Miss Kittens Blog

I've been missing my little man bad lately. A year and 4 months ago I lost my step son and I miss him so much. I don't know how to handle you being gone Cameron, lately I have been so depressed and sad I thought I was getting thru it but idk I just miss him so much and I feel so alone some times. My brother named his son Camron for me but sometimes it makes it 10 times harder and I feel so selfish for that. I know it was supposed to be for me but I just want my little guy cuddled up watching a movie with me asking his silly little questions

If you didn't do anything then why were you gone for HOURS and how did she know you took your daughter to school!!!

Everyone says I'm too good for you but for me it's always felt like the other way around... And now it's like I have the proof I've been hiding from for years...

"She let herself go..." Those are the words I can't forget I heard... You haven't even tried to touch me since then maybe I'm just meant to be alone...

How long would you cry? How long til you move on? How long til I'm a memory of nothing.

All I wanted was true friends and parents that love me. My mom is damn near a saint... But my father's? Well you've seen my blog! Girls got Daddy Probs...

But I'm 29 now and I feel so utterly alone, even tho I'm living with my mom and step dad... But now they are getting a divorce everything is different. When they first announced it, my step dad, promised me I'd still be his daughter but he's always angry with me... I feel like I'm 8 years old again begging him to love me and all he does is name my faults and make me feel like a piece of shit... I know I have fucked up in my life but I never realized that meant I'd lose him over a stupid fucking situation I couldn't help...

I just want to hear "I love you" and feel it...