do you feel like the universe is aligning in a way that’s telling you to kill yourself? like you can see all the signs, the subtle cues. like foreshadowing in a movie? the people around you grow more distant and more distant. your body feels like it’s failing but in little tiny ways. you get older and you bleed, exactly in that dumb fucky way you always have. instead of walls closing in, it’s like everything is so fucking spacious and wide. but there’s nobody there, you’re wandering around a lone and nobody wants to hug you or take of you because they don’t care. “i have myself, i take care of myself” you tell yourself. you don’t like yourself. when was the last time you liked yourself? maybe when you were 10. but you highly doubt that. i think the signs make sense. i think it’s a little beautiful even if people say get freaked out by it and try to fix u. because this sad retarded feeling is just YOU this is YOURS. nobody can take that from you. all those people who are happy and successful they wouldn’t understand that! this is YOURS and it’s beautiful because it’s so uniquely yours. be proud of THAT because you built that.
