Freakin me out

i wana cut so bad and i'm so pissed about it because the only reason i feel like shit is for a stupid shitty burger job that asked me to miss an entire week of classes for training and has asked me to come in almost every day i have listed as unavailable. tomorrow - sunday i have to work 13 hour shifts i think and i've worked an 11 hour shift max in my life (im trying so hard and i know so many people have it so much worse than me and i'm lucky to have the privilege of going to school) and i'm hardly trained on the job i'm so anxious i am so far behind on class i'm trying to get my homework done but i've been at school all day and i'm tired and i feel like i should get optimal sleep for work but i'm anxious and i cant sleep and i'm sucha burden to be around i'm sucha piece of shit i wana take all my anger out on myself. i love going to school and i have to work and its FINE i just cant stop complaining shit is really hard for me i struggle a lot i have issues idk why everything is so hard for me idk why i can't just be level headed and trust things will be ok i'm just a pussy who cant take shit idk i wana die i need to go back to therapy

i have nothing to //// with and im so pissed im dying im scratching at my skin w/ my nails dude

i wana give you kisses all over yr face again i wana hold you again i wana feel yr hand reach for mine

i wana die brother i wana die so badly being alive hurts me dude