חיים‎ מקור

i am a cruel and capricious god and i will never let avicebron forget what he did

You see yourself so clearly that you can see the gaping hole inside you where you lost a piece long ago. It's there and it's ragged and painful and bleeding and you don't know how no one else can see it when it takes up so much of your awareness. You run from it, fight it, try to find it but nothing bandages up that hungry mawing void inside yourself and when you're tired, uninspired, you swear it grows and grows. You promise yourself you want to be alone, promise yourself that you want to be different, want to be special, love having this hole inside you and point it out in words or song or jokes and stories and take pride in that pain, in your uniqueness in this world of grays and storm clouds. You are 5 am rain on asphalt roads and sputtering street lamps. You are petrichor musings and messy guitar chords and a thousand contradictions wrapped inside a quiet cry, an evening of coffee and jittering hands and a promise that you're okay or that you're fine until you're falling apart in someone's arms or messages and pretend you're alright in the morning. You taste so strongly but sometimes you wonder if all you are is ash.

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STARTER CALL. capping at two! castmates are exempt however. these may or may not be spirale fes related.

   ❛ ☩ 5′2″ and closer to hell.    ❛ ☩ zero social skills; he’s bad with people, especially children, and not much of a conversationalist. he is trying to improve however.    ❛ ☩ he sacrificed his master, roche yggdmillennia, in order to attain the completion of his noble phantasm, golem keter malkuth. though he can no longer recall the event in detail, he considers it his greatest mistake.    ❛ ☩ upon his murder, he was dismembered and buried under a fig tree, which then bore wonderful fruits. it’s likely this translated into his summoning, and his arms and legs are thus artificial.    ❛ ☩ he can make golems out of literally anything.    ❛ ☩ fathered the branch of magecraft known as “kabbalah”.    ❛ ☩ is there anything better than forging close relationships and trust? yes, a really good book.    ❛ ☩ the thinking emoji personified.

       HE IS CURRENTLY HURTLING THROUGH THE STREETS at approximately 30 kilometers per hour upon his newly acquired wheeled hoverboard, tapping at his chin with a finger contemplatively, ❝  ... Hm.  ❞

               ❝  ---Hou.  ❞ he cannot recall ever encountering such a device--- but at least it allows for a faster means of transportation.