I just want to feel something again 🪐

I associate approval with love. When I don't get approval for every little thing I do, I don't feel loved. And then I feel alone. And then I hate myself. And then the sadness takes over and I can't stand my existence. And it happens over and over again until one day it kills me.

Rather be caught doin drugs than caught cryin lmao

“u okay?” no i just want to feel loved by someone without thinking they’re lying to me

I hate having bpd so fucking much. I hate how I feel the urge to push everyone that loves me away. I hate sitting on the bathroom floor rocking back and forth because I don’t know what to do. I hate being called dramatic because I’m unable to control how I react to everything around me. I hate that people will never understand what it’s truly like be inside my head.

The borderline urge to literally run away from your whole life. Just walk out the door and never come back, block everybody and start over.