In the past moths I've done some Things which are quote uncommon for me. I sleeped with a friend, its been 9 months or more since my ex and I seperated, and I just couldn't get over him. Those two years did Hute hard. But I am really in a different place right now. I work more than I ever have, and I am exsausted, but also really happy that I am going trou this.
I found some new friends, and they are the nicest people! They are so deeply nice that I am happy that I can call them my friends. I don't even know how I deserve them. So I will just take it, no questions asked and be thankfull.
Because of them I've smoked a joint again. Not that they forst me, I just wanted to, and It wasn't that Bad, but I dont want to Do it again, its just not for me.
They Kinda make me feel Nostalgie because I feel like in the old days with my old friends. I feel like I belong with them right now.
I think I could be quite happy, but I am so exsausted by my work, its really messing me up. So I am confused what I am feeling. I have good days, and I have Bad days right now, but monstly good ones i guess.
When this pandamic is over, I am going to Look for an therapist, I think that will help me to get over a lot of the Things of my past.
But also, I am on my period right now so mabey I am just being dramatic. Idk.