Scrolled across this & had to stop. Lately (prob bc hella planets are retrograde, envoking reflection x10) I've been thinking a lot about what I've learned from what life has thrown my way. For one, it's that I can do all the planning I want and life will still be unpredictable - I still plan tho, for balance sake lol. But what has prevailed through some of those tougher lessons is the understanding that God sees me. I'ma just put it out there, one of my biggest fears is being left alone (was lol). And somehow through fearing this very thing, I landed myself in isolation. Figuratively alone. (SN: thoughts def become things, even bad ones) Further down the road I realized it wasn't being alone that I was afraid of- I love being by myself- it was giving love that scared the hell out of me. Giving love to people who could hurt me, fear of not having it reciprocated or worse, not having anyone to give to. Lots of fear. So I told myself I'd rather be alone/not give. I think people who are natural "givers" can generate wounds from those times they choose to give and are taken advantage of or hurt in general. That's where the fear kicks in. But that in itself is a challenge to overcome. Knowing that God loves us enough to not only pull us out of dark places, but to have people in our lives show up for us to love. To me that says, if we have the love to give in our hearts we are bound to receive just that back! Idk exactly how others relate to fear and love, but it can be crippling. I listened to something today that said a lot of what stops us from following our hearts isn't the fear of listening, but the fear of the consequences of listening to what our heart says. I really think that the universe responds to our beliefs. "Can't" is like an automatic blocker and so is denying the heart the opportunity for love. Those uncomfortable moments are what make us. Personally I looked around me at all the ppl who were mirroring the parts of me I thought I didn't have. I think the uni used them to remind me that I could love, despite my fears & what I had told myself (the ppl around us are mirrors). Even when we can't see it in ourselves, God sees our strength and will see us










