justin doesn’t have a tumblr anymore so i can now vent on the internet again about sad gyal things. yall. Its been a rough few weeks. i’m fat again. because thats what being in europe does to you it makes you fat. lots of beer, and cheese and bread. open relationships are trash. yet here i am. doing the 20-something tradition of making lots of dumb fucking mistakes. and i’m hurt.. and its all my fault which is dope! uhm. ugh. i have no words because I’m here doing a lot of amazing things. and seeing many amazing places and wanted time to grow and kiss and idk be a young adult ???? and now he’s gonna go hookup with someone and it sucks but its only faIR i guess. and. I just hope my 20s don’t fucking kill me . why am i sad??? adn my laptop is acting stupid. and you know I wish I could talk to my mom about these things but i can't and my face is ugly again and just. damn. i don't even know what to say yall! !!!!!! i just know that I didn't want to physically write this in my journal because that would make me really sad. I just ordered food. but i feel like I can’t order food because I’m ugly and even though I’m really sleepy I couldve worked out. And.. hmm maybe in the morning I’ll feel better and I’ll get a lot of sleep and I’ll do my hair. and I ‘ll put on makeup and. I guess what I’ve learned from this shit is: don’t fix it if it ain’t broke. and trying to fix something may damage it beyond repair.
