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“i’m not weird, i just think fabric softener smells really good. sue me. i wish i had like, a magic wand, that would put away all my clothes for me. yeah, my brother and i room together. it’s cool.”

“yes, it’s fun because you get to clean all your clothes and use fabric softener and it always smells so good so then when you get your clothes out of the dryer it just smells really good. i hate doing the dishes i’d like to thank whoever made the dishwasher, if not i’m sure my brother would have lost his mind by now.”

‘            no      .      but like you said      ,     we were   friends   and you cared apparently so i deserved at least a heads up         .             ’            spearmint sight      ,      attempting to regain her cool and end this conversation as soon as possible      .      it was like   prickling   slowly at her  HEART   and god      ,    she fucking hated feeling this way       .       chiselled   abyss between corrugated brows       ,          suddenly turning around at his words     ;     there was nothing left to talk about     .      neither said anything and their chance was missed so of course lux would be upset       ,       so why was she continuing this pointless argument      ?        why did she find it so hard to let something like this go      ?            ‘               then fuckin’ go       !          go back to her          !         she’s less complications  so just go         !       why are you still here when we can’t even talk without screaming at each other        ??         i’m glad it’s so easy for you to say you wanna go back to being friends but  SUE   me for not having that same mentality    !     ’   

“i like doing laundry it’s fun, but putting it away is the hassle. its the worst for me i never want to fold my clothes and put it away. it’s a constant battle with myself, really. same with dishes. except when it’s in the dishwasher then i don’t have to get my hands so dirty.”

she stops         /          his words sink in         .         every bit of them is true         ,        she’s angry at him but also herself                                                               the regret of having been unable to say anything in fear of    RUINING       what they did have and letting someone else snatch him away       .          but he hadn’t given her closure         ,          he just straight up         ENDED        everything and it threw her off balance         .        she hates vulnerability and felt it that time he told her about georgia           .                    ‘             would it have mattered       ?           the fact you started dating her proves that you never once considered more for us or you would’ve also said something        !                    ’             how hypocritical of her         .          her back remains to him           ,            unable to move anymore              (            FOUND IT HARD TO BREATHE           )         .                ‘              .         .          .         whatever       ,        kieran        .              you couldn’t even come here       sober      .               ’    

frustration builds           ,                piling up inside a cage of rage          ,        jealousy       ,       disappointment           .        gaze widened at his comments and assumptions       ;        he actually had the        AUDACITY       of saying something as cruel as that            .           lux was hurt        /         hurt by his words        ,         hurt over his assumptions          ,        and      HURT      over how easily he threw her away for someone else           .           maybe she’s exaggerating             ,           but she           .          .         .         HATED               how easy this whole thing was for him while she was suffering       alone           .                 ‘                                                                   you’re     FUCKING    kiddin’ me        .                 ’           gaze brazen            ,                storming towards him until she’s glancing up at his towering figure            .               ‘            friends           ?              is that what we were         ?         do friends throw each other away as easily as you did       ?          did you once      stop      to think about how i’m feeling         ?        did you even once fuckin’ cared to ask me how i felt about ending whatever the fuck was between us         ??          did you ever once                                                          think about how fuckin’     SHITTY     it was for me to see you with georgia        ?         no    ,        we weren’t friends        .       friends care and you didn’t      .        ’

it’s only now that she noticed he’s drunk        ;          REEKED       of alcohol that mixed with the smoke of his cigarette        .         perfect                                                                   he finally decides to reach out to her and it’s not even in his right mind          .              SCOFF        wanes pearled maw         ,         reaching for her apartment keys in her bag                .                  ‘              but then          ,               didn’t you do the same         ?           you couldn’t     possibly      think things between us would’ve stayed the same when you chose to be with someone else         ,         so i assume you didn’t give two shits about me          .                 ’        

ice bite           ,            bitter and grudging     against the crisp air            /              there he was        ,        the person she’d successfully avoided for a while                                                                HE LOOKED DIFFERENT            ,          or maybe it’s the fact that she hasn’t seen him in a while          (        a heavy contrast to how they saw each other everyday before          )           .         felt that       RESENTMENT      she was afraid of         ;         she knows he didn’t technically do anything wrong            .           they weren’t together    ,          it’s not as if he cheated as there’s no relationship to betray          ,              but it damaged the little there was between them greatly         .                 ‘                wasn’t the fact that i was obviously avoidin’ ya clear to ya            ?           go home          ,          kieran        .               ’              

❝ yeah, — sushi sounds great. ❞ she scrolled through her messages, and quickly made a reply to her online campanion, oblivious to the world around her at the moment. she wasn’t even sure if they were talking about what to order for dinner, but god lets hope so or else she would end up looking like a complete ass.❝ hold on just a second, ❞ she held up her right index finger, ❝ i promise i’ll turn it off after this.❞

“yes, laundry while drunk, and it wasn’t even laundry day i just really felt like doing it. i’m surprised it didn’t either, but i’m sure it’ll happen if i keep trying to do laundry while drunk so next time i’ll try my best not to.”

“i tried to do laundry last night after the club while fucked up and it was definitely a challenge that i managed to achieve,” camila couldn’t help but laugh as she thought of it, “i got so distracted at one point that i just kept pouring the detergent because it was just flowing and it looked nice. at least my clothes are super clean and smell great now.”

❛   i’m  JUST  SAYING  —  jesus  wasn’t  even  born  in  december  !  christmas  is  a  sham  and  i’ve  been  played,  we’re  all  just  funding  big  corporations.  i’m  not  saying  that  i  won’t  bop  to  miss  mariah’s  ‘all  i  want  for  christmas’  but  i  don’t  agree with  it.   basically,  no  i  don’t  want  any  christmas  presents.   ❜ 

“ SO , ” brown hues SHIFT from the short stack of papers on her lap to the person seated next to her as concentration furrows her brow. “ what do you think the BEST way is for a teacher to tell a parent that their kid has ANGER ISSUES ? you know , in a way they can’t argue with , but that also doesn’t make me sound like a bitch. ”

hey, what the fuck is up kyle ? i haven’t had the chance to talk to any of you guys yet because group chats bring on the Anxiety™ but i will present both kieran and i to u all now. All u need to know is i’m one of those bitches that never stops talking about vine and i live off kraft mac and cheese alone. kieran is a bit more interesting, so i’ll give y’all the deets below. if u would like to plot with me just like this post and i’ll shoot each one of u a message !