this wont last forever,

sort of. like i love you. and i dont understand why you did what you did. i mean i was so happy with you, and i know you were too. yeah it was hard being away from you so much but i kept strong. had to for the both of us. i was so proud of you, passing p coy, going up for promotion. i loved meeting your family. i loved that you made me part of your life. im gonna miss you so much. my northern babe. i cant make the  same jokes i did with you to anyone else. feels like im cheating. since you've been gone ive made an utter tit of myself to keep myself from being lonely. and im not like that i swear but people think i am. i just cant handle being lonely at all. and thats not why i miss you, not cos im lonely, but you as a whole.