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new song on the playlist :D

omg i fully had a dream about her ,, for some reason her and her bf were living at my house and it was super early in the morning and he was getting ready to go for work upstairs and she was in the room and he starts screaming at her like actually and i hear it all bc upstairs is right above my room then she doesn’t know i’ve heard and im trying to comfort her and then he leaves for work so im actually properly subtly trying to be like you don’t deserve that you need to leave him he’s insane and then we’re getting ready for the day my mum is making her breakfast and she’s just so down and i remember kissing the top of her head

sigh sigh sigh

her being jello of their relationship tells me everything i need to know about HER boyfriend because she is not hard to have fun with and be like them actually it’s so easy and so lovely and so fulfilling i genuinely don’t know why she’s wasting her time with him she deserves so much better

do you think she makes me go to bed so she doesn’t have to talk to me

i really don’t think i’m hard to love so why do people keep making me feel like i am SIGH.

not gonna stop talking to her when i get back to uni ,, tried it for a year and it didn’t work why tf would put myself through that again

i am #confused

i’m so flippin confused

also i think she’s accidentally followed one of my uni friends

bro i’m so confused have i been blocked ??????

does anyone else vividly imagine really gross or gruesome things but you’re not actively thinking about it it just pops into your head and then you just see it in your mind but it’s NOT ON PURPOSE

i couldn’t THINK yesterday do you know how flippin annoying that is ong i bet i pissed her off so badly

he’s actually the joker oml

her sending him the pic of the dinosaur was my final straw icl i wanted to actually off myself

i lowkey kinda shut down at one point bc she started texting him wtf is my problem bro