up creatures you could find- typical kid stuff.

After a whole day of running up and down the beach, you were sat on the sand, watching the sun hide behind the ocean as you sorted through the treasures you had collected that day. A push on your right shoulder, turning your head to a boy only a year younger than you, his hands held out right in front of your face, and a front-toothless grin on his.

"(Y/N)! It's for you! 'Caus we're best friends forever!" looking down into his grubby, sand covered paws was a little bracelet, made from broken shells strung along a fishing line, some of which that had familiar patterns.

"Forever?"

"Forever!" with that you jumped onto him, pulling him into the biggest bear hug you could muster.

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When playing hide & seek, it is only fun for the people that know they are playing it. One summer, while you and Jake were spending your time foraging around in the woods, you decided it would be a great idea to play a game, only you forgot to mention it to him.

After successfully sneaking away while Jacob was distracted by a rare kind of newt in the stream, you had hidden yourself behind a large tree trunk, sheathed in moss, and fallen leaves. Crouching low and your hand over your mouth to catch any escaping giggles, as you could barely keep yourself together at the thought of Jacob unable to find you.

Five minutes had passed... Then ten...and so on...

The woods got quieter, and the light started to fall behind the dense tree-line. The game stopped feeling like a game as you began to get cold, and jumpy at the scurry-ings of the forest around you.

Eventually, you stood up stiffly- "Okay.. You win I'm done hiding now.." You looked around, no one in sight, and the woods around you darkening quicker than before.

"Jake..??" You called a little louder, but to no answer. Your breath quickened, as you grabbed onto your shirt in a effort to soothe yourself as your face scrunched up to hold back your fear.

Then you heard it. Snapping branches, a heavy thudding getting louder and louder, you twisted around trying to discern the direction.

"(Y/N)!" A familiar voice- loud, and scared. Not annoyed, not playing- scared.

Before you could respond, he burst through the dense brush with wild eyes, and flushed face, hair clinging damply to his head, and a scratch on his cheek. Spotting you, he froze- just for a moment, before jumping again and wrapping his arms around you so tightly, it pushed the air out of your little chest.

Filling your lungs up again, you began to stutter out apologies and little excuses alongside cries.

"I couldn't find you anywhere.. I-I thought a monster got you.." he spoke softly, pulling back just enough to look at you. His eyes searching you all over for any damage, his face had a look you had never seen before, a look you didn't understand, at least not fully. It was a look boys your age weren't supposed to know how to do yet- look at you like you were theirs to protect.

"I'm fine.." you mumbled in embarrassment. "I just wanted to play.."

"Promise." Jake's eyes locked onto yours, black pools with little flecks of gold, filled with the upmost seriousness.

"Promise.. what?"

"no more hiding from me. Ever."

"Even during hide-and-seek??"

"Especially then." His little face making a mean look, you stared at him for a moment- your cheeks struggling to stay still, and hold in your laughter.

"Okay!! I promise!" You held out your pinky, and he held out his, looping them together with laughter and a big grins.

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Most of your younger years were spent that way, together. As you and Jacob grew older, you changed as expected but your friendship never did.

That was until one summer, under a tree behind Billy's house. You and Jacob sat backs against it, underneath a blanket as you listen to music off the iPod he had received as a birthday gift. One set of earbuds shared between you, threatening to fall out if you move any farther from each other.

Stuck in this position, (Y/N) felt Jake's head rest onto her shoulder. His eyes closed as he began to hum to the playing song. Your chest began to tighten as something was felt bursting within it, a feeling you had never felt before as you look down at his face.

It felt like just yesterday, you and Jacob were running around the rez getting into trouble... But as you stared down at him, you started to notice all the ways he had changed, his hair long and darker than it was before. His nose more prominent placed on his thinner face which had slowly replaced his chubby cheeks, Jake was no longer that little boy that would run around with you on the beach. The whole sight of it making your heart feel as if it was stone, weighing you down and keeping you unable to move away from looking.

Jacob must've sensed you staring, turning his head up to meet yours, your gazes connect, and it almost takes your breath away as your face burns red hot, all of this simply too much for your mind to process.

"..you okay..?" He said, turning up a brow at your staring.

You stuttered out an excuse, something about it being too hot under the blanket, scooting yourself out from under it, and hiding your face away from him.

When you got back home that night, you couldn't remove the image of his face from your mind. The feelings it gave you.. they were so unbearably strong...

Laying on your bed as you stared at the ceiling, trying to force your heart to be still; you remembered the promise you all those years ago.

His voice in the woods, the scratch on his little cheek, the way he seemed so scared because he couldn't find you.

"No more hiding from me. Ever."

That promise..

And this- this feeling... It was scarier than the forest that night, deeper than any of the shadows underneath the trees.

So you made a decision. A terrible one that made your heart ache even more.

You'd keep your feelings hidden away. You'd keep quiet- despite the overwhelming urge to say it as loud as you could.

Because you couldn't bare losing him.

"I'm sorry Jake... Please forgive me.." You whispered, eyes stinging, and your throat tightening- breaking your promise to him, and hiding from him in a way he could never find.

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And that's the end of part 1! What do you think?? I've never written a fic before and only recently watched through twilight! (super late- I knowww). Feel free to comment if there are any mistakes OR if you have any suggestions on where the story should go (still thinking on how to include Bella's role in all this)!