KJPOEMS

I want to write everything that is inside of me but I’m scared I won’t have anything left in me.

One thing I never question is how smart she is. How compassionate and selfless she is.

I fell in love with a hurricane of a man and this is the safest I've ever felt.

I wish I stayed. I wish I stayed in my rabbit hole. I regret coming up for air and letting you give me hope. I wish I stayed alone.

I’m laying here wondering if this feeling will ever end. I told you I’m okay but I picked up old habits and it’s worse this time around. I’ve known for quite sometime this will end me. Not tonight or tomorrow but eventually. I think you wasted your time with me. I’m sorry.

“I just don’t understand why you keep waiting for someone to love you. You need to learn how to love yourself first, fill yourself with self love.” She was right and I couldn’t stand when she was right. So I hung up and took another swig pretending the tequila would fill me with self love.

I am cracked open. Come fill me with your love.

So we ran. From our problems, from the world, from the blood on our wrists.

Self diagnosis and Self medicating only led to more Self destruction.

You are the lump in my throat.

Love her when she can't love herself but know that your love will not fix her. Hold her when she's cold as ice and you don't recognize her.

He makes me feel like the world revolves around me. As if the sun and the moon would forget their order if I weren't here to instruct them. He makes me feel as if every kiss mends his subdued soul. He chooses to see the good in me and I love him for that.