Get The Job Done

finally I asked why he was so scared

and he said he was scared of drinking coffee

I remember forty of them, maybe thirty clearly. I was born slowly as I watched you discover me, Born all at once when you went away I was born watching you realize you’d never know me, predict me, and can tap out my pulse on your faded jeans from across the world but guess my dinner order wrong every time I watched you decide to trust me and I was born in the weight of it, I was born deciding to be worth that trust

I remember waking up gasping, born in my subconscious I was born when I realized betrayal can cripple the body and staystaystays in the attic of you Another birth when I was so scared and kept moving

I wasn’t as alive as I am before I lost something I built myself on Hearing someone list and detail and compile like souvenirs the men and women they’d sleep with to get where I wanted to go, Watching them get there Realizing it’s not a victory I want, I was born in disappointment Born in having been used and disposed of Born on learning

Turning around and leaving my sacrifices behind Replacing college with life experience and seeing the exchange rate We all have debt So much debt We all have degrees

We’ve all been born, and then again; and then more We’ve all passed away from who we were, what we knew, the dreams we had and the person in the mirror we wanted to do right by