Totality of Existence

Got some nerve crawling into my life.

Def not your first or last at this rate,

Your words stab into my chest like a knife.

Have fun not knowing how to live,

You are so fucking heartless.

I guess whatever makes you feel somewhat alive,

Back and forth, here we go, swaying like trees

Come enjoy the view up here, let me stay in your orbit

So familiar, you accept me, you became my target

Mr Not Right Now, this is nice but it doesn't feel right

Maybe I'm not giving this a chance or a fight

Maybe I'm impulsive and a little bit scared

Been a while to have someone who actually cared

Mr Not Right Now, maybe 3rd times the charm?

Take another chance, there's no harm

After all it seems our paths keeping crossing

Spending hours talking and talking

I really want this to work but there's something I can't get my mind off of

Is this comfortable or is this going to be real love

It's not fair to either of us if I'm stringing you along

Like a bandaid, you were a temporary fix.

Ripped it off knowing my heart would still break in two.

When you want to fall in love you are always taking that risk.

You were the color red, always talking about passion.

You made it seem like there was more to you.

But the truth hit like a cloud covering the sun.

Like a high, I get wired

When I look at you, I don't feel alone

With you I feel like I'm home

2 different people but so much chemistry

Are these feeling real or am I just imagining things?

Seems like I have to repeat myself.

This game you play isn't fair.

Seems pretty clear all you care about is yourself.

What did I do last night?

Hopefully I didn't embarrass myself too much.

Liquid courage gets me feeling alright,