âDonât js sit there and wait 4 me to talk,âá¶»z âąâ yuta okkotsu x reader
TW: the reader is severely traumatized, the reader lost her loved ones during shibuya incident, HEAVY angst, love confession, fluff, THE AFTERMATHS OF JJK MANGA ENDING, MANGA SPOILERS!! Yuta has lost it too btw àšà§
âArenât you tired?â You looked up from your hot dinner. âYou had just returned from eliminating a special grade.â
The dining table was piled with various kinds of foods. The room reeked of unrequited love and affection. It almost made you want to melt into the ground out of shame.
âTired? This is just a simple dinner. You deserve it. So sit back, relax and enjoy your evening,â Okkotsu gave you a gentle smile. He was sitting in his chair so elegantly. As if he was a doll for display.
You lazily swung your fork around the small chop of meat on your plate. It was regarded as impolite to play with your food at the table yet you could not help it. Whatever act he was putting up was rather exaggerated and nerve wrecking.
âI think I remember telling you to stay away from my house,â you muttered. Your voice came out like a whisper. You did not dare to look at him but you could sense his gaze burning down on your face.
He breathed out a laugh. âDid you?â
âI sure did.â You put the fork in your mouth. âI am no longer a part of the jujutsu society anymore. Why do you still insisting on clinging onto me?â
âForgive me then,â He replied. He poured himself a glass of water and gulped it down. He had just dodged your question. Great.
It hadnât been long since your partner, who you had been in a committed relationship, died during whatever that was. Ever since the disasters occurred within jujutsu society. You would never believe you could easily love somebody as easily again. You suppose you do not genuinely had the strength to.
You glanced at his abdomen. Behind the linen cloth of his shirt laid a dark giant horizontal scar that once made him almost lose his life. Itâs only pure luck that had saved him from entering the deathâs door.
âI once thought it is appropriate to only admire youâ a undeniably strong colleague,â He broke the taunting silence, his eyes glancing away like he was thinking about something from the past. âHowever, now that everything had gone crumbling down and itâs only you and I left..â he smiled as his piercing eyes darted back at you again. âIt feels like I have the responsibility to grasp every piece of love everyone else had for you.â
He dragged his finger, circling on the soft mattress of the table. âAnd finally form something full, something complete.â
You winced at his words. He knew you couldnât handle this sort of conversation yet he dared utter those words like he wanted to let his friends die from the start.
Of course it was going to turn out like that for him as well. Everyone left the both of you in this grey world. Despite the other survivors remaining, you and him were like two small connected puzzle pieces lying far from the other pieces.
It was not the same. It will never be the same.
Everything hasnât been okay since you stepped out of that butcher hole. It was beyond petrifying. It was traumatic for both parties. And yet he had the audacity to act like those deaths of his beloved ones had not fazed his delicate little soul. It was as though he was not quite as disheveled as you were.
âI canât return the favor,â you dropped your spoon next to the plate. âLook, I donât even believe I have the ability to form a proper relationship again.â your voice trembled. âI am really, extremely sorry so can you please just stop seeing me agai-.â
âI can,â He smiled. His body leaned against the table. âbut you must promise me something.â
âYou must tell me what it is, first or I will not be confined to it.â You stared into his wet eyes. Despite the goodie-two-shoes look on his face, you could sense the heavy burden of the man who was once the second strongest sorcerer in the jujutsu world.
"In the future, if you ever find yourself in the position to love somebody again,â He smiled softly. âlet it be me.â Somewhere along that sentence, you heard his voice shook.
Your breath became unstable. Is he stupid? Your ability to love was lacking because you had become too afraid to dedicate your heart again. Therefore this ridiculous fantasy he had was never likely to happen.
What is giving him the strength to be so desperate?
You pressed down both your hands into the table mattress. âWhy must you be so stubborn? Donât you get it? We are both at the edge of turning insane! What gives you the illusio-â
âI love you,â Yuta confessed, âI learned to appreciate you even more given the circumstances. I wish to adore every part of you while I remain alive.â
You felt like something clicked within you.
You realised that you had taken the negativity out of the situation whereas this man before you learn to cope with it in a more meaningful way. Had he always been like this?
The familiar old smile appeared in your memory and you confirmed that. Heâd always been like this.
You inhaled as you built up every courage to breathe out. âYou were already adored by many including me.â You said, shaken by the pain of the loss of your old boyfriend. âBut I..promise you I will not dodge my feelings for you if I were to discover myself again.â
âGood.â He gave you a toothy grin. The one that you hadnât seen for possibly years. âWe will be alright, [Name].â He took your cold hands with his warm ones. âYou and I, together, will go through this.â
Your heart ached at the look of his thrilled face. Can you really be hopeful about this? It should not possibly be happening sooner or later but maybe if you just stand strong and get up again, both of you get to live a happy life and this time, a happy ending.
âNow eat up, the food is getting cold.â He insisted before retreating his hand from yours. A small smile broke out your lips. You were almost certain that you will be having this guy in your house more often to cook meals for you.
Regarding fairness, Itâs a price for asking a huge favor from you.
I saw a slideshow on tiktok about this kinda plot and Iâm balling my eyes out. BTW I hope I still have my people w me.đââïž I hadnât posted in a long time due to assignments and stuff. I apologize deeply for that, my loves. đ àŁȘË ÖŽÖ¶Öžâ
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