The Slow Regard of Silent Things

I need a sugar mama I don’t have the mental fortitude to handle all these shit ass managers, I’m gonna lose it one day istg

My dad got me a kitten 😭 sir it’s been 3 days 😭

I really wanna read an urban(?) fantasy book by an Arab or Indian author, like The Adventures of Amina Al-Sirafi by Shannon Chakraborty or A Master of Djinn by P. Djeli Clark. Does anyone have any recommendations? I’ve been really enjoying learning more about the folklore and cultures that way

I probably won’t have a cat soon. I am not doing well

All these “working to live” vlogs of people having 9-5 40hr work weeks and still somehow having the energy to exist and do hobbies or hang out with friends, or go places?? Where are you getting the energy for this from? How. I can barely get out of bed on my days off and I sure as shit don’t do anything after if i work in the morning/early mid. I work 25-30hrs a week and I can barely function. I have read all of 9 books since I got this job, have not finished a single piece of art, not played any video games, I can sit and watch cartoons or YouTube and IF I can muster the energy I might go to a movie with some coworker friends(we went to see Barbie and Mutant Mayhem) and then I’ll be out of commission for the next 3-5 days. What magic elixir are you snorting!?

It’s hard being an artist that hates drawing. The act of drawing is so tedious and annoying and I absolutely hate doing it. I love painting but the only media I really enjoy is watercolor, and the type of art I like to make is illustration which requires a lot of drawing in order to get to the painting part. Additionally I am in the process of writing a webcomic, something I’ve wanted to do for literal years, which will require both drawing and using digital media. I LOATH doing digital art, the colors don’t work correctly, the blending is awful, and without a screen tablet I can’t draw properly after YEARS of practice. I don’t even like being creative anymore because I can’t MAKE the things I come up with. I’m starting to really hate being an artist and I really wish I didn’t.

Realizing how much I genuinely despise being in the office is really making getting any work done absolutely impossible. I don’t have space just for myself outside of my bedroom and it’s slowly killing me.

I’m going to start working on my comic soon ✌🏻 hopefully I don’t have an existential crises half way through (it’s a common problem unfortunately)