i think itās the fact that iāve been in this household for about 5 years now and have seen no change, no growth, nothing. all i see is pain, stubbornness, greediness, selfishness, anger, tears, spoiled-ness, and just confusion. i want to leave. oh how much i want to.
it really hit me like a year or two ago. i felt guilty at first, of course. but it has to be done. i am so close to getting my own place already, though the plan is to wait until after i graduate. however, i feel like iām about to explode. i am but a spectator in this household for my actions will mean little to nothing and have felt like they meant nothing to anyone.
this is stupid.
Dear Past-Kim,
Weāve moved out and are currently living in a wonderful home with a loving boyfriend. You learned to cook so many dishes you hoped to learn. Youāre in the process of decorating still, but what we have so far is so comfy and so you. You have a specific room, though a guest room, but a room to stream for as long as you want and not worry about the noise from shit neighbors.
Things got better. It just took so much time.
