days are only footprints in the snow

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At least three more times. No one can be happy and carefree all the time, Kit but you know you have me for those times you can’t. But yeah, the animation style was kinda cool, I guess. You already kinda live in the woods with that garden of yours, and there’s plenty of animals too, you just gotta convince Bellamy to move in with you. Cool, so regular zombies it is.

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I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. Does that work for you? Well why not? Who says? And yeah I know. I don’t quite live in the woods but maybe I could find a little cabin somewhere and just become a hermit with my animals and have a spare room for you for whenever you want to visit. I’m going to have to say no to Bellamy though, and have to do without the faeries. I didn’t...yeah regular zombies will be fine. 

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It’s fine, it’s cute. But awesome! I knew you’d agree eventually, and nonsense, it’ll be great.

Or not, nothing wrong with wearing your heart on your sleeve. And you can help other people too, you grow all sort of plants on your garden that can be use for potions, and I’m sure you’re more powerful than you let on, you’re elite, after all. You’re right, tough… I doubt it’d be pleasant… —-Or, maybe some are better at pretending to play it better. Don’t be so hard on yourself.

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Oh...I - uhm thank you? It’s less agreeing and more giving in. 

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You can be a warrior worrier. A warrior with empathy. Maybe this is a shot in the dark but we should figure out a way we can all practice with control and get better with our magic. We’re the only ones who get each other’s struggles, who know what we’re aiming for. I – Thank you. I appreciate it. Really. 

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A warrior worrier - a champion of emotions. It would be good for some people definitely. Just gotta hope people remember who the true enemy and don’t “accidentally” lose control. And I mean that about everyone, not just the obvious people. You don’t have to thank me for being your friend, you know. 

But you already know the lines for Legally Blonde, Kit… you can pick any other movie!… We could watch Halloween, we’re in season after all.

You say that like it’s a bad thing...ugh fine, but only cause it’s better than any alternatives you could pick. Not the newest remake though. 

Anyone else been up since last night? Granted, I was passed out for a lot of it, but still. Maybe I could use a vacation.

I haven’t really managed to sleep at all since...y’know. Are you feeling any better in general? 

JAC: Oh you don't have to do that. I can wait, it's okay.

JAC: It seems like it helps you, and other people. Like clearing your head kind of thing. I figure that's not the worst thing in the world.

[After the mission]

KIT: Oh crap I got so busy with Jordan's birthday and other stuff, but I promise my schedule is free now. We can do all the clearing your head that you want.

EILWIN: Aight, awesome.

EILWIN: Ew. Besides, I don't wanna fight over a girl, I want her to like me and choose me regardless.

EILWIN: I'm somehow not surprised you have a moose friend.

KIT: Also that was toxic love whichever way you look at it and you deserve better.

KIT: She was a bit mad at me when I tried to suggest Bullwinkle as a name but we eventually settled on Millie.

JAC: Oh.. I was just wondering if maybe you would be okay going out to the woods this weekend?

JAC: It's okay if you're busy though, I can wait.

KIT: My schedule is all open and even if it wasn't, I'd make time.

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That’s just a lot of words love. Not everybody is good with people, it doesn’t mean we can’t get you someone. And you don’t need experience, that’s what I’m here for! I’ll guide you! It’ll be fun and you’ll get a date! I promise to go easy on you… come on Kit, live a little! Have fun, make out. You won’t dissuade me that easy. Come on, we can start this weekend.

I’m pretty sure we’re all fuck ups, we just… hide it better? None of us know how to deal with this love, we just do what we can. Besides, it’s not like my magic’s that much more useful, is it? Yes, I wield ink to my will, but it’s not like I’m gonna go face the faculty with a tattoo machine or a pencil, am I?… We’re all playing a part Kit.

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Sorry, I get a little...rambly when I’m nervous. You’re really not going to quit until I agree, are you? Uhm...okay then? But when this goes terribly, don’t say I didn’t warn you.

You’re an actual angel, Kit. Growing anything exciting these days?

Please. I’m just doing what any friendly neighborhood druid would do. Hmm... it’s harder to grow a lot of things this time of year. Takes a lot more energy, y’know, so I’m trying to just stick with whats natural this year. On the edible side there’s a few leafy greens, some beets and leeks. Most proud of my fig tree though. She’s doing so well this year. And there’s a few flowering trees that I started to grow from cuttings and helped along with a little magic. Maybe they’ll finally bloom this year. 

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You worry a lot, you know that? Does that include you? The learning control bit, I mean. Listen– what happened between me and Devon, way before my shit with Codie, it’s really not my place to say what happened. It’s personal shit. To her. And even if she does hate me, I don’t think she’d want me telling anyone. All that to say– trust me when I say she’s valid to hate me. It still irks me and she pushes my buttons, anyway. But I can’t fault her for hating me, not after everything I’ve done and said. 

You’re a good one, Kit. 

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My grandma always used to say I’d grow up to be a warrior, but I guess I misheard. Yes and no. My moment of losing control happened a long time ago. I haven’t really tried to push my boundaries since then. And that’s one of the reasons you’re my friend. A lot of people wouldn’t hesitate to divulge that information but you have lines you won’t cross. Okay, and I won’t push either of you on it, but regardless of what you’ve done? You’re still my friend and I’m not going anywhere or taking any crap from her about that. Who I choose to be friends with? Not negotiable.

I try.

I can’t imagine what that’s like, how much you would know and see. I feel like sometimes I have a hard time just keeping my week straight, not to even think about centuries. I’d say you’re pretty strong already, just to be able to communicate with plants. Strength doesn’t always mean control. It can for some things, but not always. Sometimes it’s knowing when to be soft. Oh, you mean it? That.. that’s really nice of you. Let me know whenever you have free time. What kind of animals do you see the most?

Oh. I don’t think I really have a place like that. I usually just… keep walking without stopping anywhere really.

I like that, yeah. It sounds cooler than anything I would’ve come up with anyways.

I can barely remember what I did the day before so you’re not alone there. Right...it’s sometimes hard to not compare myself to everyone else. Especially the people in our coven. And yeah of course I do. Why wouldn’t I? I love showing people around the woods and getting to drop some knowledge on them. And the fact that it’s you, is a bonus. Lots of different birds, chipmunks, squirrels, opossums, foxes, hares, bats... there’s a whole bunch. 

Where do you do most of your reading?

JAC: Hey... um, are you busy right now? Or today? Or... when are you free?

And what, may I ask, is your situation? Because so far I’ve only seen a hot girl without a date. That can be easily fixed.

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Of course there is, we’d be stupid if there wasn’t. But we can’t go to war waiting to die, can we? —-I’m… not sure that’s what I meant, but whatever floats your boat, I guess. Though I doubt she’d like that kind of thinking.

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I’m not good with people and there’s a lot of baggage and there are way cooler people around and I don’t exactly have much experience and did I mention the part where I’m really not good with people? You really don’t know what you’re getting into and it’s better for the both of us that I give you an out now. 

Have a little faith, darling. You’re gorgeous, it won’t even be hard finding you someone.

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That’s… incredibly negative. Not even I am that pessimist… and I can be painfully realistic at times. Cheer up, you’re not going to die, and at the very least, your bestie can bring you back.

It’s a little hard to have faith when you’re in my situation.

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EILWIN: Exactly. Thankfully not ours. And no, I'm not averse to it. So long as you don't mind 'buttercup'.

EILWIN: Who's to say there hasn't been one already? ;) There is a full moon coming up.

EILWIN: Exactly. And it surprisingly feels really good getting pets from people.

EILWIN: That's.. horrifying and amazing and I'm going to do it.

KIT: Not sure I could take it if my magic did. And I definitely don't mind buttercup or thumper.

KIT: Twilight is seeing a weird revival on social media...you've just got to find a vampire and a girl to fight over.

KIT: I have never been more grateful that my powers could pick you out of a line up of cats.

EILWIN: That's fair, we've got some creepy fuckos here.

EILWIN: Oh fuck me running, this is a thing now, isn't it?

EILWIN: I have two favorites, so I'm not being entirely fair. A black cat and a gray wolf. I like red foxes, too, but they're not a favorite.

EILWIN: Cats are fun because girls go crazy over 'em. ;)

EILWIN: That, too, yeah. But legit. I've always wanted to try something bigger.

KIT: Yeah and some magic just calls for that sort of thing.

KIT: Not if you're completely averse to it.

KIT: You'd fit right in as a cat or fox but turn into a wolf and you'd probably start a werewolf rumor.

KIT: Cats do have that tendency of curling in to peoples laps and well...you're just heartless if you try to make them move.