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You didn't slam the door that would've been easier something loud enough to hate

Instead, you left quietly like a habit you finally broke like my name had already lost its weight in your mouth

I watched you go the way people watch sunsets knowing damn well they can't stop it but wishing, just once the sky would stay

Your footsteps didn't echo they erased each one taking something with it the way you laughed that way you said "stay" the version of me that still believed you would

I wanted to call out but what was left to say? We'd already spent every word on smaller goodbyes practice runs we pretended weren't endings

So I stood there hands empty heart loud memorizing the shape of your leaving like it was something I'd need to survive

And maybe that's the cruelest part not that you walked away but how final it felt

Like a door closing in a house that no longer exists like a last cigarette you didn't know was the last until you were already out of smoke

and somehow that's how I knew this wasn't a fight wasn't a pause wasn't something we'd fix when the night got softer

75 Day Challenge🫶🏽

1. Minimum 8 hours sleep - early nights, early mornings.

2. 10,000 steps per day - one long walk or several short walks throughout the day.

3. Calorie Deficit - calculate your maintenance calories and adjust accordingly.

4. Read Everyday - aim to unwind at night with a minimum of one chapter per day.

5. Meal Planning - 3 meals a day, batch cooking and breakfast planning will make things easier.

6. Minimum 2L of water every day - monitor your intake and ensure you’re hydrated.

7. Manageable Skincare - your routine does not need to be 10 steps long, find products that work for you and be consistent every morning and evening.

8. Clean One Room - Pick one room every day to tidy and clean, spend 30 minutes every day to maintain your space.

9. One Hour for You - spend one hour every day doing a hobby or activity you love. Listening to music, baking, yoga, etc.

10. Remove Your Biggest Habit - find one bad habit you have and aim to avoid this for the entire 75 days…stop smoking, don’t eat chocolate, avoid drinking alcohol, reduce screen time, etc.

january 1: 9 minute cardio warmup + 20 minute pilates booty + 12 minute stretch

january 2: 20 minute pilates + 20 minute yoga

january 3: 10 minute warm up + 15 minute back + 12 minute stretch

january 4: 10 minute cardio warmup + 20 minute abs & booty pilates + 12 minute stretch

january 5: 30 minute glutes + 15 minute leg stretch

january 6: 10 minute mobility warmup + 10 minute booty + 12 minute stretch

january 7: 10 minute cardio warmup + 20 minute pilates + 12 minute stretch

january 8 - january 11: hospital stay for me (do what you want here, just stay active!)

january 12: 20 minute metabolism boost + 15 minute pilates

january 13: 10 minute cardio + 15 minute legs & booty pilates

january 14: 15 minute cardio + 15 minute pilates abs

january 15: 15 minute cardio pilates + 20 minute yoga

january 16: 15 minute pilates arms + 10 minute upper body stretch

january 17: 15 minute booty & core pilates + 20 minute yoga

january 18: 10 minute cardio + 15 minute pilates + 10 minute yoga

january 19: 25 minute yoga

january 20: 40 minute pilates

january 21: 10 minute cardio warmup + 30 minute booty & legs pilates

january 22: 10 minute cardio + 30 minute upper body & abs pilates

january 23: 39 minute pilates

january 24: 48 minute pilates

january 25: 10 minute cardio + 30 minute lower body pilates

january 26: 55 minute pilates

january 27: 15 minute cardio + 30 minute pilates

january 28: 42 minute abs & arms pilates

january 29: 42 minute pilates

january 30: 45 minute vin to yin yoga